Sunday, December 31, 2006 at Sunday, December 31, 2006
woah!!! the most impossible thing happen! haha. i think my hse gt a "invisble" sign board outside my hse or wad. haha. cuz.. when i open the door. i saw this pair of starling eyes open wide shocked at me. this lil creature is staring at me! haha. a HAMSTER! haha. unbeliveable man!! haha.
Saturday, December 30, 2006 at Saturday, December 30, 2006
today went for bollywood lesson and yoga lesson too. haha. had great great great fun! haha. haha. sweat big time. haha. den went far east,walk walk wid sharon. saw gillian and MR ANG!!! my POA teacher! haha. he see me den he like so shocked and he faster run... haha.. wads wid tt reaction? haha.yeah!!! bought two bottle of perfume today! i think i muz be crazy! haha. davidoff GAME and CK one, SUMMER! hahaha. okies. gotta spend wisely nw..
Friday, December 29, 2006 at Friday, December 29, 2006
wah!!! boring day!!! juz plain bored.. haiz..
Thursday, December 28, 2006 at Thursday, December 28, 2006
hm... today went causeway to eat pasta wid gary. haiz. i am damn broke. i think i need to stop indulging myself in good food.haiz. tts the problem wid me!!! FOOD!!! i'll nv seem to say NO to food. haiz. nvm! endure!!! haha. getting pay soon i think.went training. haiyo damn boring lah!!! been doing the same thing OVER AND OVER and again.. maybe i am too sensitive. but i do feel tt coach seems to pick on everything i do. even the v.minor thing like laughing.. haiz. i am a hyper girl lah!!! if i nv laugh tt means i gt something wrong ler lah!!! haha...
basically nothing much today. still ever as mean to gary as ever. still had supper wid mad n mel after training.. btw.. haiz. zhijun wanted to transfer the membership!!! argh!!! haha. y i sign ler den say!!! hm..
Wednesday, December 27, 2006 at Wednesday, December 27, 2006
haiz. nothing much today! hm.. so sad. the damn toilet's light juz went off liddat! i have to bath without the lights but wid candles.. haha. romantic huh... but too bad! haha. bathing alone. =X haha. went marina square wid gary today and catch "NIGHT IN MUSUEM" hehe.. nice and funny show! my fav part is the T-rex acting like my beloved dog.. juz tt lucky dun fetch. haha. and also the last part where they put on the chirpy song " SEPTEMBER" haa.. damn nice. haha. had an sakae for dinner! haha. damn nice!!! but the service is kinda bad. it seems like they r facing power shortage. hm.. well. n the is hair inside the handroll.. haiz. turn off.
haiz. nv pay bills and nw i cant make outgoing and send msg out either. argh!!! i feel so lost without the hp!!!
Tuesday, December 26, 2006 at Tuesday, December 26, 2006
its christmas eve! was so tired from all the partying. i am practically behaving like a walking zombie. tsk. lucky thing was wrk ends at 5! haha. so not so bad. haha. well nothing much though. did some shopping wid sharon. was damn packed. dis yr i dun have the mood to go and squeeze wid the crowd. think of all the ppl pushing around and loads of molest case last yr and foreign wrkers everywhere.. tsk turn off. haha. all i wanna do is to leave town asap! after i reached home. i went to junction 8 to meet jere for a movie. we watched the holiday. was pretty nice show. it made me wanna go some where FAR AWAY... and meet someone new and special. haha. juz like wad happened to them in the movies. haha. will be quite fun!
today went town wid gary to NUM to collect his gifts for his frens. haiz. wait and wait. cannot stand him. haiz. i let him wait for me once i have to wait f0r him ten times more. cant stand shen zi. face forever so crook. haha. =X
after tt we went my aunt's hse for dinner! haha. the soup is damn nice!!! but it kinda cost quite alot lors. but still... two thumbs up! haha. i think gary gonna grow sideway soon! haha. christmas seems indifferent from other days. except for the prezzies. haha. btw i juz gt a pair of haivanas frm gary! thanks bro!
