argh! so full! went to pasta mania wid mad, alex and keith. haha. indulge in marinara! wooh.. so nice! and nw i feel like puking frm over eatinG! haha.

i realise i since the last IVP game, my setting seem to took a turn! haa.. it used to suck big time and now it is so much better den b4! haha. muz jiayou! haha. dun give up! haha.

omg! tai yong jus send me a slideshow! haha. its all our old old ugly pics! haha. but its memories! haha. i miss em! haiz. hug hug! the time we used to wear uniform! haa. i wanna go shoppin!!! here is my list!

1. lacoste yellow summer bag
2. a new hair cut!
3. a new dye and highlight! haha.

wad else? i gt no idea eh. argh!

went prata hse wid steven after wrk and saw vik n cheryl. haha. nothing much though. btw i already have a new fall back in terms of part time! yeah!!! so random. haha. went to wrk... was so pissed wid alif.. tt i started screaming and throwing phones at the chair where everything rebounce and fall on the floor. n stomp outta the room. den everyone stare at me. haha. anger management!!!! y am i so easily AGITATED..? argh!!! its getting frm bad to worst. i am so explosive.. =(

i think i am crazy. when i am angry, i will start to talk and talk or juz say and say and say until i happy den i will stop. den back to normal like nothing ever happen. i cannot control. haiz. i think those hu noe me well will noe. haiz...

today dis mother wid many kids came into our service centre at around 8.30. and we r abt to close already. manager refuse to serve no matter hw she plead and ask him to give chance and stuff. so i turn and told sharon tt if the lady was hotter, my manager will definitely let her book in her hp. when i juz finish my sentence, den my manager ask me to serve this "hot" girl. (actually i think she kinda look slutty to me.) when i ask her things, she like keep staring at me.. haiz. wth!!! i was rite. guys r all the same. they juz tend to treat prettier lady way much BETTER!!! haiz. wth.. but the good thing was the mother wid loads of children is being served too.. =) at least not so bad. but i would rather serve tt mother rather den tt bitchy girl who don even appreciate.. chey!!! stupid girl.. haiyo. nothing boring day!

juz realise i have been stab.. n i cant believe ppl like her is fit enough to comment to him. cuz she doesnt noe me, she doesnt evolve around me. we hardly talk. in fact she hate me for their breakup.

but its okies. its my life i run it! haiz. nv go sch again. meet gary go lunch den rush to pacific plaza for some kickboxing and combat lessons. haiz.

now my arms are totally aching! argh.. tired sia!!! haiz. but its good though. haha. 2hrs of cardio!!! good for me!!! haha. argh! i am bloody pissed today! basically the day didnt start off well! haiz. slept at 5.30 am and wakes up at 7am! haiz. i am bloody tired. went to dad's rm and get pocket $ and to my horror my face towel was on the floor!!! RIGHT OUTSIDE THE BLOODY TOILET! fuck!!! i was crazy!!! den i started @#$%^&*... however due to time constrain i decided to leave for sch first and to be continued when i reach home! argh!

on my way to sch.. i complained to maddie! and when i wanna get outta the mrt this STUPID AUNTY come and push me juz to get into MRT!!!! Please lah!!! the train will still be dere and i said "WAH LAO EH!!!!!" very loudly!wtf!!!!

manage to do UT. but it was a different faci though. wah tt STUPID faci damn annoying. her class is bloody boring and she is bloody sarcastic and wanna fit in kind. haiz. get a life lah! wth! i finally could nt stand it and ask gary if i can go his hse slack anot.. cuz my hse too far. he stays at yishun. but he said he scared i rape him... wth.. n the bro is at home. haiz. den he bloody left me at the library watching a new volleyball show and prison break. he say he wanna go hm slp also. haiz..

