i am totally amazed and shocked myself. how can i be so goldfish-memoried.? just becos of accompanies wid frens and alfred i am totally okies already. i am totally shocked at how fast i forget things. and tts v.gd and v.bad. cuz i cannot even remember his no when he called me to talk abt his relationship problems. and best of all i can still give v.objective opinions and suggestions. welldone! :) guess wad? ya. i am a happy ger again. went TBC to return phone den went to look for granny. nothing much den suddenly jiesi called. so sharry, si and i went to chomp chomp to feast. haha. we r quite bimbotic when we go "wah so smelly and smoky lah!!!" " wah laos no place to sit down eh.."..

all i want is a dog.
i guess i am buying myself a dog by my birthday.
the only way for me to love and to be loved.

i miss lucky. i really do. nw i am all alone.

fuck tt fucker who took my dog away! FUCK YOU!!!! outlooker is rite. ppl come and go. why am i behaving the way i am behaving? dont i ever learn? have i not learned from my mistakes? y do i still dun get the picture?

talked to jere like after so long. i realised he really got over me. i am happy. he dun need to say anything. but i can feel it. which is good for him. :) really.

focus on other things in life!!! FOCUS!!! i gt a report to do. i have phones to return. i am goin kayaking wid weisheng tml. tml will be a better day. cheer up. friends has been super nice to me lately. darling nigel promised to give me morning call every morning. and he brought breakfast for me. damn sweet. though its 70cents bee hoon. but it tasted better den expensive food. i dun need ppl to shower me wid gifts and material stuff. lil things make my day. thanks alot i appreciate u guys big time. really.

training today is damn intensive! i like. everyone is like damn high. and zhiping coach is here too. damn nice. haha.

i am stuck to dis song. and it so happen to match how i feel now. i am so numb to it already. wad can i say. i wish you love.and i am over you.

Over you - Chris Daughtry

Now that it's all said and done,
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down,
Like an old abandoned house.
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath.
I fell too far, was in way too deep.
Guess I let you get the best of me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.'
Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

You took a hammer to these walls,
Dragged the memories down the hall,
Packed your bags and walked away.
There was nothing I could say.
And when you slammed the front door shut,
A lot of others opened up,
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.

Well I'm putting my heart back together,'
Cause I got over you.
Well I got over you.
I got over you.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through, so damn bloody sway. sigh..

first gt scalded by watercooler while refilling bottle wid hot water..

next, hot chocolate spill on me..

on my way to wash off the mess,

havianas snapped!!!*the one tt gary bought :( *

neo: "wah lao! u really damn sway.."

shu: "its not sway.. but my life is V.EVENTFUL.. *sulk*"

micheal: " tt's good.. ur V.optimistic.."

what to do? buy new one lors..

haha. i suddenly wanna sing my heart out. haha. been doing that alot lately..

mad n mel would noe that. haha.

but class has like quite alot of ppl. so i cant sing. haha.

okok.. fine! i am being random!

LOL sigh.. been chionging PP lately..

CHIONG CHIONG CHIONG!!!

nv been so hard wrkin ever since olvls.

LOL..

nvm.. 1,500+

good progression.

way to go. SIGH.. i noe i am going to sound like a lil girl. but i am really emo now.

mad and mel is graduating in 5mths time.

gary is quiting sch..

lynn is a bitch. hardly come to sch. even if she does, she is wid her new frens..

nigel is too busy wid his class work to entertain me.

seriously tt leaves me wid no frens. damn sad..

i always feel that one do not need many many frens becos one true friend is all you need.

but i am just damn sad lah. cuz i duno who is that one true friend in RP.

