Niq : my gf will wake up at 5.45 to switch on the heater, iron my clothes, make breakfast for
me den go back and slp for another 30mins b4 she go for work every morning.
me : WAH! *jawdropped*

i seriously think tt in all my life i wouldnt do anything comparable to dis lah. i totally salute her. but yet ppl is still not contented and is still looking for a more PERFECT gf.. omg.. why are human so uncontented with wad they have? haiz. i pity the gf..

i was once something similiar but of cuz not so to tt extend. haha. i used to make breakfast, iron his uniform and help him pack his army bag. but in the end things always didnt work out the way we wanted or expect it to be.

he made me realised that being nice to someone is not going to payoff. i took me 4 bloody long years to realise tt. mayb i am just scared now. so everything i just let it be. and i think the best way is to be independent. dont depend on anyone except myself. and now.. i am being accused of not making ppl feel wanted..

oh wells! irony in lifes we can nv find a balance in it. from now til then just hope that someone hu deserve to be feel wanted by me and me giving him the best of me will appear.. didnt go to sch today. HAIZ!!! i noe.. again rite? nvm i will be goin tml! haiz. btw its 3.30am and i am proud to say i finally finish my PP and successfully uploaded it! (:

helped mummy with the cooking of curry chicken! haha. so proud of myself. HAHA. i peeled the potatoes and i help her fried the ingredients and stir fry the chicken and stuff. haha. den went town to meet darling nigel.. so we went to get my crumpler bag..

as usual, i spend like 30 mins in the shop try and RETRY the bags again and AGAIN.. in the end i settled with the brown wan. den we headed wisma to get his ear piece done over at S.E.. missed yu choon and god daddy! but gd thing i left the company.. haha. after the renovation, the service centre look like a clinic and the staffs look kinda kinky! haha. they look like doctors.
HAHA!

met up wid bf (gary) and rod.. den headed home and finally CHIONG for my PP! haiz. btw benji promised to send me STARBURST from aust! hehe.. how i wished i am in aust.. i rather forgo curry chicken.. i wanna go to the NUDE BEACH swim wid dolphins! X= oops.. i wanna go play wid the sheeps. my perfect holiday getaway! haha. okok.. its time i go lala land and dream abt my dreams! nitey! Hey ppl. i need ur help.. i noe dis is irritating.. but ya. i finally got sponsors for my crumpler bag. Credits to alfred! thanks dear for the bday pressie. but the problem is I DONT KNOW WHAT TO CHOOSE!!! haiz. wth!!! if nigel see dis he will be like " tell me something new! dis bitch is ever so indecisive! troublesome!" and vik will just roll her eyes.. okok.. enough of all these..


okies i love love love this orange bag! its just so me! sunshine colour.. BUT.. its kinda big for me. and i look like i am lugging a bag tt i can simply slip myself into.. so i will look kinda cartoon.slightly more expensive cuz of the size.. so i need to top up more den $50.. and its OUT OF STOCK ALREADY! ):
hm.. below are the ones tts available. haha. brown or grey? and size suits me lah. haha. but i still like the orange wan. haha. so gimme ur opinions so tt i can get it soon!


did PP all the way to 5 in the morning.. hm.. poor me ya.. so didnt go to sch. skipped UT too. haiz. duno wad am i thinking too.

training..
i noe my short coming.. dun fear! if i can dive for the ball, den why do i wan to protect myself wid my hands tt is always the cause of the mistakes.. haiz. cut down on silly mistakes. FOCUS! he is rite. you must know what is wrong.. n i guess i noe.. jiayous..

btw will be doing NAPFA wid sii.. get a gold i wan! (: i wanna intimidate the guys.. HAHA. btw i wana do hair extensions.. i feel that my hair just wont GROW! but den again.. see how is my pay first.. haha. SPONSORS!!! anyone?






























