Monday, December 25, 2006 at Monday, December 25, 2006
its been a crazy crazy weekend! haha. sat we went to celeb sharon's bday at MOS! haha. and at wrk i finally met the CRAZIEST bitches! haha. NASTY CUSTOMER!!! 3 at one shot! one was banging table a making a scence at the service centre. the other two was practically hilarious and the things they piss me off but on the other hand, they are practically making a fool out of themself. joke of the day! MOS was like sooo crowded. anne, yuling n liliing and ESTHER WONG is there too. haha. i hardly see her outside after 8pm.. haha. but nah, she didnt went in though. we cut the cake at the overhead brigde near fort canning hill. kinda feel bad for nt giving my darling a better bday celebration. wrkin drives me crazy. jackson joined us too.
haha. but it was really crazy and a new challenge for me tt i tried to handle tt 2 stupid cust though. u will nv believe wad they say k. "after we bought this hp, she keep seeing the doc!! I WANT TO CHANGE THE DAMN HP!" y dun have sits? i am a old folk. she bloody refuse to let me serve other cust! so inconsiderate. they were practically hogging the damn counter seat! which left a few of the cust being served standing up! in the end i settled her on my own! hehe. proud of myself!
Saturday, December 23, 2006 at Saturday, December 23, 2006
haha. i today went to true yoga again! haha. i went to the therapy and BOLLYWOOD DANCE!!! wahaha. was wid sharon! haha. bollywood dance was fun man!!! haha. lol. had many many fun! haha. after tt went wisma to look for lingg. haha. den went to meet gary at heeren. haha. den went to indulge in sakae!!! haha. okies. nw i am broke. haiz. haha! lame shit.. tsk.
after tt go sharon hse slack. yeah! gg mos tml! hehe.
Friday, December 22, 2006 at Friday, December 22, 2006
hm.. basically today is a very tired day! damn damn shag! today was late for the friendly. oops. they only gt 5 ppl. so no choice have to borrow frm evergreen. haha. den when i reach den i realise i nv bring socks again! haiz. so i left early at 4pm. was running all the way to make it on time for the kickboxing and combat lesson. omg! i am soooo tired. haha. its quite good. i went to sign up the membership. haiz. $92.40 every month! omg. in order to keep fit! haha. aww.. i think of the money!!! haiz.. i will learn to utilise the facilities properly!!!
after tt indulge in sakae wid sharon! haha. argh! i eat so much. haiz. all my wrk out go to waste. sobs.. damn drained now. haiz.
Thursday, December 21, 2006 at Thursday, December 21, 2006
yeah today bought a top frm zara!!!
Wednesday, December 20, 2006 at Wednesday, December 20, 2006
haiz. "rain rain go away come again another day"
hm.. yest i was damn pissed. i saw him putting another girl's pic in his friendster. haiz. y bother to bull shit all those crap to me when he already had some one new? but in the end we quarrel and things werent gg well for us. haiz. i am pretty upset. mayb he still mean something to me. after all its been 3 yrs. haiz. okok. enuf of him..
today finally gt my bag which i gt frm sgspreee!!! haha. den went to meet aunt and had a v.yummy carrot cake n my long awaited black glutinous porridge. haha. den headed to my student hse. kinda shock though! cuz i think her mom ask me to stop lers. arghs!!! dere goes my $20/hr.. sobs.. but u get my pay today also!!!! haha.
went town to meet vik. but she went to catch movie wid cheryl. haha. i wait until i see "mould" all over me liao. haha. den went to NUM to look for gary. omg.. i almost scare myself to death. everytime i see shenzi, i see an angry man. haha. den after tt we went mc cafe to chill awhile den go hm. haiz
on my way hm.. jere tell me tt he will send me a msg everyday telling me tt he still love me. but when the day he stops, is the day he get over me. tt makes me sad. actually i hope to hug him like we used to. but if i really do, the whole thing will start again. haiz. its too late...
yeah! i cant wait for thurs! cuz i will have an excercise marathon! and of cuz i cant wait to meet sharon to go TRUE YOGA.. loves loves loves. i miss her man! haha. i miss everyone. haiz no more miss penguin to disturb.. haiz.