T_T yest training was disastrous. wad can i say, i hope zhiping coach can be our coach. he is so much more supportive and motivating. at least he tells u wad went wrong and ways to improve. and he doest ask u to get out just becos u screw up ur only chance.

sch today was okies. faci is damn nice and motivating as well. den went to break wid jon. haha. as crappy as ever. haha. den was totally in a state of shock.. haha. gordon talked to me when we bumped into each other. haha. shocked. lappy went bersek! sigh. for a moment i tot all my data is gone. false alarm. haha.

went amk mac to do PP wid joe. OMG! ALOT more to go. sigh. i am damn sian lah. but i am thankfull he helped me. haha. okies i am soooo slpy nw. yawns. Who says one cant be glamourous and able to protect herself? Look at michelle Yeoh and Maggie Q. haha. sexy!

its just hate the v.nt bubbly me. grumpy and whiney.

hate being girl!! ahha.

and of cuz time of the month. =(

sorry for being touchy if i am.

i am in the library chiong-ing my PP. CHIONG!!!

i only have 200 words. haha.

and i need at least 2000 words.. i duno why. the question just struck me.
"what if this is the last time?"
i just started tearing. i duno why.

i am soooo tired from wrk. and irritating cust just irritate the shit out of me. wana fuckin slap those china bitches and stupid m1 temp staff. last but not least tt bloody cust hu insisted on askin me retarded qns when i am holding a cheese cake and waterbottle. (obviously i am havin break..) arghs. FUCK OFF! hm.. i am a bad bad girl cuz i nv go sch today. haha. den wait for neo to come to bishan den went to adelphi tog. haha. next week. faith comfirm ask me hu is he. haha. whole body aching big time. den when to walk walk awhile den we head back hm to go bishan park to jog. haha.

only jogged one round and did abs. cuz i am v.hungry. haha. so we head home and neo eat wid us. haha. mummy is damn funny. " Oh.. so u in army now?" wah cannot take it. haha. i burst out laughing.. and neo gave tt wu nai face. haha. as usual. haha. so long nv jog really CMI.. tsk.

chua asked me out but was too tired to go already. other time den. went to sch today kinda late. haiz. and the worst part? went into the wrong class! haha. knock on the door "HI! Sorry.. (laugh sillyly to myself)" walk one round and realise i am in the wrong class. OMG! "SORRY!"

Third meeting was late too. haiz. think the faci is so gg to downgrade me. haiz. was late cuz the navy talk is taking so long! haha. but all i can say is navy talk is fun and which vocation i am interested in. haha. think if i cant go uni i probably sign on.

hm.. during training is like damn tiring.mad and mel so wanna kill me lah. i anyhw blabber say we finish joggin 5 rounds n late comers have to run 10.(we only ran 2 rounds.) den we did gym like normal and i totally forgot abt em. den rena was like "eh the 2 of them! dun tell me still running?!" omg.. they ran 4 rounds. haha. sorry!!!

den i duno why the topic marriage suddenly popped up. i pretty much gt a shock. a v.big SHOCK! i am surprised tt gillian, zhijun, fang yi they all actually are planning to get married soon! when joreen first mentioned, i think its crazy. haha. married at the age of 21? NO WAY MAN!

since young i have never wanted to get married to a rich man nor be a tai tai. Nope. those r not my dreams. call me silly. but i think tt my guy doesnt have to provide me wid luxurious life all i wan is for him to love me and provide me wid the needs. a roof over our head, a car if we can, comfortable and self sufficent. in fact being a housewife is NOT my dream. haha. i hate doing housewrk, i cant cook. absolutely NOT housewife material. haha. in fact i wan to wrk even after marriage.

i feel tt a lady must be independent. mentally and financially. in fact i guess i am scared. i have seen too much. wads the use of getting married when nw adays getting married is just a cert. even if married ler also can divorce. wouldnt it be worst when kids come into the picture? ppl can date for 8 yrs and ROM for less den a yr and breakup.. ppl can date wid u for 2 yrs and two time u all the way from courtship to marriage. imagine u spend all ur youth on this guy.. but in the end after u gave birth u turn into a much worst britney lookin bitch.. ur husband hates you. and u? ugly, old, fat and unwanted worst of all u have no source of income. totally dependent to your husband. by then u wouldnt and u cant leave him. if he did leave u, ur world will come crashing down. desperate and lost.

