recently jere came back to my mind.. i dreamt of him.. i cant remember wad was it abt.. happy or juz plain tearful.. all i did was remember seeing his face.. from the heart by another level.. he used to sing it to me..

i shud be happy tt i am able to taste my gf's tongue.. haha. not one but all of my gf's at a club.. haha. yest went yoga.. and on my way saw jackson! haha. his last day at M1.. good luck.. haha. after tt went MOS wid the girls!!! haha. love it!! haa.. but i shud say its nt as nice. cuz sharry's cuzzie sort of piss us off.. haha. sayin tt we've gt cheena names.. like hu cares? haha..

went wid cordelia, sharry, linggs(twins),cornelia, loretta and her guy frens and sharry's bboys.. danced sooo hard.. and i am so stupid. haha. cuz i dun think i ever learn frm my mistakes.. haha. by wearing tt killer heels but wid tapes.. haha. but its not helping either.. haha. but its nt as bad lah.. i was forced to take em off in the midst of dancing.. and beg one of the girls to exchange theirs wid me. haha... lovely liling did. and the guy beside me gave me a
quizzical look. and i gave him a silly smile. haha. and continue to groove!!! wad else?

btw, we did loads of crazy thing out of boredom.. haha. poor girls. cuz i had tasted all of them! haha.. in front of their guy, in front of guys hu tried v.hard to grind us and tt malay guy hu keep talking to us.. haha.. but hu cares? as long as i am happy and we all had fun rite? haha. its started by passin em ice tru mouth and ya.. u can see lah..haha seeing is believing! haha.

wrk today.. was fine and fast. haha. jordan treat me and yuchoon to lunch again. i feel so bad for havin treats frm him over and over again.. haha. btw boss and god mum gg take wedding pics again! isnt it sweet? haha.. argh!!! someone look at my blog and i think half the service centre saw my tummy! =.=" sooooo paiseh.. haha. they keep makin fun at me.. haha..

after wrk met weicong for supper. haha. den saw jacky, wing chiew and ivan and some of their frens.. haha.. wing chiew look like a thai construction wrker.. haha. tsk.. wad have NS did to him..lol..

okies.. its picture time!!

first we feel the mutual attraction.. den we were so tempted to kiss.. when i attempt again.. she was secretly wishing tt i would do it again! haha
some of the girls i went wid!
my mannequin frens.. and our runway dream..tongue tasting has nv been this good. even better den food fair! statisfy my tastebuds, my nose and our bonding.. oh ya.. sharry went home wid me after awhole nite of partying! haha.. guess wad we did.. :P

just me and my sexay moley!

Conclusion:

All in all i had fun grinding and dirty dancing my girls.. haha. (sorry guys.. my girls juz seem way much more interesting than u r.. and it just makes me happy to see tt "turn off" look on ur face when u saw what happened..) haha. plain evilness.. haha. but i simply love it! haha.. ladies!!! lets do it again next week! wahahaha..

woah! finally back frm my tiring kickboxing and pilates! haha. tired! ltr will be gg to MOS to hit the dance floor! haha. wid sharry and lynn! haha. love em loads!!! haha. haha.. finally i got the time to schedule myself for yoga! haha. boxingyoga and pilatesmatwrk! haha. abs abs abs.. haha..

went training like finally! haha. amazingly coach praise me for my setting..LOL.. it is my weakest.. haha. but i am v.happy tt during the last part where i got good set and good spike! haha. jiayous. but after tt was freakin tired.. my thighs is like on the verge of cramp-ing.. haha. and when i get dwn i werent able to get up as fast.. haha. but v.challenging! haha. i like..btw i got my "belated" birthday present already! haha. mind u, my bday is in oct! haha. i was shocked to receive it too.. haha.

went to prata hse wid gabbie. haha. talk and eat.. damn funny.. we took pics and half of his head gone.. LOL.. and help him took pics for his tattoo too! haha. suppose to go wrk today.. but somehow no one seem to remember i am wrking today. so end up never go.. haha. den wei cong was like askin if i wanna go catch a movie wid rayson, jon and his new girl. haha. yups so i went.. so what i am trying to be strong.. tt gay shit is not gg to be a major set back for me. somewhat, i am beaming in confidence when i leave my hse. haha

went to far east to visit gabbie.. he was doing his long awaited tattoo at john two thumbs up or something. haha. so cool.. haha. we catch STOMP THE YARD! haha. nice movie i shud say but i think STEP UP is better. haha. jon as usual freakin noisy and hyper.. haha. rayson always being suan by me.. wei cong, i always treated him well. haha. the girl(cant remember her name, cuz jon is always changing girls.), is nice and not as dao as the previous wan! haha.