btw there is this bloody patheticLOSER i wanna blog abt! diana i really cannot bloody stand u lors! things is like dis.. she was my sec sch classmate. was pretty cold to me and a few of my cliques too cuz she is those normal acad yet EXPRESS-wannabe type.. (big roxy bag.. took up A maths and stuff and turn out screwing every single paper.. wanna get into JC..) talking to us is like down grading herself kind. den come to poly. hardly talk.. hardly say HI or WAVE to me and not even a smile.. basically juz pretend tt she duno me lah! den i think gary is her eye candy or something. guess wad is a reaction? wah... wave frantically when she is like 10 miles away frm us and smileeeeeeee until the face like gg to crack liddat.. not to forget "HI gary!!!!" hands also wave until like gt typhoon liddat! dis did not happen once but TWICE!!! dun come and tell me she did not see me or wad lors.. cuz i am v.sure tt we had eye contact lors! bloody hell. pathetic pea brain and desperado! y try so hard huh? i am juz bloody pissed. total dispised. chey!!!

haiyo.. today we lost to SMU! haiz... was trying so hard not to cry but in the end i think most of the girls cried. haiz. it was a pity but everyone fought hard! haiz. damn sad.and my zhu jie jie's last match.. haiz. we made this card or something with our blessings on it. haiz. hope she will miss us.. haiz. cuz i will.. =(

saw tt SMU jeremy look alike again... he juz makes me feel sadder and the fact tt valentine's day is coming n i will be dateless.. argh... btw its a wednesday... haha. I HOPE TT DAY WILL HAVE TRAINING! haha... sorrry to ppl like zhijun n gillian.. haha. :P woah! i think stupid blogger gt problem lors! haiz. took me 1001 years to load this page.. nv go sch again! argH! vik bought mac to my hse n we had lunch tog! haha. its been so long seen we last hang out! haha.

we went town and went window shopping in preparation for chinese new year! haha. but we didnt really see anything nice though.. haiz. but i bought a belt frm zara kids! haha. now i noe where to shop. haha. may sound quirky though. haha. but u have no idea how big kids can grow dese days. as i can fit into their clothes without altering!!! haha. so cool! haha. they r not kiddo either. haha.

edited some pics i took today and put it in friendster. haha. omg! this chanel 5 show is scary!!! its abt roller coaster in some theme park! like final destination! omg.. so scary.. den tt day took train wid mad.. and these two malay kid were singing some nursery ryhmes.. omg.. totally freaked me out! i was having goose bumps all over. and quickly covered my ears. if you were to hear dis in the middle of the nite.. u will be scared.. haha. went to wrk wid swollen eyes n stupid thomas laughed at me!!! stupid!!! den meet gary after wrk. haiz. sian lors. btw saw this really oldddd couple. they look so sweet. they r having mac ice cream. awwww...

lucky me! i did not miss UT! all thanks to my faci! cuz its his module wan lah. haha. but poor gary missed it. haha.see lah! always do things soooooooo slowly.. haiz. cant stand him also. went for talk! haha. somehow i am kinda motivated to wrk hard. haha. and clear my CE points asap!