its not that i dun need a man in life. but its just that i can live without a man too. life is not just evolving around one guy but many other factors. there is wrk and goals to be achieved. but even if your husband leaves you, you still have a job, you can support your kids, have a new start. its not the end of the world.

of cuz if the rite guy come along, i will not hestitate to say, i do. :) its just so freakin weird when passenger on the train keep staring rite at my face for 20 mins! and it so happen that both happend on the same day and same place. in the train. seriously wad is wrong wid ppl these days man. haiz.

sch was quite boring. but i find it okies. and alouis happen to be in the same class as me. but i wore specs today so dun think he can recognise me. haha. oh wells. nvm lah. juz concentrate on my studies. pull up my GPA is all i want now. haiz.

went home and clean my room and changed the sheets. and i am SO TIRED nw! god. dun think i can be a GOOD mother in future. hate buying groceries, cleaning up, laundry and i dun even noe hw to cook except for baking. haha. i rather do physical training. haha. thanks neo for cheering me. but i still miss ur big fat ass. haha. kick it on thurs! hehe i opened the door carefully like a ritchie will barged out of the gate. den i realised tt ritchie is no longer at home. in fact my life is currently dogless. haiz. u noe wad? i feel tt its worst den being single. haiz. i miss lucky.. and i miss ritchie already. haiz.

yenkai came over wid his parents to bring ritchie over to his granny's place. haiz. like i said it might be a better place for it to go. haiz.. sad..

PS: ex-boyfriends out dere. if u all come across this, haha. dog is indeed a better companion. always dere for me and they dun and would nv pick a fight wid me. and at the end of the day they still love me ALOT.. :( dis bloody choong siew ling is irritating. argh! no more wed free day. haiz. no more sentosa. haiz. wad can i say? its my fault! repeat the stupid same module AGAIN. haiz so sick. i change from one class to 3 class a week! haiz. dis is bad. haiz. hw to remember.. haiz. so tml i will be at.. er.. nvm.. i forgot. haha. nvm.. i will buck up. but its really fucked up when ppl call u and scold u... argh. i hate it. haiz. and ritchie is leaving ltr.. haiz. its juz so huggable. ='(

i gonna miss it so much. but come to think of it. it will be stayin at bukit timah some bungalow. all the free space to run abt. haiz. and a granny as companion, to shower all the love in the world to him. did i say ritchie would make a gd watch dog? haha. PERFECT! its fucked up when ppl vent their anger on u. NOT HAPPY just say lah. dun bloody come and show me attitude. fucking hate tt. talk to u nicely den u better be nice. fucking irritating. seriously if ur gg to show attitude i rather u juz dun talk. FUCKED UP! arghs.

training is just so bloody tiring today. no idea why. haiz. btw just realise its actually 4 day week for me!!! haha. yay! SENTOSA!!! finally sch ended. wad can i say? sch was not as bad as i thought. haha. i am in the same class as choon ni though. so its not so bad. and the bitching continues. ahha. i totally look like nerd. i noe it. cuz even mad hestitated to say hi to me. haha. and guess wad only 2 of my fren recognise me. haiz. damn sad. i really look like ugly betty. haha. but i am nice in the heart! INNER BEAUTY!!!when nicholasjens and david brian recognise me, i was so shocked lah. haha. best part is i saw 3 eye candy!! i wanna die. haha.

i am sooo proud of myself ! haha. cuz i am the sole survivour! haha. gary didnt make it to sch though i did wake him up dis morning. and lynn went off juz b4 third meeting starts. haha. wad can i say? haha. SO PROUD OF MYSELF! haha. *pats on the shoulder* *applause* hohoho..

and wtf lynn!!! i cant believe it. tt stupid bimbo brought a GUCCI messenger bag to sch and bloody brought a deuter haversack wid specs.. god. so.. i wan the aztec rose bikini and crumpler bag.. haha. THANK YOU LYNN! cheap cheap only. easily settled wid $250.. haha. still wayyyyy cheaper.. LOL.

