honestly life has been really screwed up recently. seriously EVERYTHING. and its like things havent been good for oldie as well. but u noe i love u.. and u always gt me! (:

and i think i lost U700. haiz. KILL ME! =(

met up wid jerald. and i think my life is IN A MESS!!!

rahsss! woahs today is like the first time i am EARLY for sch! i am serious. but faci is really fucked up! rahs. hate it. i muz go to sch EARLY hahaha.

its like stupid faci scolded me for snacking in class. like wtf! refuse to help me wid my lappy. kns. stuborn PMS old man. annoying old man! just keep picking on me! faci evaluation YOU DIE!

den met up wid jerald to go home tog. and guess wad. some old man called. and asked

OM: "HELLO?! hu is dis?! why you call my number?!"
me: "huh.. or i think u gt the wrong number."
OM: " TMD!"

den he hung up. den he called again.
OM :"OEI! WHO ARE YOU?! WHY YOU CALL MY NUMBER?! TMD"
me :"I ALSO NV CALL!!! YOU CALL ME DEN YOU ASK ME WHO AM I?! WTF!!!!!"
and the fight just carried on and on. and ltr on 10 over missed calls from him.
and jerald helped me talk to him and he stopped. hahahaa. my hero!!! (:
(anyway i suspect its randy's dad. just gt the feeling!)

den met up wid randy and nic to TM. talked to kien and i dun blame him but still i must make a stand for myself! den went deedee's hse.. not for him but for my frens. but things were pretty akward. its definitely not me. but oh wells. we have cleared the air. ohh wells.!

anyways ITS REALLY RANDY'S DAD! WTF!!! hahaha. woke up kinda late today but anyways i went to kelvin's bday celebration. organised by connie. and man, she is one hell of a GOOD gf i must say.
anyways dis lil sweetheart is the new gem in the family. damn cute. cuz she camwhore alot!
went suntanning wid gary in the morning.. sun is superb. went amk hub bought a shades! yeahs. just wanna contribute to sg economic.. anyways. got home and went to meet up the the skater boys.

i just cant believe that im like a ragdoll and i am worst den some VIRTUAL BARBIE DOLL! ur really a dumb dumb dumb fool/retard.. and u nv learn frm ur mistakes? oh wells. learn to be smarter.

anyways, wanted to walk my way hm frm orchard. but guess wad. some kind soul decided to give me a lift 3 times! finally gave in at novena.. anyway SGB2223S thanks alot. im grateful. but i still kinda disappointed that i didnt make it home wid my own legs. =( skipped school today again. i noe.. bad bad bad girl. but anyways, groomed by lil sugar and FINALLY cleared my room.. all the rubbish and dust.. bedsheets immaculately pressed and uber neat. BUT im not sleeping in my own bed tonite. i just cant bear to stay in a room alone with my thoughts running all over the place.

anyways met up wid oldie vik. and im so glad that i got her.. i broke down like finally and confided in her. after all these years, ppl come and go but she stays.. the pain is just bad that all i can mutter was " are you free tml? can we meet up? i love you.. " and i noe she feels the same too. (:

i am definitely sad. but shit happens. just when i thought i could learn to love again. haiz. its been quite sometime since i last cried. but anyways its good that i cried cuz it means i venting it out and moving on.

okies! moving on. "THERE ARE LOADS OF FISH OUT IN THE OCEAN! " so yeaps.. eg. pilot? financial planners? reporter? some rich man son. hahaha. anyways.. tml is going to be a better day. its okies to cry but make sure lesson is learnt( which i nv do) and i am stronger! guard your heart girl. (: Position 12 ! A mole here foretells a successful but also a very balanced life. You are likely to be not just rich, but famous as well. But although you have every opportunity to live the high life, you will have a satisfying home and family life as well. Women with moles here are particularly lucky and tend to be beautiful and glamorous as well.

Position 17 You will be someone of great social prominence. You are active on the social scene and an excellent conversationalist. There is a tendency to become bigheaded about your success, which could lose you your good name. This will affect you deeply because you draw your confidence and self worth from what others think of you.