Tuesday, December 19, 2006 at Tuesday, December 19, 2006
haha. today was quite fun! friendly wid SAJC. haha. today's attendance is quite lil. so i get to play most game. haha. yeah! haha. gain more experience! haha. raymond walk into sports hall!!! wahahaha! i gt a shock man. haha. but his gf is one of the SAJC player.aww... haiz... haha. sadded!!! HAHA. no lah!! crazy girl! haha.
argh! gt blue black all over. haiz. but nvm as long as the ball goes up. hehe.
haiyo!! i think i today smell like fish pond! argh.. haha. sian. haiz. forget to bring towel! argh.. wad a day. haiz. i miss mad n mel already.. haiz. hmph.. dis few days keep forgeting to bring my stuff. yest forget to bring hp!!! haha.
Monday, December 18, 2006 at Monday, December 18, 2006
haha. today was extremely late for wrk. i was 2 hrs late! omg. lucky nt much ppl. haha. haiz. sian. yu choon's bf is damn sweet. fetch her frm wrk almost like everytime!! aww.. haha. but she say tt she dun feel anything. haha. well.. hahaha. but i am happy now! hmph! haha. today was very slack though. haha. was at collection counter wid phina n time pass freakin fast. haha. n i stayed back extra 1 hr to help to count stock. hehe. tts extra wrk. haha. in the end i get adrian to help me sign my punch card. haha. so in short i was only late for 1 hr. hehe. its worth it man! haha.
after wrk went prata hse wid gary. haha. no idea wads wid me n prata hse. hehe. but nvm.. i am juz getting fatter n fatter lah! argh.. SLIM DOWNNNN...
Sunday, December 17, 2006 at Sunday, December 17, 2006
haiz.. today i manage to settle this uncle on my own! proud of myself man! haha. my learn hw to settle nasty cust. so tt i can handle them next time! haha.today was damn sad! asked like 101 ppl to eat wid me. but not one is willing to acc me eat. haiz. damn sad. i was on the verge of crying ler. haha. i duno why but i seem to behave like a baby. haiz. but i in the end gt daddy to acc me eat. aww... i love him man!
Saturday, December 16, 2006 at Saturday, December 16, 2006
haha. i finally went sentosa! yest went town wid vik n gary.. haiyo.. poor vik.. quarrel wid her beloved the whole day and broke up eventually. haiz. saw june. haha. was kinda shock to see her though. haha.yeah! today the sun was juz freakin GOOD!!! haha. blazing hot sun n nw i am sun burnt. haa. sooo fun and i went to KM8 wid gary. quite nice lah. haha. the sun is gd and evrything wad great except for the lunch and the rain when we were ready to leave. den went vivo city. oh man! kinda hate gg dere. so big and spacious n the directory is freakin poor man! tsk.
argh.. tml gt wrk!!! sian... wrk wrk wrk but nv see $$$ come in wan! argh!!!
Thursday, December 14, 2006 at Thursday, December 14, 2006
sometimes i do think that i dun have much frens actually. in class can talk.. but no one i can really rely on. in school.. dere's gary but when he is nt dere den i am alone somehow. haiz. in wrk.. i am always alone. tt explains y i always take the trouble to heeren to find gary.. even for a few mins... in relationship. we fight n fight all day long abt everything single thing u can ever think of. haiz. n to him i am always the source of the problem. in life.. i have a few frens hu i can turn to. most of my frens have their own prob. some simply cant help. but i am lucky to have at least a few friends in life tt i can turn to.to me i dun need ALOT of so called friends. all i need is one of two TRUE friends in life. actually not to me but everyone. does it even matter if u have alot of friends but when u have prob, u have no one to turn to? haiz. sometimes its not abt the quanity its abt the quality.