at the mean time i waiting for hazel to go for training. and i am SO HUNGRY!!! haiyo.. i think my malay classmate wanna slap me. haha. cuz first i offered her sweets den i keep whining abt being hungry. haha. and they are fasting and i bloody juz ate. haha. sorry! :P

hm.. i got a shocked yest. was talkin to chanel from moto. she said tt everyone noes me as SUMMER. bobby from SP also call me SUMMER.. JJ used to intro me to his frens as SUMMER. and so does gary.. NIQ too.. hm.. i think its time i find a proper one? haha. actually was thinkin stacie.. but.. everyone says stacie sounds bitchy.. okok. fine. suggestions pls.. but actually summer juz sounded v.me. vibrant sporty full of sunshine sounds eventful too.. but it feels v.act also leh. haiyo. in the first place i put summer cuz i like the season, the EDP the feel.. u noe u noe? haiz. wth!! my bag totally gave way and i muz bring my good old deuter haversack. think i am so going to look like one lil moron.. haha. and my specs! haha. haiz. i think i muz really go get a new bag SOON! any sponsors?! haha. haiz. cant get over the fact tt sch is starting tml and i havent been to sentosa! haiz. NOT EVEN ONCE! and i am sick. haiz. i am not in the same class as neo.. no more kick ass. haiz.. lynn is not directly opp me. haiz. mad only has 3 days week. i nv seem to clique wid classmates.. haiz. i am afraid tt i am gg to eat alone.. haiz. feel so lonely and SCARED.. :'(

lucky i noe choon ni.. haha. so its not so bad. haha. my god i am so optimistic. haha. hm.. wrk on sat is really terrible! wad can i say. i can barely talk. giddy. and running slight fever. and i cannot bloody go home. and everyone noes a sick shu is a whiny one. haiz. joints are hurting too. haiz. all the staff ask me to go home. but they cant find replacement so i cant go home. haiz. tts v.inhuman. haha. so i took things MY WAY! haha. either i sell up to 16hp and go home or i just leave by 6.. in the end i only sold 10. and went at 6. haiz. so going to get screwed by faith next week.

slept in the bus. by the time i reach home its already 7.. rest awhile and finish dis super big pear.. by den already felt better. den comtemplating if i should go zouk. but figured out i'll probably collapsed in the dancefloor. pumping heart and weak body.. sharry had a wake to attend. lynn didnt pick up.(as usual!!) so was v.dissapointed. haiz. cuz i duno when wud be the next time i will go zouk again. haiz. sad..

in the end went dempsey hill wid joe. all his colleauges are dere. haha. was kinda shy at first but usually i juz need some time to warm up and i will begin to chatter around. haha. a dose of ben and jerry's makes me better! haha. love dempsey! haha. den head cine to catch a late nite movie. "THE INVASION" its not too bad. haha. love the lil boy, oliver.. and its a happy ending. haha. babe!

u noe wad? guys like him goes into the rubbish dump. like i always say.. haha. all things will eventually come to an end. so dun be sad. cuz the end of something is the start of something NEW! so cheer up babe. u've got me!!! lets go party like dere is no tml! haha.

PS: Guys are like so whatever. chey!

Extremely succulent pincer.. I like..LOVE crabs! haha. its been a long long time since i last had crabs. wad can i say.. its not my birthday but i still get the best part. had two pincer and uncle and aunt had none. see how much i mean to em? haha. i am their lil precious.. hehe.

headed back to aunt's hse. haiz. sian. dere is wrk tml. haiz. sad. but at least i dun need to wrk on sun. so i am SOOOO going to zouk! hehe. wid my new dress and new heels! happy as a bunny. haha.

its been a long long time since anyone cooked for me. not even mummy. so i am always super happy to go to jere's hse. haha. his mum is like the best cook ever! food are so yummy and nutritious. haha. believe it or not. i actually miss his mum more then i miss him after the breakup. haha. just read a post on somebody else blog. and it somehow triggered me to think of the past again. haha. hw i always bug him to cook for me. haha. maggie mee. its not abt showering me wid gifts and other material stuff. i am a simple simple girl. all i wan is to be showered wid love. all thje love in the world. haha. but sadly, i realised tt on the day we broke up, i made him cooked the last bowl of maggie mee for me. and i nv had another bowl of maggie mee ever since. it may not be a sumptious meal but at least its frm him to me with love. oh wells. memories.. haha. nw tt he is happy, i am happy for him.. haiz. y arent i born wid a silver spoon in my mouth? haiz. blame it on my own laziness for not working hard enough.. haiz. any idea hw i can get $50,000 the fastest way? cash! mind u! please pull up ur damn GPA for the next 3 sem! argh! haiz. feeling damn hungry rite now.