Position 19 You have money luck and many good friends, so this is a good mole to have. Your weakness is that you tend to succumb to the charms of the opposite sex. In your life, it is this that could get you into hot water, so do cool your ardour!

woah my lucky moles! (:

Position 25 You will enjoy good prosperity and recognition luck, but do be careful of excesses. Stay traditional in your attitudes and you will have a long and fruitful life. went to do fyp at karmun's place. and guess wad. it only ended 7 hrs ltr.. hahaha. i am so tired!!! so i forgo training and went granny's hse since granny's sick too. and i sure miss her to bits. and honestly speaking, its like her hse and deedee's hse is quite near yet i have nv made ther effort to visit her. im sorry and i noe i will regret it when the time comes.

anyways! here is me and my lovely granny! (:

was rummaging through aunt's drawer and i found many interesting stuff.
hahaha. dis is indeed damn "huang fei hong era!"

dis is my "wallet" when i was young! i am so shocked to see dis lah.
aunt used to teach me how to fold my notes into lil triangle! and use it only in times of emergency. hahaha. but it always end up going into ice cream fund!
v.old $50 note in tip top condition! i believe its older den me!vintage bonia bag from granny's cupboard! i wan it!!! hahaha. hehehehe. fooling around wid granny's specs! say hello to the 80's!
anyways deedee made an effort to give me a wake up call. and i muz say that i really do miss him alot. have nt been communicating at all lately. cuz he's been a punk. and he will get busier cuz he just got sponsored to skate. so he needs to flim his skating trick/stunts. i am happy and proud of my deedee. but anyways. i seriously hate the idea of me being the "sticky" gf. wana tag along wid him like honey and bee. so i am telling myself "BE INDEPENDENT!!!" >.<

school is quite fucked up as classmate is being a bitch. lucky thing is gary dere for me during breakout. thanks for being dere for me if not i will just hide in class.. how sad. and FYP's coding is starting this week. i am so going to DIE!



honestly speaking i just feel damn moody. but i cant explain why i am moody. all i can say is i am going to snap with everything crushing on me all at one short. haiz. and dere is just no one i can turn to.



went training. and i can say that i dun go training wid any anticipation anymore. i mean its like no matter how hard i train, coach wuden give me the chance i am ALWAYS the last option. and i am yr 3 now. its like my priorities changed. i dun need VB to help me grad but i need my FYP to help me grad. but i cant just walk away liddat. its like after all, i have been wrking so hard to get a nod from coach and a chance to prove myself and everyone wrong.



havent been eating well or sleeping well. just feel nausea since duno when. and it sucks. and that my parent's age is catching up on em, i just seems to be their only hope. and that money becomes an issue. and its like the situation is just so not helping when sharon is being a bitch by "SUSPENDING" me from wrk cuz of what happen last sat (PS : i was sick..)



why does everything have to come all at the same time. take me away. hoax me to sleep and tell me everything is going to be alrite. all i need now is a hug. didnt go to sch again. and i guess i am totally immune to anything tts before 9! sighs. which means the loudest "DISCO" song dont work on me anymore. btw went hospi wid mummy after she reached home.

sighs. i guess as u grow older, the responsibility just get heavier and the feeling sucks. stayed dere since 4 to 9! without my PSP! stupid bro play already duno how to charge it! rahs. but anyhows. the doc is really nice. duper nice. and v.patience. not to mention v.gay too. but he is V.NICE! woah the site of mum on drip just makes me go awwww... btw joe came over to TALK ABOUT WORK! (YES! PURELY WORK!)

pics to be uploaded.. as blogger dont allow me to do so now.

got home and was duper bored cuz baby went skating and simply forgot abt me. oh wells. so i went prawning wid nigel and zhi rong. caught 9 prawns while the boys caught 11 altogether! so i WON! hahaha. at first we sacrifice a mini prawn from my basket to use it as bait den saw ZR neighbour and he offered us some baby catfish as bait.. woah.. cruel but it kinda work.

