omg. today is a really quite a day. haiz. went downstairs to buy lunchie wid mummy. and dere is a new bubble tea shop. when we got dere, dere is already a LONGGGG queue of BPSS students. so i queued. the damn queue is damn long and i believed i waited for more den 45 mins for it.

the ger in front of me seems to be taking order for the WHOLE BPSS.. i was quite irritated. so irritated tt i almost tap her shoulder and say " kelly why dont u help me order too?" and dis grp of rowdy upper sec guys is trying to cut my queue. i am like V.irritated. so i ask em to queue up! and they think tt they are not at fault. so we kinda quarrelled! its so bad i think i might just punch one of em. haha. b4 i go i GLARE at em. kns! it really hit my boiling point. if vik is dere, she will be so proud of me. cuz i finally dare to stand up for myself.

went town to meet maos and nic. haha. we caught sweeny todd. omg. its damn.. i cant find a specific word. watch it and u shall nv eat pie again. LOL. and i was whining from cine to far east and from heeren to wisma. cuz i am in heels.

went into queen's couture at heeren and tried on dis pair of CHEAP MONDAY jeans. its size 24. i cant wear!!! i am damn affected by it. I SWEAR! i am so going on a diet. and alvan say tt i should not buy tt jeans cuz i got BIG ASS!!! maos and nic also say tt i am chubby and meaty. AHHHH!!! wtf! its so embarassing! haiz. i hate my butt and my legs! haiz. seriously KILL ME NOW! "BANG!!" "I sprayed my perfume on ur bag, so that u can smell me whenever you miss me."
i smiled when i suddenly thought of it
thinkin back, its 4 long years.
its not smooth but i didnt regret loving you
and i guess i miss u.
its been more then a year.
somewhat you always have a place in my heart.

i miss how i could just stare at you while ur asleep.
saying "wo dear bu ai wo!" and giving you that pout.
plant kisses ALL over your face when i noe you're scared of pimples.
lying on ur lap watching tv tog wid u twirling my hair and planting lil kisses on my forehead.
knowing what you will say before you even say it.

on my heart just like a tattoo.

PS : our pic is still in my wallet. i miss u. always have and always will. went to sch for UT and FYP meeting. it will be good i guess. but i talked to the nicest faci abt changing course and repeating yr 2. am i able to take the stress. wad if i screw up? its okies if i screw up. but wad if i screw up shumin and kar mun? GOD. i am in a crossroad where i have to decide SOON! where the time and money is involved. but on the other hand its all abt me being comfortable wid wad i am doing and being happy and TRULY gaining knowledge. but isnt tt why we go to sch for? HELP!

can u imagine the stress i am going through?
been trying to find peeps to hang out wid. called weisiang and ray but they gt some stuff. can u believe tt i actually comtemplated to walk home from bishan mrt? cuz i just hope tt by the time i walked home, i would have already came up wid a decision. whenever i am emo i wud do weird stuff. i went to the library and walk in and out of it. i walked 2 or 3 rounds around junction 8 and tt area. in the end i met up wid krista and just walked around PS.

krista is so blur tt she smashed into ppl's head. WAHAHA. but i am so glad tt she is wid me. manage to talk to someone b4 i go crazy. and lookin at shumin and kar mun made me realised tt i havent been seeing oldie for a long long time and i realised how much i miss her. so met up wid her at prata hse. and hang out at her hse.

its freaky walking home alone at 2am wid roaches roaming.. but den again. i made it home safely. PHEW.. finallyy went to sch. i guess i need a purpose and motivation to sch. so yups. here i am! was suppose to meet up wid LULU! and as usual i think i am late. ate breakfast wid LULU and ah wee n went to class and nothing much.

btw got to receive a trophy for getting 30pts for napfa which is full marks. haha. winks! so proud of myself.

gyming wid LULU. omg.. went wid an empty stomach and ran like 5km and did abs. and join the guys for training for awhile. for a moment i think i am going to faint. too hungry!!! and poor LULU had to endure the whining from RP to woodlands. really damn hungry. i am nv going to go on a diet again. its the worst feeling ever.