craving for supper like NOW!!

haiz.

flipping tru ikea catalog make me wanna

revamp my room!

wanna change the studytable

repaint my room

buy new satin sheets..

create MORE space

and a ubberly cosy room.

so much to buy so lil money..

sian! hm.. went to adelphi to get my work stuff done den head to paragon to say hi to alfred. den went to sony ericsson service centre to say hi to siew hoon aunty and joshua. life is really unpredictable. and its amazing how things twist and turn. haha.








hm.. sound like a tranny rite now. and its so bloody er xin. haiz. throat is so pain pain pain! haiz. hope i dun need to wrk dis weekend. imagine i can barely talk and i have to talk sooooo much during the weekends. its like killing me slowly. prays!

i cant even sing in the toilet when i shower.. haiz. >.<

i feel so much better now. (: haiz.. i am so tired.. just suddenly jiren msg me dis link frm youtube. i wish you love.. i was quite shock.. tot he wun talk to me again. den we started chatting. and as usual.. we cant talk.. we end up fighting though he promised not to. haiz.. so irritating.. asumming things and keep putting words in my mouth.. argh.. CMI! oh wells.. one after another.. piss me off only. its mutual..

recently it just seems like i am a bad companion. i think i am better off alone. tts the best. OMFG!!!

kill me kill me!!!

i walk into my bro's room in my sports bra and undies.

SHIT!

and his fren is in his room.

AHHHHHHH!!!!!

not the first time!!!

dis time is worst!!!

omg.

KILL ME!!!

but den again. its my hse leh!

OMG!!!

T_T hm.. the world have changed. guys wanna be air steward and girls wanna sign on. haha. oh wells.. i think its so weird.. y is the world becoming like this. guys love to cook and girls barely know how to cook. haha. guess ladies these days are going through evolution. haha. while guys? haha. keep degrading and becoming more and more soft? haha. i totally like it when ladies are in control.. haha. recently sign on has been on my mind. haha. mayb i am too strong and the guys around me are too soft?

recently have been thinkin alot abt my future. i wan go to uni. though my result arent tt fantastic. but i believe its how much u want it tt u can make it happen. i wan to buy a car, i wan a house of my own. but all these i need to wrk for it. jiayous.





I WANT!
hehe. nothing much today. by the time i woke up, sun is already shining on my ass. haha. gt a call frm joseph and went out for lunch near upp thomson. haha. at some hong kong cafe. joe ordered dis hot honey lemon.. and nw i am craving for it! haha. love the lemon smell! haha.

went training after tt. did the usual trip and fall and die or blublacks u get.. den did some pairing stuff and loads of jumping. nw my legs are damn wobbly. haha. help!!! haha. and was singing v.loudly where ever i go. haha. juz feel like singing. haha. dream a little dream of me is stuck in my head! haha.

had a nice chat wid joe and i realise tt i dun do things cuz i feel like doin it. not expecting any. but to enjoy it. hate the idea of doin things for the sake of doin. when i like it i do it wid all my heart.

dreamt abt jeremy..
more pics of gary maomao and me! arms look so fuckin fat lah. blame it on the late nite suppers!!