had LJS for dinner. matt, marcus and "jon's previous girl" came along.. two other guy join us as well. one is like a beef cake!!! haha. actually i wanted to order combo 2 but everyone is ordering combo 1.. i am too shy to eat soooooo much in front of em.. haha. den after tt we went arcade to play.. jon suggested it. at first was quite =.=".. turn out it was quite fun.. dere is dis game we played where we need to team up and shoot the token into the opponent slot! haha. damn fun! haha. espcially wid tt beef cake around.. haha.. beef cake i like! haha. i am NOT gg to let any chance to slip through my fingers again.. cuz i deserve better. =) den go home lers. haiz. was kinda reluctant to go home cuz THE NITE IS STILL YOUNG!!! haiz. missed 2 training since march starts. and i am nt feeling good abt it. haiz. i wanna go training!!! can training dun be so early? i wanna train so much but i simply cant help it.. haiz.. training is soooo early and i dun even go to sch tt early.. haiz. i muz buck up! went town wid vik.. poor vik is equally heart broken as me. haiz. juz tt hers is a girl and mine is a guy. but i believe mine is more "zzz" since hers happens like a few times a week mth.. but i would say i need MORE of these girly moments wid the girls.. haiz.. hugs..

went far east and we walked around and sharry happen to be wrking. haha. the guy i met today is smoking hot.. haha. actually i always see him around. but i guess he like those girly fair lookin girls.. haha. the toy at sharry's nv fail to make me laugh silly-ly.. haha. love it.. :P

dis is it! its like a musical box.. so when the timing is rite, the piggy will pop out frm the tin! haha. so cute.. i always get fascinated by it.. haha. i duno why..omg.. i sound so retarded.. LOL

helped wei cong to get the pair of ticks for mr bean's holiday.. i almost faint when he tell me he went to gay party last nite and dance topless on the podium.. =.=" and the he came to meet me wid dis unfamiliar dude.. look kinda pissed when i talked wid wei cong.. the best part is he told me tt he is gay in his message and tt guy is his bf.. i called him immediately.. haha. lucky he is still straight.. i am SOOOO going to intro liling to him.. haha. but juz hope tt the same thing dun happen to liling like wad i am gg tru.. haha. crossed fingers..

went to admiralty alone since vik gt a chance to move on. so i juz went alone. it was okies.. being alone is not as bad as it seems.. but the fact tt some weird guys came up to me and say "hello" to me totally irks me! i stare at em so feircely.. if they ever dare to touch me.. they are so dead.. i am gg to punch him and kick him hard like wad i learn in my kickboxing lesson! if no one is gg to protect me.. den i will have to protect myself.

met gabbie at J8 and we left for mount faber! and it sooo happen tt my MP3 was playing "fallen" by lauren woods.. totally romantic.. but wid buddy gabbie is abit wrong lah.. haha. anyway.. its a really nice place but there is another GAY couple.. duno wad the fuck they r dere for! totally spoil the ambience.. so we went to labradour park tog.. tt place was even better! haha. over lookin the sea and those lights giving out frm the oil refinary station.. really nice and i muz say the sky is really clear and all the stars are out wid the v.yellow moon.. the only thing is when we sit on the floor, we were totally freaked out by the intrusive cockroaches! haha. and i saw this pervert lookin guy kissing dis "unconcious-looking" girl in his car.. how can someone not react when a rapist looking guy is like trying to devour u.. ewwks... but to me these places are perfect but juz lack of some bossa nova and jazz.. if not, it will be ultra romantic.. on our way back we nearly got into accident thanks to some kayu driver..

