haha. OFF TO ZOUK! be the reason i smile or laugh. dun be the reason i cry... hm.. went to wrk, was late lah! but lucky joschua helped me again. and i went in at 12. haha. :P nothing much. went break wid gisen. haha. i wanna wrk events company! i wanna learn new things. but it seems like tt job is nothing but solicitating. haha. frm gisen mouth it jus seems like everyone is bad and everyone is out dere to get u laid. haha. hm.. think again.. hm.. juz stick to my own job!!!

ARGH!!! i am NOT materialistic!!! i am NOT! so wad if she got u a GUCCI belt and BURRBERRY Polo tee? so wad.. some day someone will appreciate my cookies. i hope i didnt do it for u in the first place. cuz i expected this already. nothing new. you never change! arghs! i wish i could juz smashed it rite in front of u.

PS: GARY!!! u better finish up ur jug of cookies in ur kitchen! i see it again, i will smash urs too!

lol.. its ironic how i always tell ppl to move on . u noe like "if this fish dun suits u, there is LOADS of better fish out dere! will eventually find a new fish!" but here i am holdin on to this dead fish! BAH!!! haiz. ill buy myself nice things and love myself and i dun need anyone to buy wad i want for me. i will do it myself. haha. haiz. i am hungry. omg.. i am always hungry. i ate so much today tt i think i scare gisen. wahaha. :P hu cares? haa. went training as usual. but so long nv play, can really see tt the balls go haywire. haha. den there was dis setting thing. ARGH.. hate it. cuz i sucks at it. hm.. den went to indulge in KFC! haha. den went home.

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hm.. u said u had no feeling for me already. now tt i am ready to move on, u came and tell me all dis. nt tt i dun wanna meet. just tt i am afraid once i hugged u, i wouldnt want to let go again. mayb its best for us to leave it as it is. cuz it mayb isnt gg to wrk out anymore. since u already got her and he is always dere.

it describes all..

回忆过去痛苦的相思忘不了 为何你还来拨动我心跳 爱你怎么能了今夜的你应该明了 缘难了情难了 last nite i suggested the whole family go for supper at prata hse. i was thinkin mayb i wan my parents to be involved in wad me n my frens do. n start treating em like FRIENDS! haha.. so eating being the most important part of my life is a good start! haha. but mummy was like keep bugging us to finish our food asap and go home! PIGG!!! argh..

day didnt start off good for me! hm..
1. i was late for wrk.. (but lucky joschua helped me! n i can come in at 2pm without being late!haha.)
2. i went to breadtalk at J8 and realise tt i didnt bring any cash out with me!
3. when i got home. my toes got in between the fine gap of the door! OUCH!
4. the board outside MRT station is not accurate at all! it states 4 mins. but i saw the train leaving rite b4 my eyes. and all these took less den 1min..
5. get all the cannot-locate-hp and NASTY bang-here-bang-dere cust..
6. shared $10 each for Phloy's bday gift voucher. but turn out the team had got her gifts too. so need to fork out another $10!!! argh.. i am broke...
7. hm.. okok.. bad luck stops here i think..haha

i saw molly at The Cathay! haha. she called out my name! sooo long nv see her. saw a gay lookin faci.. haha. gary's GOOD fren.. haha. lol. (he better dun see dis if not he gonna kill me.) went pasta mania for dinner and bought this really cute honey bear. its a bear made of honey with a lollipop stick! haha. quite nice. didnt go to Phloy's chalet though i wanted to see the changi ah qua so badly.. erm.. i mean see phloy badly.. haha. but come to think of it comfirm gotta take midnite cab so i dun feel like gg lers. got home pretty early.. so sian.

btw.. anyone got Desperate Housewives season 2 & 3? haha. lend or transfer to my lappy can? haha. LET ME KNOW K? haha. its been a LONGGGGG day. haha. went to wrk as usual. to find out actually rebecca is okies.. haha. was made to call 3 big boxes of cust to inform them abt their collection date has been brought forward. hm.. saw someone. very unexpectedly.. cheryl fenyi... dun remember her? she is russell ex. but i think we juz pretend tt we dun noe each other. she used to hate me alot.. haha.

after wrk.. went to meet gary and due to the chingay everywhere is so crowded and conjested. alex keith and wilson is dere too. haha. keith is VERY BLUNT.. he have no idea when to say things and when to shut up. haha. poor gary and wilson anyhow anytime also will be tuo xia shui as well. haha.