Blind - Lifehouse
I was young but I wasn't naive
I watched helpless as he turned around to leave
and still I have the pain I have to carry
a past so deep that even you could not bury if you tried
after all this time
I never thought we'd be here
never thought we'd be here
when my love for you was blind
but I couldn't make you see it
couldn't make you see it
that I loved you more than you'll ever know
a part of me died when I let you go
I would fall asleep
only in hopes of dreaming
that everything would be like it was before
but nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting
they disappear as reality is crashing to the floor
after all this time
I never thought we'd be here
never thought we'd be here
when my love for you was blind
but I couldn't make you see it
couldn't make you see it
that I loved you more than you'll ever know
a part of me died when I let you go
after all this time
would you ever wanna leave it
maybe you could not believe it
that my love for you was blind
but I couldn't make you see it
couldn't make you see it
that I loved you more than you will ever know
a part of me died when I let you go and I loved you more than you'll ever know
a part of me dies when I let you go

happen to saw dis at mad's blog. and it draw back memories abt alfred and me. i miss him. haha. okok. gonna ask him out for lunch anytime dis week.. :) after so many years, i finally figured out what kind of guys i want. i want someone hu will pamper me like i am a lil girl. and respect me when i am in a serious mode. i noe i am v.extreme. i realised tt.. so someone hu can adapt to things as fast as i can. someone hu can handle me. i can be v.sai nai where i yearn to be hugged and constantly pecked and pat on the head juz like a lil girl. but i got my strong side as well. i can be absolutely independent and i expect to be respected. i feel tt mutual respect is v.important. when ppl cant seem to take no for an answer totally pushed me away! ppl hu try to force me to do the things tt i dun wanna do, usually it will just backfire and OUT YOU GO!

so finally went clubbing on fri wid the girls. b4 tt actually went to play mahjong wid jiren, mel and fren at mel's hse. hm.. guess for once i am the biggest winner. haha. but we didnt play wid money! haha. den jiren sent me to zouk. hehe. went wid my brand new viciously high pair of heels. haha. had so much fun dirty dancing wid the girls. haha. den jiren came to pick me up.

wrk the next day was madness. haiz. freakin tired! really v.tired..so bad tt i had to gulp down REDBULL..its works wonder for me. haha. sold 9 hps. haiz. sucks. den went to catch a movie wid jiren mel and bf. NO RESERVATION. quite nice. for once jiren and i were happy. the nite just seem perfect.we were juz playin and laughin away. den suddenly things just took a turn. haiz. i really cannot take it. it just bloody ruin everything. all i want is some respect.but its okies. ur definitely not the only one out dere. like i always said " LOADS of fish out in the ocean."

realise something abt customers. no one can seem to answer my question " hello, lookin for any particular model?"

alpha femme characteristic is sexy.
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http://www.askmen.com/dating/heidi_100/137_dating_girl.html finally the lovely blazing hot sun is willing shine for beach bummers like us. so gary and i went to YCK to tann. b4 tt i have to go and get a bottle of tanning oil.. u noe there is like the yellow cap and the red cap? i wan the yellow wan but i juz cant seem to find the yellow wan. haiz. so i was kinda late. in the end i juz get the red one. since it spells"GOLDEN TANNING OIL" instead of the "DARK TANNING OIL".. but i just got a feeling that something bad is lurking around. and true enough.. by the time we reach YCK, everyone seems to be streaming out of the pool. den this uncle told us tt the pool close at 2pm! omg.. our jaw almost drop lah. haha. den we r like quite desperate lah.. so i suggest we juz go to RP pool since ALL public pool close at 2.. haiz. wth rite?!

den gary was like i got fren stayin at TPY.. juz go to his condo.. but stupid gary nv charge his hp again. so we cant contact his fren. haiz den suddenly we receive this anonymous msg.. "i am going to tann at my frens hse.." haha. we r like damn happy lah. haha. so we went seletaris to tann. omg! the sun is juz fuckin good. haha. hehe. wad can i say? LOVE THE SUN SOOOOO MUCH! haha.. loving my long awaited tann!

so rushed hm to change and to go bugis to meet mad n mel. was suppose to meet at 6.. but i only left hse at 6.. LOL.. hehe. turn out i was like the earliest. haha. head straight to chong qing steamboat. den YAMI yougurt. pure indulgence. haha. but i seriously think i am soooo going to be fat.. was suppose to meet oldie today but steamboat ended quite late.. other day okies? miss u! muacks.