2 of the worst feeling in the world is to be DOGless and feeling HUNGRY!

yeahs! found out the song i am crazy for! aint no party - orson! sales at Parkway. wad can i say? hmm. good and bad. haiz. but i just barely made it tru tier 2. oh wells. been whining abt my "9 packet of chicken rice and 6 bowls of fishball noodles!" but yeah i hit it anyway. BUT i took a cab to wrk! man! $13 bucks. and was 15 mins late.

haiz. i think recently i am really WEAK! my legs tires easily. and i fall sick like EVERY single week. and i am v.tired. haiz. oh bought 2 pairs of legging! freakin cheap!

met up wid maos today. and v.nice of his parents to actually fetch me home from PP! totally appreciate it! (: and i need time to register the information. haha. i will consider.

been havin all sorts of weird ideas running tru my mind. i think i am W.E.I.R.D. i am soooo tired! met up wid krista today at PS samsung service centre to get some stuff done. and headed to town to shop. bought this green babydoll dress from topshop wid the help of vik darling of cuz. i am so excited. haha. it just look damn good on me. lol. or so i claim.

went TM to get some newly launched hp. oh wells. its quite "fun" had a hard time figuring out. den headed back to town to meet sharry wid krista babe. and did MORE window shopping. krista's baby joined ltr and we parted. haha. and headed home. OMG.. i am tired! seriously.. yes PON-ED again. omg. so decided to meet up wid sharry to visit haji lane in search of the fedora hat and leather bag! btw been camping on my bed watching GONG ZU XIAO MEI. totally hooked! so addcitive.

from haji lane to arab st and den beach rd(aunt's store) and army market. god. its just SO TIRING! but quite alot of stuff caught my eye. the belt, the heels, the hairband. haiz. but in the end i merely got a leather vintage bag at $15. haha. wad a steal. :P

i think i saw brendan yeo at beach rd and he kinda "bloated up" a lil. not comfirm but sharry is damn evil to actually try to hunt him down even though he kinda hide.. oh wells!

my leg is aching big time nw!!! ahhh!! finally made it to sch. and ya its quite a miracle. haha. but tts gd. been bitching and watching movies in class. and guess wad? i am sick AGAIN! omg. wad is wrong wid me.

headed amk wid madd and dan. steamboat and mango ice! er.. didnt attend sch AGAIN! SHU!!! pls its only two weeks. pls be a gd girl and go to sch! madd i am coming TML! haiz. i am going to miss u guys. (omg! here i go again) yes yes back to the topic.

jackson is nice enough to offer me a ride to the vet. unlike.. oh nvm! so yups. so lil sugar just sit quietly inside me crumpler bag. no nonsense no barking. such a darling. (: haha. at the vet we saw dis aunty holding dis really FAT and HUGE pill lookin corgi. its freakin 17kg. comparable to ritchie's weight. at first we tot its pregnant. and tt dog is barkin ALOT! sugar just seems like an angel. haha. swipped off $87 just like that. but oh wells. its my lil baby. headed to causaurina prata. and headed home. thanks dude!

no dinner today. yeah! but i am hungry nw. nvm.. shall go to sch and eat wid madd and the rest! training pls resume. i am getting bored and fat! woah. deployment at M1 Paragon. took a cab and was 5 mins late due to JAM. and guess wad? i was pointed by heng mun in the face " LATE RIGHT! why are u late! EXPLAIN TO ME!" wtf! 5 mins only! FUCK U! but anyway. sales was NOT TOO BAD. haha.

met up wid maos and nic! headed to maos home and drive to changi village for trannies and supper! haha. its damn funny. all the tranny look like shit. LOL. damn ugly. in fact they look quite deadly. lol. one look like living dead doll. two look like pontianak. HAHAHA. wadever happen to victoria secret model lookin ones.

wrk was tiring and fun and DAMN TIRED! haiz. was fiddling wid the lappy and suddenly kien was behind me. kena nagged a lil but he is still damn nice to buy me herbal tea. wah talk ALOT! but sales is not fantastic. in fact its worst den yest sales. but still hit target. so gd for me. HTC promoters have the same traits all like to bully me! rawrs! but its fun! (:

lovely lovely song by taylor swift - teardrops on my guitar. cleared my room like finally. change the sheets, clean the fan, groomed lil sugar and vaccum d floor. finally day made USEFUL!

went out to meet sharry. its been a long long time. the last time was christmas eve! tts HOW LONG! headed to Marina Sq. did some shopping and finally tt pair of charles and keith! bumped into lynn, anne and jenny. was at a lost of words. she look like a manequin and i cant recognise her. haha. sharry and i was in a state of shock.

headed to sharry's hse and chit chat and just hang around. love her family. (: suddenly just fell sick. feeling damn HOT in the head and eyes area. yet i was shivering and trembling so badly as if it was 10 degrees. and everyone just raised their eyebrow at me. ahh. wrk tml! and no replacement. GG! if i read any article abt girl fainting, it probably be me. i feel damn horrible nw..