after tt we headed to geylang for some bean curd and soya milk! haha. and i saw the lousiest female driver.. wah lao.. loser.. haha.. wonder how she get her licence.. the WHOLE kopitiam is looking at how she parks a car.. haha. LOSER!!! she gt so pissed tt she hit the horn duno for wad. haha. and when she wana get out of tt parking lot, she horns get of the car and demand tt taxi driver to drive off cuz she duno how to get to the other lane... LOL.. i dun think i will be like her if i were to get my licence.. she is a TOTAL joke..

haiz... wads wid creepy cockroaches, perverts and gays? haiz... they seem to evolve around me.. haiz. i need a REAL man.. A STRAIGHT MAN(someone hu get turn on by girls and nt guys..) someone hu loves me and able to protect me frm all dis shits and v.important.. dun let me go hungry.. haha.. not some fugly old shit(he is 41yr old) who message me in friendster pestering me to add em.. and by telling me i smile like jamie yeo will not help either! bloody despo..

hm.. shall post the pics when i get home tml nite.. haiz. already 4.30am.. damn it.. still need to wrk tml.. RAHS!!!

haha. come to think of it.. i have been pretty absent minded and forgetful dis few days.. haha. which means i will forget all dis shit soon! haha. yeah.. how can i be so stupid to let him maniplulate me.. he made it sound as if it was all MY fault tt things will turn out dis way. and i stupidly think it was my fault tt things turn out dis way..wth.. been thinkin the whole nite.. i dun think i have done anything wrong. he cant wait and cant accept and turn to other guy is NOT MY FAULT! its juz in him.. face it..

conclusion: guys are all the same.. be it gays or normal straight guy, they love to push the blame to others.. unwilling to accept the fact tt they are really wrong.. tsk.. but its okies.. tts juz part of their egoness. at the end of the day their main objective is to hear u say tt "i am sorry things turn out dis way..its all my fault.." screw you lah! loser..

LOL.. probably after dis incident i turn les too! haha. bisexual would be good. haha. MORE variety.. haha.. i muz be crazy to think dis way.. not tt i am homophobic or wad but i have nv doubt my preferences.. but wad ever it is i have to focus on wad i have and not things i dun have.. cheers! tml will better! i will find someone better one day.. i believe the rite guy will come along... don ask anything frm me anymore.. wish u and him good luck... no words.. because nothing else matters anymore.. talk is cheap but tts wad u always like to do.. if jere is not worthy of my love.. wad makes u think think tt u will fit the bill? at least i was his everything.. and tts good enough..

and if this is ur punishment for me.. let me tell u.. congrats.. cuz you did it! and you did it VERY WELL.. happy? i am a failure in love! big failure!!! i let go of a man i love so much.. and he love me as much! i gave him up cuz i tot dere is someone even better! but i was wrong..

day didnt start off good nt mentioning the blazing hot sun! haiz. the truth always hurts. and it did have a fuckin big impact on me. i cant believe it.. here i am.. i lost to a guy! tt gay pic on the floor at gabbie's block.. fuck tt fucker hu print tt on the floor and i happen to see it at the wrong time! i wanna eat tt mee goreng omelet wrap.. its sold out when i feel the most fucked up.. and i hate it when i dun get the things i wan even when i tried so hard to..

okies.. 3/4 of the guys in sg are gay.. i think porn is not necessary anymore! cuz ppl are all gays and lesbian! even if i were to strip naked nw.. i think no one will be interested! mayb i am juz a loser in everything! i cant believe even after all tt happened.. u r telling me dis until now.. my life's a joke.. nothing but joke.. i feel so fucked up now..

mayb its nt the guys fault tt they werent interested in me.. because i simply look too normal and VERY unattractive to guys! fuck!

thanks gabbie.. i appreciate ur presence and thanks for everything.. see u tml! hugs.. yeah!!! labradour park! =) haha. nothing much though.. went to wrk and was late as usual.. kelvin frm m1 dropped by. haha. gd to see him. haha. i think the only fun part of wrk today is to have 2 gay couple looking at me. haha. flattered by one of em since he is extremely hot i can say.. haha. have i become a gay magnet or wad.. haha. i wish i am gay too.. i think i am gay.. haha. cuz i fancy boys/man.. haha..