went to wrk and late as usual. nothing much though. after work i went out wid one of my frens. haha. guess wad. we headed PLAY(gay club)! lol.. we were sitting at the back and i got a shock of my life lah! haha. dis couple came and sat in front of us.. den they started frenching like damn passionately lah! den the guy started squeezing the girl's breast lah!!! omg.. and guess wad we pretend to be drunk! haha and continue to watch.. tts not the end.. okies.. it was damn bad. my guy fren saw the girl's nipple and i kinda saw the guy's dick.. GOD! lucky the guy is an idian.. dark enough not to see anything. the girl's panty is like hanging by one leg and they gave each other blowjob rite in front of us.. OMFG! my first live porn.. dun understand how they can be so unbearable tt they have to do it like DERE!!! when sooo many pair of eyes is staring at em.. how can they even continue!!!! :S went to sch for UT! was quite worried tt i couldnt do it. but its quite a breeze though. so happy! haha. so headed town wid nigel.. suddenly i feel that i am so lucky to have nigel as frens! thanks for being dere.. (:

went adelphi to get my phones and waited for so long lah. den met up wid vik and had vilage. haha. i got craving for chicken breast.. dun ask me why.. haiz. the thought of it just makes me so hungry. haiz.

i wan a dog like sooon sooon sooon!!! haiz. its just so lonely without a dog.. its even better den a bf. haiz. wth! no dog no bf = sad life. I WANT A DOG! ):

hm.. just talk to an idol of mine in vb.. omg.. he just motivate and inspired me. haha. and i am just so curious how far i can jump.. so i am like trying to touch the ceiling.. so ceiling is like 2.5m.. and i can at most jump 2.4 to 2.45m.. wth rite!! i wanna touch the ceiling! ): nvm.. train harder! if he can do it.. i can do it too.. (: just us..

haiz. wth! here i am trying my best to keep myself in shape and there i am statisfying my own "monthly" cravings! haiz. had like jelly beans, chocolates, many many meals in a day. OMG! i so wanna puke now.. haha. at least i will feel better! haha. STAY AWAY FROM ME!!! haiz.. worst part is ppl is always tempting me wid candies and chocolate! ):

just caught hostel 2 today.. GOD! i love the way she kill. HAHA.. of cuz the way she fed it to the dogs. cool lah! btw Unknown called again today. hope to do tt to him. haha.. but i dun wan him to die though.. let him suffer the aftermath since he so desperate. damn! if only i could just tease him a lil bit more and scold ALOT more!

argh!!! today mitchell n choon is like so sexx can! stand beside em also paiseh. wth! i need to learn how to look and be like LADY!.. *think laaaaddddyyyy* was kinda late though. but at least i made it to sch. haha. same goes to alouis! haha. tot he will PS me. went breakout wid rena. haha. weird combi.. i noe. LOL.. watched dis lesbian show in class. HAHA. damn funny!

training was BORING! had friendly against PHS. didnt get to play at all. and ppl who dont come for months get to play main team.. like wth!!! haha. not against anyone here just stating the fact.. but nvm.. its not gg to bring me down and i will continue to work hard and train hard! (:

tried to pass dis ribena pastile to molly tru mouth.. haha. make me so nervous. LOL.. =X

haiz. KNEE PAIN!!!! died.. went to sch cuz apparently Niq called.. haha. he's damn funny.
"do you want to save me? i am gg to extract my tooth.. "
LOL.. damn funny can.. haha.

sch was alrite.. except that i am trembling and freezing! its just super cold lah!!!
so cold tt my whole body aches and i cant really move my finger.
so bad that i keep goin to the toilet like 753287234 times in an hour?

OMG1
wad do u do when the most shocking thing is when some one hu used to heck care u sooo much
suddenly ask u out.. an eyecandy tt u go so GAGA over and he offer to give u some "warmth".. hmm..

OMG2
went home early.. mummy's bday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY! (:
the next OMG thing.. i actually went joggin today.. and guess wad?! i brought my FAT bro along.. i jogged like 1.5 rounds and i wasnt tired at all. in fact i think i can walk faster den he jog..
he is behind me all along. haha. i think granny can jog faster den him. haha. SO SLOW!!! my main motive is to ask him to jog until he collapse and die lose weight.. HAHA.. ya lah.. he almost got killed by me..