and dog is my fav animal. i wanna owe a dog ALL MY LIFE! lucky, ritchie, lil sugar and euggy is love! haha. LULU ur name will be here once ur application is approved. haha. as for mark, i am so sorry, i dun like PUSSY cat. therefore PUSSY NEED NOT APPLY! (: yes, pon-ed again. i am so tired! been home the whole day. i got no idea wad did i do the the whole day other then squeezing blackhead and sleeping! haha. eat and concussed til 8! did some online shopping and got 3 dress. (:

i think i made the rite choice. simply hate the idea of being indebt wid ppl. the best is to rely on my own and no body else. i was stupid to even ask u for help. yucks! wad was i thinkin!

i think i noe why i am steering to the other direction. haiz. i feel damn good in the morning. i just feel GREAT! haha. i am beaming to every single person that walks past me. haha. dun ask me why am i in such good mood but i am just smiley. its wed class so it means siansation. but i gt something and someone to entertain me. haha.

its smacking time! but dis time round we nicer to each other. so in order to appreciate my kindness and mercy, he cut my left over waffle to make dis!
or (feedback in my tagboard pls) thanks!
i dun look lian hor? haha.

headed to woodlands to meet the girls. its our BOTAK JONES at woodlands. i swear i wun be surprise if the waiters dere tried to slap me. haha. first i ordered cajun chicken mo dawg. thinkin tt it would be sausage plus cajun chick breast. but when it came it was just cajun flavoured sausage. so i check if they ordered wrongly but it was like my fault.. ): but they were damn nice to offer to change it to cajun chick for me. and ltr on MORE bloopers. eg : refunds, send back food, order wrongly AGAIN, ask em help me pack it up cuz i cant finish.." bimbotic. i noe. and rui made a video for everyone and made us a T-shirt. pics to be uploaded if i get em. haha.
gonna miss u girls.

PS : a nose to nose rub, a peck on the forehead and hug from the back. (:
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exactly the way i like it. HAHA went to sch. and was quite fun. sii actually had the same bday as daddy. we kinda sabo-ed her. haha. tough job. haha. rush to amk to meet my family for dinner at amk. mum seem damn anxious and i feel that she is over reacting. god. but when the nite falls, the queue is like WOAH!

had a really sumptious meal and headed back home. b4 tt bought daddy a K630i for his bday. hope he like it. den after tt went prata wid mao and nic. haha. talked ALOT. all our dirty lil secrets are out. haha. shh..

found out something and i felt totally betrayed. friends since sec 1. i cant believe tt all these yrs cant bring out any sense of responsibility in u. been calling u since monday. just to remind u to come to sch and take the damn UT! but wad do i get in the end? u only come to me when ur PP is around the corner and i am suppose to help u. blame me for not telling u about module selection. and i am suppose to do fyp wid u. but hey, tt not friends are for. i gave up on u. if u cant be bothered i cant be too. pls watch ur own back. cuz we are nothing more den aquaintance. gd bye. its too late.

work @ CWP. slack but i am sick AGAIN! and i am super tired. btw i bought a BRAND NEW D&G V3i @ $155. hehe. wad a steal. ciaos. sch was fun yest! damn fun. y issit so?thurs has to b my fav class. its a place where i can let my creative juice flow. though i am not those artsy fartsy kind but i do have some weird new ideas. lol. we have to draw out the "story board". i came out with the idea on the advertisement. and we started drawing. overall its FUN FUN FUN! next week will be doing shooting! and the following week editing! (:

just b4 we left for TP, saw jackson the napfa guy again! haha. we keep bumping into each other lah. haha. match at TP. my gawd. its against NTU. and i guess is a beautiful sum up for the yr 2007. we won NTU 3 -1! everyone played. and me too. subset. i am glad that i didnt really screw up. which is really good. we fought so hard. and this is the last time we are going play together as a team. ppl are graduating. everyone cried. and crying is constagious. i was super emotional and i cried, ALOT. haha. its like ppl come and go. the tot of us nv even going to say hi or not even talk in future really make me feel damn sad.

everyone is teasing me lah! saying tt i look more like the one graduating. but its like. its been 2 yrs. we get tog and we didnt even noe one another. its amazing how we bonded. and given the fact tt in RP, FRIENDS is really hard to come by. its more of aqquanitance. i am one good example. friend-less ppl. haha. so the team means alot to me. i may not be close to every single senior. but u girls nv gave up on me and keep encouraging me. gill i will miss ur horrible laughter, zhi jun i will miss ur clumsiness in court, sii i will miss ur "ice-skating" stuns, xiao ling i will miss ur treats and goodies, mel i will miss ur blurness, mad i will miss ur bitchy-ness, hazel i will miss ur laziness. haha. every one is not perfect and tt just makes each and everyone unique. tt makes us, teamREPUBLIC. we are a team, we are teamREUPBLIC. i love u girls! RP ACE!