i hope u understand that
at least u still have me.
i will always be dere for u
no matter wad
i will nw i will always be...
so pls learn to love urself
so what if ppl dun appreciate u?
so dun do stupid things again.
cuz it breaks my heart
n FYI at least ur one of the
important people in my life.
i care...
haha. sian.. today was suppose to meet sharon at amk to trim my stupid pathetic eyebrows at 1pm. turn out i only woke up at 1.40pm. lol.. wth! den reach at only 2.30pm. had a GREAT time wid the girls. the linggs were dere too. had lunch and talk cock! haha. i miss those days. haha. after liling left.. i say tt sharon n lingg look like HDB tai tai a.k.a AUNTIES.. haha. but they say i look like a lil boy.. =.="after tt went training.. still the same OLD thing! CONSISTENCY! today muz serve 20 balls over the net CONTINUOUSLY.. n my last attempt! guess wad? i dropped the LAST ball in order to complete one set! arghs! but.. i found a better way to count my balls. tt is to go backwards..
eg.. 16 balls to go.. 10 more to go.. like countdown! haha..
yeah! mayb gg beach wid girlie!!! but duno we can make it to wake up early anot!
Wednesday, December 13, 2006 at Wednesday, December 13, 2006
haiz.. soooo sian... argh! btw today gt friendly wid amkss boys. haha. the C boys r quite ya ya at first.. haha. but we win them. B boys is more matured and zai also. haha. haiyo! blur me! forget to bring socks! den lovely maddie acc me go market buy! haha... but when i come back i realise rena gt 3 pairs of socks! =.=" haha. hm... self evaluation! i am lousy like pork man! my serving is nt consistent.. haha. tsk.. damn disappointing at times! argh!!!! i hate it! i muz jia you!!!
after training went mac wid mad mel jan n wong. haha. after tt walk home wid wong frm amk.. haha. after tt i bath already den have to go for tuition! omg. i suddenly damn tired lors. haha. i think i am too weak lers.. haha.
consecutively 3 days of training! haha. but i better shut up before rena come n smack my head! she's WORST! haha. 5 days of continuous trainings! omg... jia you rena! haha
as for jere i kinda noe wad i want now. but i juz duno hw to spread the news to him. tsk. useless girl.. i cant bear to hurt him.. tsk.. somehow i wanna see him..
Tuesday, December 12, 2006 at Tuesday, December 12, 2006
argh! jere asked for a patch.. i duno wad to do! haiz. i duno what i shud do... haiz. in a way i do wan him back. but i am afraid tt we will fight all day long. haiz. sian!!!training was kinda boring though. argh! i cant play consistently... stupid girl!
btw watching the tyra show. oh man! tt guy has gt a bicep tt is 25.5 inch! oh my god! its bigger den my waist! haha. but his biceps burst frm injecting too much steroid. eww..
Monday, December 11, 2006 at Monday, December 11, 2006
haiz. i been crying dis few nights and my flu dun get a chance to heal. hm.. wat to do? i am to blame. but i will try to make the most out it.. will i? can i? haiz.. so sian!!! spend $7 on cab fare but i wrk only for 2 hrs and i went home. haiz. was tooo sick to carry on. when is it going to be okies? argh!
listening to air supply's goodbye. haiz... makes me cry again. i juz wanna hug him tight. but i doubt it will happen again.
dun worry. tml will be better.
Sunday, December 10, 2006 at Sunday, December 10, 2006
was sick today. haiz. den i woke up only at 4pm! haha. when i walk out of my room my mum n bro was shocked. haa. no one knows i am at home.lol. haha. was suppose to go zoukoout. but i want den dun wan want den dun wan. tsk. mad's gg to kill me man. but i never go. tsk. haiz.
went dinner wid mum and dad. nice chat. after we went home ken come over and we went somewhere to chill. it was beautiful! had dis fruit juice something and a "flourless" chocolate cake. hm... it taste like uncook cake. haha. had fun. n i seem to be a living road directory to my frens nw adays. haha.
haiz. rite now. am i not suppose to brood over spilled milk. mayb its a gd thing that we r not tog anymore. haiz. i shud make my decision right. yar... make it right.. haiz. hopefully... i have many things i wanna do dis holis.