after tt i went over to gary's hse. when we reach home dere is a hell load of ppl around already. and the way they bet is terrible. haha. max bet is $5.. n most played $5.. haha. the banker had dis mountain of wealth rite in front. n i am one of the ppl hu contribute to the mountain. haha. kao.. they bun luck is like more than the no of times i ever bun luck in my life b4. haha. pathetic.

its abt 2 when wanted to go and get some noodles. so we headed to the fishball noodle store near his hse. and something AMAZING happen. this skinny guy chiong to the store and ordered 3 bowls of noodles and 2 cup of ice milo and started eating.. haha. then their frens shifted cuz dere is not enough space to eat. haha. omg. i was shocked. haha. he is like damn skinny lah!!!but he didnt stop dere. haha. he went to cheers and get chips!

we didnt stop dere either. haha. we headed to another guy's hse which is at woodlands. dere is where the money comes.. haha. i didnt wan to play again since i so unlucky. haha. so i watched them play. and guess wad? gary used $10 as base with ben. and at the end of the day, both won abt $300.. but loser club was set up. haha. so we played with food. haha. lucky i nv get to eat alot. and all this go all the way til.... okies.. when we leave the hse rite dere is still ppl gambling. haha. now? its 12 lors.. wad did i do today? hm.. woke up and slack and slack.. den meet vik den go and have dinner together wid vik and my family at boon tong kee. eat until so full. i almost puke. haha. den we headed to velocity at novena. but by then all shops are closed. so we juz chill outside its harry's or something liddat.

den cheryl came and fetch us to ice box at upp thomson rd. we chilled and played cards. haha. cheryl keep losing. haha. but her luck is good when it comes to blackjack but i simply sucks at it.. lol. woah! my hours had totally been changed. came back only at 6am in the morning from ktv at cine. damn tired. and guess wad time i woke up? 4pm.. oh man.. btw on my way to cine, i took train dere. den there is this man. its obvious tt the doors are closing. but he tried to squeeze through the closing door and he got trapped in between the doors. omg. i was so shock.. i didnt noe wad to do. haiz. i feel so bad for not helping. but he was fine eventually.

so we went to ktv. wing chiew, chong sen jacky n 2 of his frens n ling were dere. at first it was quite boring. cuz they ordered many songs. haha. and one of their fren sing like jay chou and another one sound like he got no sense of rythem at all. haha. but in the end got to sing cuz i inserted the songs. haha. bleahz..


yest jacky wing chiew bao long gary linggS jie si all came my hse to bai nian. after tt we went to my aunt hse. haha. sharon and vik joined us ltr. nothing much really happen but we did have fun! haa. cuz the food is good. espcially SOTONG! haha. and gambling.. haha. poor gary lose $20+ haha.. bao long and ling damn lucky. cuz they be banker and win alot of $$$.. haha. well. as usual for me.. no win no lose. haha.

after tt we went to the cathay again. haha. i realise i had been gg to the cathay for 4 days already. haha. but anyway we catched just follow law. abit funny but abit sian also. after tt we went to penisula. but gary and me went home first. went to lingg's hse to bai nian. haha. nothing much though. basically today i made a fool outta myself again! thanks to lingg. haha. its damn ma lu lors. she ask me to acc her to fetch her ah gong wid her dad. so i tagged along too. haha. but hu noes when we got to the car park, her dad went up the car and i couldnt open the door... so she drove off without me! haha. so i decided to go back to the hse instead. haiz. jie si saw me and she was damn shock! haha. and liling was laughing her !

steamboat was extremely YUMMY! after eating, its already 11 plus. so uncle drove us to the cathay. haha. but we cant decide on wad to watch. so we headed to kbox. damn! its so damn ex lors! each person have to pay like $38? so i suggest we go MR BEAN CAFE rite opp parklane. haha. i tot it was a beancurd shop.haha. when we sit dwn, we den realise its noT! BAH!! so we headed back to the cathay. haha. finally decide on THE PROTEGE den went to chill at the starbucks! haha.

the protege...

well. its a must watch show! haha. i must say its nice and meaningful with a touch of dark humour. so peeps don miss this show ya! haha. best of all its staring DANIEL WU!!!

i love the lil monkeys!

their FAVOURITE ah yi..

woke up pretty late as compare to the rest of the year. yet daddy juz waited patiently and nv make noise. haha. so after i am ready, i suggest we take a family photo tog. haha. and tada! its juz rite up dere. after tt we went to kelvin's hse (cousin) to bai nian where everyone will juz gather dere to gamble to chit chat and catch up! haha.