went training! today quite slack... played sub set though.. at first couldnt adapt and played like shit. after 2nd set, i seem to be better. haha. den play this sisscors paper stone game! wah!!! made me run like mad sia! haha.. i jia luan lors.. haha. hm.. moral of the story, practice it regularly! haha. Oh oh yeah ooh
We text as we eat
As we listen to the freaks
As we wait for the right of way
We text as we talk
We're running as we walk
Cos we surf out little souls away
We smoke as we choke
As we sink another Coke
And we grin when it blows our mind
We skate as we date
As we slowly suffocate
We're running, we're running, we're running
Out of time
My life got cold
It happened many years ago
When summer slipped away
So chill now oh
We've got many years to go
So take it day by day
And long agoI lost my soul
To some forgotten dream and
How was I supposed to know
It wasn't what it seemed
And even though the last hello
Has left me on the floor
I don't believe in
Romeos or heroes anymore
We spend as we mend
Cos we're happy to pretend
Everything's gonna be OK
We shake as we wake
Never giving 'til we take
And we hate when we have to pay
We flirt while we work
To forget about the hurt
And the trash that we left behind
We sink as we swimThe ice is wearing thin
We're running, we're running, we're running
Out of timeMy life got cold
It happened many years ago
When summer slipped away
So chill now ohWe've got many years to go
So take it day by dayAnd long agoI lost my soul
To some forgotten dream and
How was I supposed to know
It wasn't what it seemed
And even though the last hello
Has left me on the floor
I don't believe in
Romeos or heroes anymore
My life got cold
It happened many years ago
When summer slipped away
So chill now oh
We've got many years to go
So take it day by day
And long ago
I lost my soul
To some forgotten dream and
How was I supposed to know
It wasn't what it seemed
And even though the last hello
Has left me on the floor
I don't believe in Romeos or heroes anymore haiz. was late for work... nothing new... damn hungry. haiz. sian. i felt tt the whole world have left me behind. haiz. can someone tell me where r all my friends? hw come i feel so alone? was suppose to meet sharon. ask lingg wanna go anot she say no.when meet sharon already den she say she wanna go home. haiz. den sharon told me tt she saw gary. haiz. wth. i messaged him.. n he bloody dun bother to reply. he can make the effort to reply the whole world but me. haiz. i went home. on my way.. i feel like i needed to talk. so i messaged vik. but she gg club. haiz. i messaged someone who i used to be his first priority. he left me behind too. haiz. i cried my way home. i duno wad to say or wad to do. in wrk, i was always treated differently as compared to others. no one really gives a damn if you r really doing well. but if you did anything wrong, ppl will come stabbing u to death.. haiz. in volleyball, no matter hw hard i try it seems like it is gg no where. haiz. i really duno when n why my world became this cold. haiz. haiyo.. late for sch.. but at least i made it to sch though.. haha. haiyo.. tt gary hor really cant stand him.. the galilee girl was obviously trying to flirt wid him. telling him stuffs like hw long do u wan it to be? 1m? 1.5m 2m?(spagetthi) n he was like 2metre wan.. can cut for me? lol=.=" wad the blah! i wonder wads in his brain man.. tsk..

today was against NTU was cheering like mad. cuz its bloodly intensive except for the last match. hm.. duno y.. even the ite guys were lookin at our side when their own team was playing. haha. but in the end we lose. but it was definately a TOUGH fight. haiz. molly was pretty upset though. but dun worry girls! we did well though. the points are pretty close. there is always a next yr.. =) jiayous! btw i was ask to go n stand behind the court n pick ball wid wong. =.=" abit shy lors.. haha. cuz raymond was dere.. =X wahahaha. btw saw this guy frm SMU No.7 he look like JEREMY TAN!!! haiz.

somehow he triggered me to miss jere. haha. i told him abt it.. i suddenly feel like gg to jurong n find him. but i nv. wads the point? haiz. lame... was damn tired though.. slp through the journey back to home. n i am having some migraine or headache. haiz. damn tired. tml still gt wrk!!! sian. haiz. i am damn sad. when i needed u the most ur nv dere. tts wad frens are for. will not rely on anyone anymore but myself! all i noe is i cant lose lucky nw at this point of time. get well soon. i love you.. thanks mad for lending me 10 bucks though. sorry for troubling u! hugs.. haiyo.. yest was another sleepless nite! haiz.. go tru many ways to make myself sleep. haiz. had headache when i am in sch.. argh..

haiz. was a good start when i see ALL the cute guys.. haha. but things take a turn when mum called. haiz. sad.. lucky is sick! sad!!! haiz. poor lil thing. at first i feed it some wei xian u as its having a very bad diarrhoea and was bleeding... haiz.

i tried doing some research online on the vet around and wad causes it. haiz. i called this vet for enquiry. n tt stupid ger was like screaming at me!!! CAN YOU SPEAK UP?! CAN YOU DONT MUMBLE TO YOURSELF?! wth!!! i am so pissed.. wtf!!!

after monitoring it, it actually appear fine. was actually starting to bug lil HAMMY.. but it happen again! nw i fed it some charcoal. i hope it works... haiz. damn sian... nv go sch again! argh!