i am so glad that the week is finally coming to an end. i am so tired. this whole week is so tedious. i am so busy that i actually forgot daddy's bday. haiz. i think he noes i forgot. i can see the disappointment in his eyes. but good thing i finally figure wad to buy him. so its not so bad. i am so sorry. not that daddy will see this or hear it. i am too shy to tell him tt. though we hardly talk due to my busy schedule, but i will always be ur lil girl. i am afraid to tell u.. tts so not me. haiz. i love u. euggy ask me to give him a kiss. but i dun dare. haiz. though u may not have given me everything i need and want but i noe u gave me everything u can. and i am contented. i noe u care and love me as much as i love u. we are all bad at words. but somethings are just more than words.Happy Birthday, Dad! and i duno hw old are u. my gawd. love u! muack. i promise to go to sch regularly. so here i am. GOING TO SCH! wed class is BORING. but not today's. cuz i LULU was dere to "entertain me". went break out tog and ur so gonna get shocked by how much LULU eat. my gawd! tts his breakfast. LOL
compare mine and his..

didnt go to sch today. when i woke up, my world is spinning. migraine is driving me crazy. woke up at 2.30 and rush to sch for UT. i kinda see stars when i tried to run after the bus. my gawd. been sick since FOREVER! wad is wrong wid me. was standing in front of this idian guy in train. and i so wanna slap him lah! KEEP STARING AT MY BOOBS! yucks! i actually wanted to take a pic of him. but.. nvm lah. u noe i wun dare. haha.

rush to newton to get my pay. yeah! met up wid vik oldie to shop abit. haha. finally bought my satin hairband and some accesories. which consist of ALOT more hairband. haha. and a new pair of haivanas. PLEASE DUN SNAP AGAIN!

headed to NUH to visit oldie's granny. and she is pretty humorous. haha. get well soon ya! and it triggered some scary tots. wad if one day my own granny is not dere anymore. i am so scared. she love me so much. and if i am willing to make more time and effort to just make a simple call or a short visit which will make her day. its easier said den done. wrk at parkway on sun was not tt bad. sales is like 18 while sat is like 3! see the diff? and gt dis interesting fiesty lil girl. haha. shot everyone dead wid her deadly stare and scolded everyone. haha. damn annoying. haiyos. if tts my lil sis i probably just slap her in the face. haha.

first day of sch guess wad?! i am early! haha. so motivated and thanks shane for the morning call. was abt to go breakout alone. den saw jan rena and sii. so i joined em. haha. sounds pathetic. i noe. haha. and ya. i spot u! (: and guess wad UT was a flop. and i played PSP until 4.10 den i realised i am in the wrong class. but dun worry choon was sweet enough to lend me her batt and i make it in time for UT.

match against NP. 3 - 0 haiz. was on the bench cheering for the girls. though i am nt able to fight wid u girls but i feel the hard work and perserverance. was on the verge of crying. was v.touched. u girls fought hard dun be sad. we will win em one day. and rena jiayous. rui jiayous. everybody jiayous!

and oh ya. my stupid havainas fucking snapped again! 2 nd pair. sighs. issit me or wad?! tsk. met up wid joe for soya milk. oh wells.

always will and always have. finally got back from chalet woke up and get ready for the pool party at bukit timah. nigel is super nice to pick me up from my hse bus stop. and we headed to alex's hse. omg. its damn wu lu and we got lost in sixth ave. i swear i kinda jaw dropped when i see his hse. its SO BIG lah! god. and mind u its got a pool tts 3m deep!