1. i wanna go to the HSBC tree top trail walk
2. i wanna go sentosa suntan!!!
3. i wanna have fun!
4. i wanna forget him.
5. i wan him to be happy. haiz.
Saturday, December 09, 2006 at Saturday, December 09, 2006
haiz. guess its really the end. i am suppose to make a decision by today... haiz. so i made. yest he came over my hse. i tot we would be fine. but we r not. haiz. he said he wanna leave around 8 plus. den i was watching tv he say he wanna leave den i say i wanna watch finish. n its a mere 10 mins. haiz. den he get my mum to open the door for him. haiz. den mum ask me wad happen.. haiz. but still manage to make my way dere. on the way we didnt talk. n he said i slam the door. but i nv...haiz. when we reach his hse. his mum n dad shifted his stuff n he gt even more pissed. haiz. so he rush dwn to play ball n i juz watch tv wid his mum n dad and ate alone. ltr on cindy joined me and we chatted. haiz. she said tt i shud coax him and be a xiao nu ren at times. but i feel tt its nt my fault. n i really dun wan us to quarrel. so when he reach hm after tt he juz bath n lock himself in the rm. haiz. we nv talk. i juz refuse to talk. den he force me to talk. after tt we r okies. haiz. den i tell him all i wan is peace... i dun wan to fight. i juz wan to hug him and we will juz look at each other n shut up. juz smile and feel tt we r contented to have each other.
today. was beautiful. we nv quarrel. we r loving. juz as i had expected. but in the end i chose to slp my day away. so tt we will nt quarrel. i had a nitemare. haiz. it was scary. watch a psycho movie mths back. n its almost the same. found ourself in a weird place and we all get killed one by one psychotically. and i was the last one. haiz. when i woke up i was pretty traumatise. haiz. den i had to tell him wad i want. so i chose to break up. both of us were sad. haiz. den i bug him to cook maggie mee for me. dis time round i finish everything. cuz its the last time. haiz. y do i duno hw to cherish until we lose it? haiz. i am damn sad. juz plain sad. i didnt wan it dis way either. haiz. i love him... i cant bear to let him go.
but will i be happier? i duno. i am selfish. and a bad gf. tts all i can say. i am his priority and he is nt mine. haiz. even if i regret.. i deserve it.. tml gg zoukout. hope i will have fun.. haiz. some one ask me.. am i happy abt it i said no. but neither am i happy tt we quarrel everyday... shuhui shuhui... pls wake up and think of wad u really wan...
Thursday, December 07, 2006 at Thursday, December 07, 2006
argh! down wid flu! flu + cramp! omg!!! can it get any better? damn sleepy and tired! oh dear... went queensway sec for friendly. haha. it was good experience though. haha. but... i gt hit in the face by zhi jun's knee! haha. disfigured liao. but nvm.. i am strong girl. bruise and blue black is nothing. haha. but its quite painful! haha. contradicting myself. :P haha. went to eat tog and den went aunt's hse. haha. saw my granny and i missed her too. hm.. went to the pet shop to get some tibits for my lovely lucky... den take cab home... den on my way to aunt's hse, saw alot of weird ppl. quite scary.. haa.
ltr gg jere's hse. probably for the last time... hope we dun quarrel... and everything will be fine. slept at 8am dis morning! omg. was chatting wid gab and we went to town today!!! its been soooo long that we last met each other. haha. had a great time. i miss those O.C times! haahaha. i wanna thank him for sending me to tiong bahru to replace my damn ezlink!!! stupid women so stuck up. hello!!!! ur juz helping me to replace my ez link tts all! argh... haha.