went to RP and den to citilink to pass hand up the forms for surf and sweat! haha.
wasted trip!!! den we go back again... argh.. wth.. we chiong all the way but den the bus nv come. haiz. stupid bus..

today tot mayb can go dwn play awhile.. but turn out the girls were quite off form and den no choice.. sit outside n cheer as usual... haha. was thinking tt i shud warm up my throat rather den my limbs.. haha. haiz.

went mac wid molly gary n alex... haha. we talked abt homosexual.. haha. interesting topic and we were so engrossed in it n we didnt wan to stop.. haha.

den i started wondering.. when will my dream guy turn out? haiz.. scarly he turn out to be a gay boy.. awwww... so sad.. haha. jiayous!

haiz. my legs hurts!!! i duno why.. sian... tml gt training again... its more like a pick ball session again.. tsk.. haiz... today was suppose to go beach. but were tooo tired. n stupid gary went out wid his frens n leave me alone. haiz. wth! woke up at 12 plus... watch vcd until 11plus... haha. basically the wholeeeeee day. omg! wasted one whole day in bed watching vcd... i doubt the whole day i have leave my bed for more den 1 hr.. omg! n i merely had 1 meal... my stupid mum wanna starve me to death man. haiz....i am disgusting... haha. but i am getting fatter and fatter lah!!! wad a day!

but the show is nice though... haiz. the xiang qin is so stupid and made me behave like her.. haha. she n her bimbotic dreams abt her dream guy... haha. -.q haha... bleahz... havent been blogging for days. and i actually have no recollection of wad really happen. all i noe is wrk sucks. and sat is the worst. its SHIT day! haiz. sian.. the whole day i get shit piles and piles of deep shit! haha. poor thomas... cuz he gotta help me as i cant handle it. tsk.

wahahaha training nt so bored as compared to the rest of the day. have been vcd marathoning! haha. it started with a kiss. haha. makes me wanna fall for a TALLLLLLLLL guy, a guy tt i really admire. haha. but come to think of it dere is no such hunks around my pathetic social circle... haha.

yeah! tml gg sentosa! wahahha. i wan a beach hunk! haha. someone good in sports! :P
haha... think toooooooo much... haiz. i am soooo tired! cuz i couldnt slp in the nite!!! my left shoulder blad is aching! and when i finally doze off its already 3 plus.. and melly's lil rascal did some stunt in its box.. so i was awaken some how... awww...

haiz. was late for lesson n stupid loga wanna degrade me duno hw many grade. sian!!! haha. but as usual, my talking is good. haha. brought lil rabbit to sch.. wid the help of gary! haha.. i think mel is happy. haha. happy birthday to siii!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO DADDY!!!
i love u, DADDY!!!
muacks!

today RP won NP!!! haha. was damn happy though i nv even sweat a single drop of sweat by the end of match! haha. but my throat was killing me from all the cheering though! haha. i should warm up my throat n nt my limbs.. haha. and i saw jiesi!!! awww... i miss her! haha. and out of mischief ... i go n push the door when jie si is changing n it bang rite into her head! was damn funny though! haha.:P

but i bet tts the kind of "fun" when ur wid me... wahaha... btw i today tried to hop onto kel! and we both fell on the floor! wahhaha. rite in front of barret somemore! haha. sooooooo funny and pai seh!!! haha. jokes.. haiz... nv go sch.. again.. haiz. duno why but i am damn tired.. hm...went somewhere wid maddie. haha. its a surprise for melly!!!

after i reach hm, i packed the store room!!! yeah!!! finally last time u can hardly put a feet in. and nw u can go inside and walk walk.. haha HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY TO MY SMELLY MELLY!

was late for sch but still i finally made it to sch!!! haha. yeahz! daddy called my hp and it was like 9+ am already.. haiz. so i was wondering should i go anot. but i tell myself that i cannot skip anymore! i must go to sch!!! and so i did!!! haha. but gary didnt make it to sch though. he was
suppose to gimme morning calls... and my damn alarm clock is not wrkin! when i woke up the time was like 2 hrs behind time... omg! wth!