so come to gamble.. at first i was winning. but in the end i lose all the winnings and i am back to square. haha. at least i am not losing money rite? haha. so i went to take pic wid the kids instead! haha. and now.. i am voted the most favourite ah yi.. aha. secret to get to them? haha. cuz i simply look like one of them! wahahha

den we went to granny's hse. haha. nothing much though juz eat and eat and eat! haha. den i was tired and went to take a short nap instead. after tt i went out to catch NORBIT at the cathay. haiz. the stupid shoe.. made me suffered 6 blisters lors! BAH!!! haiz. wrong investment! hm.. went to have a walk along bishan park and peirce reservior. haha. den here i am back home. yeah! ltr will be heading to lingg's hse to bai nian! random things. piggyback me up to my doorsteps. which is 8th storey. haha. midnite show. n loads of strepsils.

damn! i dun wish to wrk already! i cant stand tt stuppid rebecca! she is such a bitch! everytime she sees me, she will give hint abt sacking me! BAH!!!

btw.. lil Hammy is gone AGAIN! haiz. wth! R.I.P is all i can say..
today i am a good girl. stayed home and woke up early to do alot of things! rahs!! packed my room.. vaccum and mopped the floor. iron n changed my sheets. and bath and groomed my dearie! haha. he had been a really good boy today. haha. nv really struggle or refuse to let me groom him. haha. he damn cute lah. muz kiss him first den he will allow me to continue to trim! awww...

btw lil hammy juz went missing today! it climbed outta the tank and is no where to be seen. haa. kinda sian at sian at first. den... daddy juz called out my name! haha. he found it! haha. so stupid. haha. go out one whole day and den come back again. haha.

went training.. nothing much. played like shit. haha. jiayous shu!haha

i made him do stupid things like..

sinful treats. espcially the CALAMARI!

Happy Valentine's Day!

haha. basically everything is going well.. except a lil bloopers here and dere. haha. was supposed to have a "threesome" date. haha. but stupid gary backed out. and here i am left wid mr nice guy. haha. but its okies. everything went well. we had marche at heeren and after tt we went to watch EPIC movie stupid funny HAHA show. but i wanna laugh also cannot. cuz of my throat! argh.

i made wei cong go into most shop to look for shoes but i cant seem to find any. haiz. but i bought this topshop top which i have aimed v.long ago! but gt abit flaws lah. haiz. hopefully it can be done after some washing.

on my way home, i met RAY! haha. so he accompanied me to the toilet and we chat as we go. haha. he is still as black and hot as ever. haha. so after all i still had two guys! haha. :P greedy me! haha

haha. nothing much today! but thanks big bro! haha. feel like a small girl though. well i think i am to u! haha. u must be thinkin tt stupid random girl! haha. argh! i need a 男佣! haha. its a song from Wu Ke Qun! haha. damn sweet! actually come to think of it i am a lucky girl! haha. argh! i missed the last day of sch! juz liddat! 1yr have passed and i am gg to be yr 2 next year! haha. no cute n hot guys from RP for me for the next 2 mths! haha.

before training, i went out wid wei cong for lunch cum dinner! haha. he is such a sweet guy! omg.. haha. he is damn gentleman and damn sweet. he offered to deliver food to my doorsteps when he dun even noe where i stay. but of cuz i decline lah! haha. if i accept it den i am like the meanest ppl on earth! haha. when i said i dun have tissue paper, he immediately stood up and buy one packet for me. n i am havin sore throat, so he bought dis "ling yang" herbal tea for me. its $5 lors!such a nice guy... omg.. hhaa. ladies.. if ur single and available.. pls grab ur tools and attack him. haha. make him ur guy and u will probably be the happiest woman ever.. haha.

training was great. friendly match wid SAJC! haha. i was given a chance by francis! haha. didnt screw it up dis time round! haha. good good good! haha. hope i will improve alot by U19! ahha. jiayou shuhui! haha..

yest was wrkin. damn tired. but i went hard rock.. haha. a lesbian club. well loads of NORBIT lookin girls. haha. n i took pic wid a pigeion! haha. damn funny! i was screaming like hell. haha. :P haiz. nothing much today. mr RP is ekkawat and not eugene.. haiz. my heart goes to eugene.. haha. he got the looks and the body. haha. ekkawat has the looks but wid a body wid fair skin and furry chest. hm.. well.. no comments. haha. but he is still hot wid clothes on. haha.

ltr in the evening.. i went to bugis to meet jere n cindy. haiz. my heart aches more den anything. haiz.. but its kinda numb. cuz its not the first time already. haiz. after all its been so long. on my way dere, tears keep welling up in my eyes. but i cant control myself. hm.. so cutted the cake wid him and went walk walk . haiz. nothing much.. but i still feel like crying the min we parted. cuz i noe after today we will probably nv meet again. i am juz a nobody to him from now on. haiz.