btw i juz got a new hair cut! haha. too much happenings in life.. time for a change..

explain to me why am i not at zouk now?!

haiz.. wth! arghs!!!

should be happily dancing and havin fun..

wth!!!! went for training today..
nothing much though.. jonathan coach was here as well.. kena fooled like a monkey by him and coach. argh..

nothing much.. but on my way to sch.. its seems like i have thousand and one things on my mind. v.random thoughts. was listening to FROM THE HEART.. den i suddenly think of jeremy.. and i.. hw i have change over the yrs. though he might not be the best but he is the only one tt made me feel loved and i loved. he made me a stronger person tt i am today. den i was thinkin if i really need a man in my life.. one part of me thinks tt i need another part of me i dun think i need. den i was giggling to myself whenever i think abt me and gary.. haha. cannot take it. we juz look bloody sweet and loving.. haha. i guess ppl on the bus muz be thinking tt i am crazy. haha. den i was thinkin abt jiren. and how ppl come and go into ur life. joseph is one gd example.. haha. den i think abt alot of things lah. i also forget already..

conclusion : i am both emotionally and physically strong! haha. i wanna sign on.. haha. way to go!

Island Creamery

a kiss from me.

will be found at Island Creamery..

another from him..

hehe. too bad! HE'S MINE!!!

went back to town and went to shop around. haha. i want a RED PATENT SUPER HIGH HEELS!

PS: i think the girls out dere is going to kill me.. haha

haiz. hw many times did i tell myself to take things SLOW.. but i didnt seem to learn my mistake do i? ppl say u have to fall befall u learn to walk properly.. omg.. i muz be really dumb lah. look at the mess i have created for my self AGAIN! arghs..

getting into fights and quarrelling is the last thing on my mind when things started. but its like the first thing tt happen whenever we talk.. haiz. wad can i say? its the price of not learning from my stupid mistakes! argh!

i guess for now all i want is a time off. mayb we arent suitable in the first place. i might not like to be alone. but i am definitely not afraid of loneliness. i am stronger den i think i am. den most of u all think as well.

oh wells look on the brite side. the end of everything is the start of something. haha. why am i ever so OPTIMISTIC? haha. its okies. will be going out wid BOYFRIEND and mao mao ltr! like finally! yay! its been sooooo long. okok.. gotta go prep myself. finally met up wid my babe. was suppose to go for training but i stayed hm instead. haiz. ritchie is really giving my family loads of prob. haiz. mayb its time. =(

stop picking fights wid me. ur driving me crazy. ARGH! i dun understand y ppl have to be so insecure?! haiz.. T_T

why does this ALWAYS happen to me?! haiz..

y does it always rain whenever i am free to go sentosa? haiz..

kill me can?

rain rain go away.. argh! so many things so lil money! haiz.

- skin care(eye gel n pimple cream)
- MP3 player
- Digicam
- new puppy (i miss lucky so badly lah. haiz.)
- crumpler bag
- more clothes
- more shoes

cant wait for the next pay!

yay! wed ladies nite. miss PARTYING wid the girls! haha.

tml is beaching day! YES! finally comex is over. i am so tired lah. but all in all it a gd exposure for me. met loads of long lost frens. haha. like daniel and eddie and of cuz NEW FRENS! haha. found out tt one of the dealer (alfonso) was in RP too. haha. and he became my new bully target.. haha. (neo wud be relieve to hear tt..) LOL. its super super busy lah. but the pay is good. haha. hit target! YES!but i spent like $17 on cab fare and was 1hr late. wtf!! the jam is juz so bad lah. haiz. and the cab's air con is spoilt! my life is so eventful isnt it? haha.

i am utterly disappointed in u.. didnt expect u to say those things juz becos ur pissed. its makes me wonder hw much i mean to u.dun i ever learn from my mistakes? y do i keep making the same mistakes over and over again. haiz. wth..i am so dumb lah. haiz.

nvm will be gg to the beach tml! omg. i am so due for a well deserved tann! haha. been working so hard. i need to be pampered nw!