today's training is like yawnsSs... soooooo bad that we r behaving like toy storys! haha. when coach turn away, we play.. when he comes back we r back to normal.. we are basically mastering the art of self entertaining! didnt blog for some days. haha. yest was bloody chaotic! after lunch when i came back the whole queue system crashed and its like war.. shouting all over. haha. and before tt i manage to calm an angry cust from M1 down! haha. the statisfaction is damn good.

argh! i am having cramps!! and its bloody killing me. haiz. having mood swing n werent able to go to wrk today. slp til afternoon. haha. finally mop my rm..

den went chomp chomp wid gary, sharon and liling. haha... eat and spend alot on food! omg.. haiz. missed sch again! argh! went for yoga classes and bollywood dance.. damn!! its sooooo freakin hot. cuz its hot yoga. i was practically dripping wet. the floor mat was drenched in my sweat. haha. sound disgusting! haha

nothing much today. was speeding in NEED FOR SPEED!!! haha. i am addicted to dis boy boy game. haha. its damn fun lah! haha.

haiz. die lah! i am gg to lose my job soon! sianz.. cuz i only can wrk weekends and not weekdays. stupid manager. go and take care of her child lah!!! haiz. wth! i am only left wid tues and fri and alt wed is free lors. if i wrk weekdays also den i still gt a life meh? wah lao! duno wad she thinkin also. wth!!! i am only 18 i shud be doing things that a 18 shud do!!! not wrk and slog my life away all the way til i die!!! NOOOOOO!!! tts nt the way! sack den sack lah!!! at most find other job. juz like M1.. dere is still starhub and singtel! bleahz!!! i am not dead! and i will not be dead even if u all dun hire me. HMPH!!!

haha... okok.. enuff of my dabblings. OFF TO SPEEDddd... haiz.. havent been blogging since duno when cuz i tot my internet is dwn for duno wad reason. den i juz realise tt mum unplug the cable and nv connect back. haiz!!! wth!!!

btw i hard wrk havent been gg dwn the drain! i finally gt onto the team. but no jacket. haha. but poor maddie though her attendance is gd but she didnt get wad she deserve. but nvm.. dere is U19! haha. wrk hard nw!!!

argh! havent been gg to sch for 2 days!!! erm.. POST holiday mood? i duno. i will try to go to school regularly!!! argh!!! my new year resolution - GO TO SCH!!!! haiz. sometimes things are better off left ambiguous.. when things are made so clear.. we aint happy at all. human beings r so contradicting at many times. haiz.

nothing much today. went beach. but no sun. argh!!! when i am nt able to tann, there will be plenty of scorching hot rays!!! haiz. when i go it will b rainy days or cloudy. if nt rite after i bath den the sun comes out!! haiz.

went prata hse...

haiz. sinful. cant wait to have MORE trainings!!! hehe. hm.. so random. yet another #$%^&*(... haiz. but this time round we r through. guess we r both sick n tired. pls tell me tt 2007 will b a better yr.. 3 yrs dwn the road. n i am back to where i am.

haiz. i found out something absolutely heart breaking and disappointed. i duno wad real and wads not anymore. haiz.

die.. havent beening training and i binge on loads of big portion meals and junkfoods! haiz. BIGG TUMMY!!! argh went to eat steamboat wid sharon ling est and gary at bugis! haha. loads of nonsense.. haha. esp sharon and gary! haha tsk.. crazy bunch of monkeys.

wasnt sure of where to go.. and wasted a gd few hrs pondering and rejecting. tsk. in the end ling and est go yishun and gary n me went town n sharon went hm..

haiz. when we reach the cathay.. tsk.. the only show we wanna watch is some thai ghost show. but its 2 am plus. den we wanted to walk to cineleisure! wah kao eh! fuck the banglahs!!! damn annoying.. i kinda fear em though. wah lao!!! we like try to avoid em... but still keep spraying me. gary gt so angry and shouted at them. and he gt sprayed all over. haha.. i think they shud bann the banglahs from town area. trouble makers! fuck em!!!