and once again. pics to be uploaded.

arghs! FYP tml at BOONLAY! =( kill me and guess wad. its 5.20am!!! yawns.
ihatetheideaofbeingdependentonsomeoneemotionally.arghs! ponned school wid jerald and so did deedee ponn-ed work! okays. i noe dis is bad bad bad. but i will promise to be a good girl and go to school!

find out something that is pretty fucked up abt samsung again. but i shall not say anything just yet. shall see how thing goes. so u think u can step on me? i will make things twice as bad for u back! FUCK YOU BITCH!

btw. here are some of the random pics.


randy! fuckoff will u?! hahaha
its been two years..
ever since i blurted the 3 simple words.
other den to sugar my gfs..

(: this is love..


its been a long time since i updated.. been reallyyyy busy lately.. school, fyp , training.. everything is just cock up!

yest went to town wid the boys to skate.. just sitting around and watch em do their stunts. den when we were goin back, deedee asked me to stand on his skates and he pulled me from PS to shaw! hahaha. we look damn retarded cuz the whole world is watchin. hahaha (:

went to wrk v.late. but was duper sicked but was forced to work.. no idea why i always kena all these shit. anyways, DM of m1 bugis is duper nice to me.. cuz the min he saw me, he was like "OMG! why are u here! u wanna go home?" serious stunned by it! but anyhows thanks all for being nice.. and i kinda rest tru my wrking hrs in the corner of the storeroom. heartless ppl of samsung! chey!

its like everything is just going too fast too abrupt. but in a gd way. the transition is too fast. it makes me wonder issit for real. but in a good way thou. (: yeahs! its first day of the week. late as usual. but was pretty optimistic! (:
finally get my lappy all done! after one week! i seriously miss it alot!

so banking was alrites.. learn somethings new abt structured deposit!

after school went CWP wid gary and headed to deedee's hse since i gt no freakin idea wad to do. and guess wad?! i am finally learning new things AGAIN! F chord but still damn chak chak. hahaha. but nvm.. and managed to play zombie! and i swear he played it wid me like a thousand times b4 i start to get the hang out of it. and learnt a lil mary had a lil lamb!

on my way home someone puked in the bus. godd..

btw. its impossible to please everyone. and i update my blog to remind myself and to solely for myself. so i believe i should be able to write wad i wan. and i am saying the truth. like it anot its a fact. i can dun write abt it but it doesnt mean it nv/didnt happen before. ewww i seriously wonder how sick horny and desperate some sicko can be! wtf!

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wrk was kinda fucked up today. firstly was kinda late. stayed up at deedee's hse til quite late. and dere was this mutha fucker. i swear he is some bird brain..fuckin annoying and i was close to the verge of sending him a punch in the face.

this is wad happen

#1
palm :" wah finish eating already ar? i tot u went toilet ehhhh.."
(i seriously duno wads wid the sarcasm)
me :" ??? wadever!"

#2
palm :" eh i wanna go eat eh tell hu ar?"
asus :" eh u tell her lor.. "
palm :"aiya u think she big shot meh work 3yrs only wad. she is just a nobody. she no use wan leh"
(they asked me how long i've wrk. so i told em abt my hist wid M1, SE service centre and samsung)
i mean its like he only started wrking 1mth back. bloody fucker. shut the fuck up!

#3
palm :"eeeeyer.. U700 not gd wan. paint will come off. "
me :" tts the first batch but they changed the paint already and even if it does peel off, u can go to service centre and change.. "
palm :" AIYAH! lousy lah! samsung damn lousy wan.. will peel wan lors."
me :" SO NOW I AM TELLING YOU IT WONT PEEL AND YOU CAN BLOODY GO BACK TO SERVICE CENTRE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

#4
palm :"wah!!!! go toilet again ar? u go break how many times already?"

seriously its like i duno wad the fuck is wrong wid him eh. he damn fucked up. i swear i am so angry! really.