den after tt i went heeren to meet gary. i waited 45mins. but i hid inside the toilet and cry for more den 30 mins. haiz. dun worry.. i will be fine.. =) but i laughed alot today too. haiz.. i juz wan to be happy. so i keep laughing at silly things. like gary.. haha. haiz. wat to do? haiz. i think i probably will cry and laugh in my sleep. since i cried so much and laughed so much. haiz. hm.. yest nice was chatting wid wei cong abt gary.. lol. silly gary was damn pissed wid me. haha. over hu? over ray.. haha. i always like dis name.. he walked pass and he happen to be my type so i found out tt he is weicong's cousin! haha.. so i keep probing! haha. but nvm abt tt.. i found out tt wei cong is probably one of the few nice guys around hu is facing extinction! haha.. he love to cook for his d other half!!! haiz. den dis triggered wad happened on my bday! haiz.. the tot of it i wanna cry.. haiz..

i wan tt pair of pazzion super high heels! damn nice haha. but damn ex also. but its damn comfy lah!!! haha. i wan it! haha. okie okies.. crazy girl..haha.. btw i finally bought my skinny jeans from collage! n 3 undies!!! haha. damn nice..

went for kickboxing and combat today. kickboxing is always good! haha. but i left halfway for the combat class.. damn sian lors. his instructions damn unclear n i nv liked his class. damn annoying lors.. haiz. i woke up..

we quarrelled..

n i am glad

to hear tt ..

"i dun luv u anymore."

but its okies..

i cried and cried.

but i noe that everything will

finally come to an end

and we can get on wid our

life and find the rite one.

or a better one.

we will be happier.

at least i still have

my dog to lick the

tears away..

i will be fine after all the crying!

jiayou shuhui!!! yeah! new song! i am stuck to dis song. haha.

to all those to love the music i love,

dis is..

WHEN It's OVER! by Sugar Ray missed sch on tues. haiz. spent the whole day baking cookies. haha. but overall still not too bad.

missed UT today! haiz. sian. basically was v.slack. break start frm 9.30 to 1.30.. was prison breaking during the whole break and eating of cuz. oh yeah.. half of the time i was laughing at gary! haha. he walk damn funny. his legs open damn big.. haha. cuz of the muscule ache during their INTENSIVE leg training! wahahahaha. he walk like he had a durian stuck in between his legs. wahahaa.damn ugly and unglam.. but damn funny. lol.

training was alrite. more on self-improvment. the setting part, i tried to stay focus cuz i am falling asleep. haiz.. i gt a v.short attention span. and the only fun part would be the friendly among us. haha. well done girls! haha.

after tt we didnt eat. but we ate outside of cheers instead and talk cock. haha. =) today was late for UT due to gary's SLOWness. nothing new. so we took a cab to sch instead. haiz. seconds ticking by and we ran to class to chiong for our UT. when i reach dere i was like panting like hell. but i got my lappy on stand by already. so i immediately asked for the UT thumb drive. and the new faci was like "what happen to ur laptop? can you try to reload ur UT client?" so i reload immediately and dis time round MORE FIRM.. haha "can i have the thumb drive please?!" she said nothing and turned away! i was so pissed i juz let out a loud "FUCK!"den she dump dis paper copy of UT test on my table. so irritating lor! also run out of time liao den still wanna waste my time by going tru all dese stupid procedure. and guess wad? i screwed the paper! cuz i cant finish and she come and collect the papers first! CANT SHE GIVES US MORE TIME?! she wasted my time lah!!!

training was okies today. but sad to say i am still the weakest among the team! haha. ppl take 5kg dumb bell and i take a 2.5kg one. the bars lifting wan i also cannot make it. haiz. lifting it up is a prob! so i do 5 each time and ppl do 15.. haha. den i was also excused from the last section. where this around 12-15kg weights to be supported on the neck and use ur thighs muscules to lift em up.. erm.. i really cannot make it. and coach was like next STRONGER player!haha. so i ran the threadmile.. cuz i got nothing to do. and watch abit of tv. haha.

was supposed to eat cheap and healthy. but in the end mad and i went to eat at sakae buffet! haiz. end up spending $20 each!!! die die die!!! my money all spent on food and clothes! die man! today is a hell load of a madness! haha. went to the beach being almost 2 hrs late! haha... den went to tanjong beach and saw loads of dogs! haha.. big dogs! haha.. gt one damn cute. haha. it went over to play wid me a lil.. and tt golden retriever puppy!!! awww... i am gg to bring em home!!! haha.. so cute lors.. hugs hugs.. haha...