had fun shoppin wid gab. cuz he always heed my advice on fashion. :P haha... tt stupid retard go and leave his motor keys on his boxes! omg. he is the most muddled head bro i ever had!!! haha. from minor accidents to losing his way in orchard to leaving his keys on his bike... oh man!!! den headed back to his hse for dinner! his granny and grandpa is realli nice and friendly. haha. i duno y but i always like to eat at ppl's hse.. mayb cuz i seldom get to eat home cooked food. haiz.
den went J8 wid vik. before tt was soooo lazy and engross in tt crocodile show. haha. i used to have nitemare abt mega big CROCODILE coming out of the sewage to eat ppl up after watching something similar! haha. n i had a nitemare yest as well. haha. i dreamt abt eating at somewhere and inside the food i ordered had hairs and 11 cockroaches! ew... crazy me...
Wednesday, December 06, 2006 at Wednesday, December 06, 2006
haiz. somehow i think i need to talk to someone. i need a good talk wid real ADULTS.. i miss alfred & cindy and my previous previous maid yani. haiz. haiz. fight fight fight! y do we fight all the time? haiz.. jere n me fight even after we broke up. and now even gary fight wid me. vik n cheryl r fighting too. why do we fight? why cant we juz live in peace and harmony? haiz.
all i want is to make the last few days of our relationship beautiful. i didnt wan it to be remember as tt ugly part of us. i wan it to be beautiful. at least he will remember that we were once sweet and beautiful. haiz.
i cried so much today n yest. i am so tired of all dis.. a part of me wants all dis to come to an end!! i didnt wan things to turn out the way it is. i wanted to break up once and for all. but i am afraid tt i did it out of implusiveness. i scared tt i will regret. i noe he loves me... i love him but it juz wont wrk. haiz. i realli duno wad to do.
aimless and lost...
what do i realli want?
Sunday, December 03, 2006 at Sunday, December 03, 2006
haiz!!! so many things to buy so LITTLE money! haiz. i have been spending alot of FOOD! oh my!!! haiz. i wanna buy CK one Summer! i wanna buy Crumpler bag! i wanna buy that new ADIDAS jacket! omg... it juz suits me a lot lah! haiz. zzz. can anyone tell me when is my pay day? can? tsk! Go Singapore! Go!!!
watching doha games now!
omg!
Saturday, December 02, 2006 at Saturday, December 02, 2006
nv go sch again! i am soooo screwed lah! haiz. im dead for SURE! haiz. omg! dis morning was damn pissed! cuz i was told that i am unable to get back my damn ezlink card! i need to bloody replace it! i was fuckin pissed tt i think i scared the tele operator! haha. but i am really pissed lah!!! argh! i dun have the bloody time to do all dis until next thurs! omg!!!went town today to meet yuling to get her to go for an interview at SONY ERICSSON. hm... after tt shared cab and met jere at bugis. haha. had funn playin PSP game. some car racing! it was freakin fun though! haha. oh my i had alot of junk food today. tsk. n i finally gt my sour plum which i craved for since yest nite! yeah! haha. happy! :P
but i am still confused. haiz... wad to do? but one thing for sure is i dun need to go zoukout lers. haiz. sian. freedom or him? listening to far away by nickelback. its was beautiful. haiz.
Friday, December 01, 2006 at Friday, December 01, 2006
haiz. wads wid aunty dese days?! omg. they r really pain in the ass. esp in F&B line aunties! first its the stupid mac aunty hu made us produce 2 ezlink card for two student breakfast and gt our order wrong and giving us only 2 pathetic tissue. den it is the aunty that gt gary's order wrong for 1 million and 1 times. haiz. gt him fuming pissed. hm... den its the aunty at the woodlands food court! chasing us away when we haven even finish our food!!!haiz. we kinda patch things up but i duno. haiz. i seriously duno wad i want.