OMG 3
met up wid joe. and he offered me a job after i grad.. SCARY! am i ready for this? jiayous!
OMG!

ps: i nv felt so nervous b4.. so bad tt i am shivering like i am trapped in a freezer.. so nervous tt i am actually feeling nauseaes.. OMG.. i like u for who u are.. i finally pour my thoughts out to u! and u actually pour sprinkle abit here and dere to me.. (: went to sch.. and thanks for those who wished me! oh ya.. mel made cupcakes for me and i cant bear to em..its sooooo damn nice lah! ur so smart lah! and i soooo wana make my own cupcakes too. haha. so random.. i think ppl reading dis will feel nauseases.. haha.

rite after sch ended.. i had a really bad migraine. so decided to take a bus home.. haha. fell aslp.. good thing i brought my shades wid me. haha. uphold my image. HAHA.. so got home slack and left home again to meet vik.

went Coffee Club.. had this bangers and mash. Not too bad. quite yummy.. free muddy pie! iced mango tango.. YUMS!nothing much though.. cuz she is sick.. ):

on my way home. i was crying away. dun ask me why. just feel damn sad. i duno why. and lynn called. i forgive u, as long as ur sincere.. hugs. but anyway.. tot abt alot of things. since last bday. it just seems like everything is on the wrong track. haiz. i so need to be sayang now. haha. ya.. i am manja i noe.. bleahz.

*and thanks for all who wished me! hugs.. u guys are love.. <3 stayed home and did PP. den went town to meet sharry. said i will not be late. but in the end i am still late for 10 mins. haha. :P so we headed NYDC and sharry went yaking and yaking all the way from far east to heeren.. haha. i had the usual romeo and juliet and sharry had three amigos. den nigel came to town and look for me. guess wad! he is tog wid the prefect that we used to hate alot during our secondary days. haha. WAHAHAHA!!! damn funny! i couldnt recognise him lah.. haha. all i can remember him for his mini shorts! LOL

oh ya.. nigel bought me a set of bikini from ripcurl! i am sooo shocked lah. its like the most unexpected people always happen to be dere when u needed them the most. i am so grateful to nigel and he always do the unexpected. like giving me morning call in the morning to make sure i go to school. and buying me breakfast. how can i not love him?! hugs bro.. :)

yay! will be seeing oldie tml! and ya.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME! Initially my plan was to go Giraffee Restaurant opp istana den head to Cafe Del Mar.. but my girls either couldnt make it or simply cant be bothered. ya.. was v.upset.. but den again. DONT BE!

at least i had fun at zouk! gt JJ to buy me the cupcakes and a treat to fishermen's Wharf and 5 guys and jiesi to party wid me until i puked outside zouk. and though i didnt get to go to Giraffe, at least i went Cafe Del Mar wid 5 other hot hunks and we had so much fun inside the foam pool. and ya.. a naked butt.. haha. plus the sun was initially quite bad. but in the end the sun was so bloody damn good! i love it! so god gave me a chance to get tanned. :) n we had so much fun at Island Creamery. and if neo couldnt make it or he just dun wan to celeb wid me, its okies. because i noe that oldie always love me! and i always got her to count on.. daddy and mummy is havin a hard time now. and believe it or not.. i have yet to see a birthday cake.. not even one.. except for cupcakes. but just look on the brighter side. and i will be much happier..

i have come to a conclusion.. if things doesnt go your way, den u will have to learn to accept it and make the most out of every situation. when the guy u like doesnt like u, take a step back and look around.. at least i got the courage and i put in the effort to pursue wad i want. at least i did wad i can.. in fact dere are other guys who is nice and is going after me. its not like i dont have the qualities. his loss.. HAHA.. :P anyway will b meeting sharry for dinner ltr :).. and if frens for so many years couldnt be bothered, den i shouldnt be so upset by wad they did either. frens come and go.. just tt dis few passing cloud takes longer to go? haha.

i am so happy that i got a tann like finally!!! haha. i duno if its the same for u guys.. but i feel that a tann always make a someone look effortlessly more sexy and exotic. haha. love the tann on me! :) So i went sentosa wid mao mao, gary and anavil.. was v.late when i reach harbour front. and i am sooo bad that mao mao has to wait for me for SOOOO LONG! sorry dude. so we actually went in quite late. b4 tt mao mao and i was actually shopping at topman. ltr on gary and ana joined. so we finally headed sentosa! weather was initially quite bad at first. but in the end it was damn good lah!! love it!

went we finally reached.. we are struggling between KM8 or Siloso? so we headed siloso when we saw eric and louis. played ball and still played ALOT of ball..

mao mao : "did u went down to the water?"

me: "no.. why?"

mao mao : " den how the hell did u get so wet?!"

me : "HEHE.. V.hot lah!"