okies. irritating stuff aside. i am like the luckiest girl ever. cuz both my sweetest sweetheart came to visit me! gary came wid a some junior chewy and nigel came to acc me for dinner! (: was raining damn heavily.. and guess wad. i missed school! =( i noe its a BAD BAD bAD start. OKIES i will GO TO SCHOOL! but its just tt it had been rather fatigue for me.. cuz been havin bad headache almost everyday. and it was so bad tt i think i bang-ed my head on the lappy stand a few times in the nite. dun ask me why.. i didnt do it purposely but i think i only realised it after i feel the pain. :P

so went to collect my lapppy. guess wad. i have to bring two lappy to class. i am going to get crashed by the laptops!den headed to town to meet vik.. makan-ed and met up wid sharry for a lil while. and den to deedee's hse. gt my hp frm randy and chill-ed dere.. played wid mask and stuff.. dumb shit.

wouldnt it be nice to hang around someone's neck? i must admit i am kinda upset over the breakup. its not tt dere is no passion or feeling between us but its just tt we cant seem to get along.. haiz. and it hurts me to find out tt you have to resort to drinking. haiz. ohwells.

deedee is rite.. "when its over, tts the i fall in love again.." school was okies on the general. except tt classmates is gettin kinda weird.. hahaha.. here is wad happen..

was late for class and asked to join the particular team.. so i asked this classmate

me :" hey, u mind if we share the chair to put my bags?" (:
classmate :" huh?! i dun wan anything to be stacked on my stuff eh"
me :"oh okies. i leave my bag on the floor then.." 0.o

WEIRD isnt it?! hahaha. issit me or her. hahaha. if rina were to encounter this she will say "hmm.. i am shocked by her answer.."

so headed town wid gary to meet up with jeremy.. dinner at the soup restaurant! hmm.. good stuff i should say!

btw lappy is ready for collection! yeahs! hahaha. but will only get it tml! pardon the wordy-ness and picture-less blog for the past few days! so yeap! will upload pics asap! (: its been a bad week! haiz.. firstly my lappy just died on me out of the blue. tried to borrow a lappy from IThelpdesk. and guess wad. the girl in front of me got the last lappy! =.="

went fujitsu today. bloody long queue and i had to purchase a red external harddisk! forced to get it. cuz my HD is crashing and just get it since i wanted to get it since year one. and lucky daddy was willing to sponsor $100 for me. =)

didnt go training cuz its pretty late. and guess wad. randy and i headed to deedee's hse. randy wanted to learn how to play a guitar. and it aroused my curiosity. and made me wanna learn too!!! hahaha. and guess wad. i did it! i noe how to play a G, A, E, and D! the basic 4! winks. and my finger hurts like fuck now. its like feeling numb and NUMB!!!

its been a bad day. i cant stand ppl talking to me in monotone and wid no spontanity! how can someone be tired 24/7?! its like all these while i've been trying. i noe we've been trying. but i am sorry. i guess now we are both tired. or rather i am tired now. its going no where. it nv seems to be able for me to maintain my relationships. jaded.

say hello to the new singleton! yeah i'm the man! Hi all!

bet u guys must be wondering how come i have stopped blogging?

my lappy is down! wtf! hais. gonna get it done asap!!!

rahss!!!

kill me!!!!

BANG-ED!!! its fri and finally it d day to pray to ah gong! hahaha.. woke up and went to mt vernon! so yeaps. as usual just like every year! den headed back to granny's hse for a sumptious dinner! omg. granny is so cute! hahaha.. miss her like truckloads! (:

definitely a v.gd exposure for me! and i have learnt something from today's fashion runway! BE CONFIDENT.. it really makes u outshine and stand out among the crowd. be comfortable in ur own skin just like those lao chio! cuz i am so captivated by em! woah! sizzling hott!!!totally blown away..

went back to sch to settle my laptop's stuff wid gary. Niq dropped by and joined us for lunchie! was great but guess wad?! lappy its not fixed and it gt worst! i am like wth!!! haiz. cant start up at all!