den went to the surf and sweat part to look at the match. haha. and den this two girls came over and ask me if i wanna join the surf and sweat babe contest.. haha.. thanks to my fren, i said yes and joined! haha. when i got up the stage... haha. wad ever i learn in RP was not dere anymore. haha. i was basically shaking in fears and started stuttering. haha. i tried to introduce myself as fast as i can. haha. sooooo paiseh.. yuling's bro was dere rite in front of the stage! haha. soooooo ma lu! haha. and when i scan tru the crowd, i saw nigel wayne!!! lol. he was waving at me! haha. when it comes to the questioning and answering part. haha. "DOES SIZE MATTERS?"
i totally screwed it! haha. cuz my answers are very NOT cheesy and juicy enough to bring up the atmosphere of the crowd. i said no. i like being small myself! haha. and they r like okok. opp sex!!! some one hu is taller and bigger den me.. haha. while the rest of the contestants are VERY out spoken and fun kind.. haha. their answers are very CHEESY too. ahha. and most are from NTU and NUS! haha. i think i am the only poly girl dere. the last part is the bag modelling thing! haha. SCREWED!!! i walked too fast!!! haaha. i am damn SHY!!! ahha.

i am glad it had all ended! haha. no more ma lu-ING! haha. den went to vivo and bought a cami frm FOX. its damn nice lors! haha. its seems to have alot of nice camis lors! haha. i want more!!! hahaha and went to red earth and bought this twin lip gloss and 2 bottles of nail polish! buy 1 get 1 free!!! haha. great bargain huh? lol.. juz a lil present for myself for ma lu-ING today! haha... argh!!! been spending like crazy!

1. $110 on my hair..
2. $142 on tops. (more to come)
3. $60 on La Senza n Topshop.

wishlist before chinese new year!

1. skinny jeans from collage
2. lacoste summer bag
3. super high heels/pumps

basically..
i need to eat less, SPEND LESSER and work MORE!!!
haha. i gained 2 kg lah!!! sobs...
better start gg to yoga lessons and wrk more in feb!

went bugis to look for maddie, melly and molly.
haha. they were eating steamboat. haha
the sight of it look so tempting and yet so sick.. haha.
cuz i juz had it yest..

den after tt we went to Suntec City!
haha. tts where i gt my La Senza!
haha. so paiseh.. i took the wrong size and wanted to
pay without trying. and the sales girl was like..
"u dun wanna try?" "cuz cannot exchange"
den i went into the fitting room and realise
that i made a HUGE mistake.. haha..
wth! i feel so retarded! haha..

den we went to marina sq..
haha. by then everyone was extremely tired.
i was like the only HYPERACTIVE one.
(as usual..)
haha... been shoppin around and poor maddie..
was like tired and her back ache is acting on her. haha
but i was like keep tuggin her to move on faster and stuff.
askin for her opinion and stuff. ahhaha.

i bet they are relieve tt i finally said i
am done wid my shoppin. haha..
but its already 10.30.. lol




haha. finally finally finally made it to sch! haha. was happy tt i went! haha. went IT helpdesk and wasted abt 2 hrs dere.. i cannot read problem statement view ppt slides or access words! hm.. so no choice. gary didnt go sch though. he said he was dwn wid fever though.

so tino accompany me to go makan and go to the career fair! haha. he keep pulling me to the SIA girl.. haha. so paiseh! haha. cuz i not tall enough! haha. btw yest while doing my hair, i came across dis article in FHM.. its abt dis serial killer call the BTK(Bind.Torture.Kill) haiz. one sick guy though.. kill 10 over ppl. he will break into their hse and bind em by their legs and hands and rape or strangle em and finally kill em and take pics of em.. ewww. i am so curious abt it and i started to try to find out more.. any one intereseted can take a look..

http://www.amw.com/features/feature_story_detail.cfm?id=521

den went bugis to meet the girls! haha. today was extremely happy! its been sooooooooooooo longgggggggggg since we were all present at a gathering! bought dis really YUMMY strawberry shortcake and headed for a hearty steamboat session! wad could have been better? haha. some of the pics we took were freakin crazy. haha. we finally settled at a staircase at suntec city fountain. cuz the top is too windy lers! haha. bday girl cannnot blow candle! haha

ARGH!!!

go to school!!!

haiz.

btw went to dye my hair

spend quite alot..