after awhile, we decided that maybe we should just go into Cafe Del mar.. Omg!! dere is this foam pool and the guys went crazy.. haha. they were SO SO SO fascinated by it lah.. haha. and i was quite scared of it at first.. haha. cuz the foam is CHOKING! den i continue to get choked. haha. i got no idea wad i did and dis super big clutter of foam actually float into the dining area of del mar.. GOD! was scared like hell lah. and can see that the bouncer hate us.. in fact all those working there seem so too. :S hu cares as long as we had fun.. LOL.. den we finally headed to vivo city at 7.. the scenery is FANTASTIC and CAPTIVATING! btw something funny happen..

ana : OMG!!! NUDE NUDE NUDE!!!(pointing to the hotel opp)

me : HUH?! *looking up*

and i saw a naked ass. =S

ana : omg.. Nude..

at the same time dis caucasian was stood up and looked too..

caucasian : good stuff huh?! i saw it two weeks back..

LOL.. i duno where to hide my face. so embarrassed. haha. whole Cafe Del Mar turned and look at us. oh ya.. if u wan to noe. its a guy's butt.. YUCKS!

went food republic den Island Creamery.. had two scoops and mud pie.. SHIOK-NESS! haha.. oh ya.. and i saw xiao ling, zhijun and shirui's photo dere too. haha. den finally headed home. God! i am soooo tired now.

*pics will be uploaded soon! :) its been a long long time since i last met JJ. so we decided to catch up. picked me up from aldephi den we headed clark quay. he bought cupcakes for me and we ate at fishermen's wharf. god! i am so full that it actually lasted me the WHOLE NITE.. thanks for the treat, the ride and the everything.. :)

so JJ sent us to zouk tog wid jiesi.. its been a long long time since i last clubbed. and in fact i am not really into it. so i joined ray's group and one of JS's frens.. not too bad.. in fact it was fun! except this botak who seem to be REALLY REALLY desperate.. haha. he was super aggressive and he was literally humping me! YUCKS! so being the usual me i just kept quiet and keep tugging JS for help. apparently raynco was standing dere watching tt guy lah. god. but in the end i manage to get him off my back.. LOL..

they keep asking me to drink... vodka cranberry, e37, whiski dry.. god. two words! TIRED AND WASTED! puked big time and dis is bad. first time i puke outside. haiz. wth! UGLY! i feel so bad tt JS's fren have to take care of me.. :S thanks dude.. :)

den after tt JS and me parted. so we went to prata house den raynco sent me home. thanks dudes! :)

sentosa tml! pray tt the weather is good. bday is already corked up. so i will appreciate if the sun is BLAZING HOT! nitey! school was alrites. haha. randome stuff here and dere. ask neo acc me go makan. end up he only replied after breakout. so went to da bao and eat alone. msn-ed wid rena during 3rd meeting for the first time. haha

training was suppose to be gym today but in the end coach decided that we train wid the guys team. its so bloody god damn fun lah. the net is higher.. and its more difficult for me. but i had alot of fun though.. after not training for so long.. the feeling is different.. all of us were damn enthusiastic. and coach made us run 20 rounds and some physical. simply love vb..

haiz.. i didnt expect u all to be the way it is. seriously i feel that its not that u all got no time. everyone has got 24hrs each day. its just how much you all want to meet up. its a matter of you wan it anot.. and we all noe that we were going to meet either sat or fri.. if you all cant be bothered den i cant force u girls lah. i just didnt expect tt all these shit will come from you all. so much for being friends for more den 5 yrs. utterly disappointed.

*and ya.. i am disappointed in you too. i did my part.. like i said. somethings just take two hands to clap. but den again i cant expect anything from u..

i am not happy at all.. :( sigh.. i am confused. mayb its time that i take a step back and stop going forward. Some things in life requires two hands to clap. i cant do it alone. mayb all these while you have been kind enough to make things seems positive. but in the end it just seems so bleak. it was never mutual. ): nv go to sch today. vik came over and took a nap. and we went to haji lane. and i love it! haha. saw this damn HOT guy.. =X er. okok. its not abt the hot guy though. he is a bonus. HAHA. love those vintage shops! den went to meet up wid aunt and uncle to sim lim square. got a samsung K3 like FINALLY! haha. but i wanted a digi cam!!! :( haha. *slap myself* wth!!! u should be glad tt aunt is willing to get u a mp3! appreciate things can! nvm.. i will get the digi cam next mth.. haha. oh ya.. bought a bangle and SATIN SHEETS!!! haha. i am so happy.
these few days i have been strucked by random questions. haha. was havin break wid choon ni and mitchell yest.. and choon ni suddenly ask.. "Have you thought of where to go honeymoon already?" i almost choke myself to death.. haha. den the first thought that come to my mind is "i dun even have a bf lah!" LOL. and marriage has nv crossed my mind.