ppl are pretty friendly and we got dis lil adult around which really spice up things. haha. she is olivia. haha. she is DAMN FUNNY! tt ger is super smart lors. haha. and she talks like an adult. lol. cuz alex has got dis pair of male rabbit tt keep humping each other. so she tried to explain the whole procedure. LOL "... lick its ERM-YOU-KNOW-WHAT.." and not to mention two of the 50 cleo's bacherlor is dere too. yes i am so lucky. haha. and dis guy tried to push me into the pool after much struggling, i fell into the pool wid him. and guess wad. i was so shock to his nose bleed like hell. and yes i kinda "punch/head into his face" but it wasnt deliberate! ): den after tt we played some drinking games. omg. I HATE PIG GAME! "one pig two eyes 4 legs OINK!, 2 pig 4 eyes 8 legs OINK OINK!" and yes i my maths sucks! rahs! and tt guy hu push me into water, attempt to dump me into the water again.. but i duno wad i do i swing his glasses onto the floor. LOL.. i traumatised him! =x *i've gt my gentle moments too!*

work at parkway! god. its fuckin far. and guess wad i woke up quite late but i made it to wrk EARLY! haha. hehe. manager is tt guy hu frequently visit my shop manger at bukit panjang. sales sucks. no crowd. and I HATE YOUNG BOYS! no EQ and big ego! dis stupid temp noe my sales not gd still keep asking abt my sales! nvm still keep suan-ing me and ask me dun bother. u noe samsung hp. like WTF! i was so angry i scolded him lah. rahs!when i am wrking in M1 as temp he still playin digimon and power ranger! FUCK U! okies. enough of ranting. gt dis cute andro/butch keep dropping by. LOL. damn cute. omg. i am turning gay too. and it so happen tt vik noes her! oh.. wad a small world. saw chanel on bus and yeahs! i gt a khakis in PP!

i am sick and dwn wid fever now. shit. no one to whine to. i am gg to slp soon. bye. omg.. wed training at amk sec. and rite after training i actually rush home to get change for zouk. by the time i reach its already 11 and i took a cab from orchard and guess wad? its $5.80 the min i got up the cab. my heart kinda skip a beat and it feels like my heart is in my mouth. LOL. so ex lah. sighs! and the worst part is i can only enter zouk and not phuture. so i joined Niq and his campmates. soon eugene acc me. b4 tt we drank at great world and i was SUPER high. my god. was quite fun and mambo is like SUPER crowded. nicholas stayed wid us while the rest just headed for phuture. hehe. towards the end i gt a phuture stamp. yeah! danced til 4! TIRED!

so its the big day for teamREPUBLIC where we play against SIM on our first day. and its like OMG! i was suppose to leave hse at 6 and i actually woke up at 6! so i am SO LATE! and when i reached the bus stop, i realised i forgot my shoebag! WTH lah! so have to take a cab dwn.. omg.. its a ripping $18! T_T my pocket is totally burned! just before the match start, sii stepped on my leg and kinda sprain her ankle. and i am super duper GUILTY. its her last IVP and i felt damn guilty. sighs. but we still won SIM! 3-0.. rena fought hard. so hard tt her arm is kinda "not in the correct place?" becareful okies! *sayangs* jiayous. the SIM girls are all damn TALL AND SKINNY!and they look damn bimbotic. god. but at least they can play. not those really bimbotic ones. and shane came dwn to support! thanks sweetheart! i will jiayous too!

after the match we da fang among ourself. and headed to alex's chalet. played mahjong for like 8793267642 hrs. for the WHOLE NITE! and truth or dare. haha. we all did something stupid. and left the chalet at 7. and i am SO TIRED NOW! good nite ppl. ciaos so sleepy and i just concuss in bed all the way til 6.30 and faster rush to meet nigel. haha. and its such a coincidence that we board the same train! telepathy!

so we went to look for my SATIN hairband! but nigel almost puke lah. haha. cuz i just look super duper cute and sweet. which is so totally not me! haha. ohh i wanna get a satin pumps too! haha. totally cute. haha. FETISH! i love satin since forever. haha. its like i cant wait for my payday! haiz. so we headed cine to eat at suki sushi. eat until wanna puke. haha. and guess wad. i met ian! the world is so small and everyone noes everyone. haha. and joe joined too.

was suppose to watch movie but joe wana watch aliens and predators but we dun wanna watch! haha. so ya we ended up chilling at coffee club. haha. and home sweet home. new year eve

training at amk sec. nothing special though. went amk to meet mao mao and nicholas. was suppose to botak jones but it turn out its not even open. haiz. wasted trip. so we head back to amk central. and guess wad. had super loads of food at S11. hhaha. wtf. i overeat until i almost puke. den we headed back to mao mao's hse to chill. and count dwn is his dad's lorry! haha. quite fun lah. den long bang dis long bang tt and finally back to drink vodka. haha. tts all. nothing much though. haha.

new year resolution.
#1 go to sch REGULARLY! and pull up my damn GPA and clear CE pts
#2 visit grandma more often.
#3 eat less spend less and earn MORE
#4 get back my body
#5 find a new partner male/female as long as its MUTUAL!
#6 work even harder for volleyball.