i always thought getting hitched is the best thing ever. but apparently marriage just turned from the sweetest thing to the scariest thing. haiz. seems like everyone is cheating on their partner. haiz. marriage no longer seals eternity but just a piece of cert.. with divorcing sooo rampant it just seems super insecure.. seems like nothing last..

Victoria's Secret Devil.. :S

headache since last nite.. and i went to sch in cab. haiz. waste money. UT was a flop. i am so sick and tired, cold, and havin a v.bad headache and worst of all being v.WHINEY! haiz. i noe i noe.. here i go again. whiney like a baby and craving for sayangs.. haiz. I WANNA GO HOME!!! haiz.. dis sucks... oh ya. the only happy thing is I FINALLY GOT MY VEST!!! :) school was DAMN COLD! omg. so cold til my fingers are stiff and in fact they hurts. and my whole body is aching! lucky neo willing to lend me his jacket and acc me go have a hot chocolate.. hehe. but i am still shivering like crazy. oh wells.

after school went adelphi to hand up my timesheet. den met up wid joe. we were suppose to get our bday presents. but we end up only buying my present. haiz. yups we bought dis pair flats from SUBSTANCE. thanks dude. i will try to get urs soon! :)

finally packed my room abit and changed the sheet and iron-ed em. and vacummed my room! haha. feel so good now. haha. omg.. i seriously hate housewrk. haha. and i am so tired now. zzz.. Yeah!!! Its monday again. and here am i sitting in the class typing dis blog entry during 1st meeting. yeap! u heard me rite.. 1st meeting! hehe.

MONDAY BLUES

awww.. dun be.. Monday is a new start of the new week. and time fly by sooooo fast.. after mon is tues, after tues is wed, and by wed ur already halfway through the weekdays! after wed is thurs and finally FRIday!! LOL.. so cheer up! =) i am so glad cuz i am finally counting down to my BIG DAY! hehe. in 7 days time. and i woke up wid an invitation to bintan over the weekends.
wrk was pretty funny.EXCEPT the fact tt the dealer tried to burn my ass wid a lighter.. haha. when i reached.. the dealers were like "wah... ur like super destructive lah. haha.we are waiting for ur arrival and see wad u will spoil today.. " =.=" ya... and i continue to spoil alot of dummy phones mainly from nokia. then they were like.. "everything that have been touched by u sure spoil leh. how u do it sia. haha. " so u need any safekeeping? haha. actually i took some pictures of my doing.. but i am so lazy to upload it. haha.
went to soo kee jewellry to talk to dis cust of mine. and i get to wear this diamond ring! OMG!!! i am going to get myself one of tt these dayssome days.. hehe.. its so bloody got damn georgeous lah!!! haha. diamonds are indeed woman's best friends. i got a call in the morning.

stranger : hi.. what are u doing?
me: who are u?
stranger : sleeping ar? guess hu am i lah..
me : what do u want?
stranger : i wanna ask u out..
me : i got work..
stranger : u know what?
me : what?
stranger : my dick is v.hard now..
me : WHATEVER!!!
..... i hang up the phone and went back to slp..

seriously like wtf! do i really look tt vulnerable?! i must stop dis.. i cannot let ppl bully me again! and hu ever you are.. seriously ur damn pathetic.. if beung hung up on the phone will EXCITE you, u seriously need to get a life! go get urself a prostitute or get some balloon doll to fuck urself.

so went to wrk and was kinda late though its super near.. nothing much though.. was quite sian. cuz the booth is so ulu.. except tt i was pretty DESTRUCTIVE.. haha. i spoilt the wire tts attached to the mio booth.. spoiled two dummy slider phones. and the dealer ask me to stop spoiling things :S haha. kevin is wrking too. so go say hi to him when ever i go toilet or when i am bored. haha. went home straight after work. and i intro-ed a stranger work while i am looking around. sigh..
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