WHY IS THE WEATHER SO GOOD WHENEVER I HAVE TO WORK?!
rahs!!! the sun was so freakin good! i wanna look all sun-kissed AGAIN!

went lunch for the very first time wid jordan and the usual yuchoon. haha. free lunch frm him! many thanks my dear CSO.. haha. i eat SOOOO much! i think i am gg to scare all the guys i have lunch wid.. i had a plate of wanton hor fun, dumpling soup, yam paste and fried mars bars.. haha. after tt i am sort of loaded wid food. joshua seem to fear the "worms" in my stomach will cry out for hunger.. he threw me a small packet of twisties.. and followed by the half packet of malay rice.. haha

after wrk met sharry to catch up.. went cine and saw lil louisa.. and jellinan.. she slimmed down alot but her boobs still as big as ever.. haha.. nic tan and shafiq was dere too. haha. nothing much.. overlooking the raging sky.. haha. sharry and me ran to the mrt station hand in hand.. haha. sound so romantic.. lol.. but i love rainy nights.. good for cuddling. haha.

random things..
i clean my room like finally. see the diff.. i think whichever guy marries me will cry.. :P
a picture paint a thousand words..
LOL


haha. wrk was kinda fustrating today.. haha. cust gang up and bombard me wid loads of accuse. wth! was freakin pissed. i hate to be accused! n i started banging things all over tt the cust seems to noe tt i am really pissed. haha.. the only two gd thing tt happen is havin lunch wid levin and seeing eugene lim at my wrk place.. lol.. its gd to see ppl i noe around. haha.

haha. god mum bought me "lor mai gai" frm fortunate dimsum.. haha. she say i wrk v.hard and ask joshua to pass to me. haha.. feel tt its gd to look like lil girl sometimes.. haha. cuz ppl will treat u and pamper u like one. i remember jere once told me tt i make ppl wana protect me. haha. -.-" turn out he hurt me the most.. LOL.. and not to forget my free post it bear bear.. haha..

its ironic how my mum and dad nv seem to ask me if i have enough $$$ to make it through the month even though they have not given me a single cent! wth rite? joshua was like "do u have enough money to eat for lunch.." haha.. not tt he gave me pocket money but i really appreciate his care and concern.. haiz.. i think mum and dad is lucky to have me as daughter.. cuz i nv really ask em to gimme my wants nor my needs.. its seems like other ppl is always providing em to me. like my aunt and granny.. haiz.. wonder where did all the money go? haiz.. screwed up parents i have..

was so pissed wid my bro.. when he finish the whole can of pringles and leave it in my room! and he bloody accuse me of eating his chips! was so pissed when i saw another can of empty pringles on the dinning table.. so while he was bathing.. i switch off the heater and the lights as well.. muahahaha... duno why i do it either.. haha.. but it make me feel better! haha.. and hopeless bro.. hate him.. argh! now i am being brand as "BULLY-ABLE"..
can i have a short poll here? haha

I have the look of :
a)an easy target to be bullied!
b)a touch me and you are gone look

haha. let me noe ur ans in my tag board! gimme suggestions on how or wad i can do would be good. haha. haiz. i am sick of being bullied by irritating ppl! i seriously have no idea wad is wrong wid ppl these days.. on our way to CWP after training.. i kicked mad's ass and this stupid nosy parker idian man said something like "who's ass r u kicking?" and charge rite up to me. and i gave a freakin annoying irritated look and sound and bloody stared at him even when he talked past me. and he said something again.. wad is wrong wid ppl these days.. it triggered me be to be bloody agitated and said loads of nasty comments!!! argHs!.. hate it.. cant they juz freakin leave me ALONE!?

cam whoring frm far east to MOS, ZOUK and finally MAC smooches
the fun lot i met!

first he threw tantrum cuz i took the magazine

den

he tried to seduce me to get the magazine back,

by acting like lucky..

hm.. told gabbie abt the incident when he suddenly called. haha.. v.nice of him to bring me to the reservior to chat wid me and cheer me up.. b4 tt he went to get some sushi frm his mum and she got him to brought a box of ferrero rocher to cheer me up.. nice mum he got. so we had sushi by the water and earlier on we went sakae at sentosa.. haha. we played some music and chat all the way to 4 plus.. thanks bro for being dere.. hugs!!!

the guy in white top resemble jere.. haha. and the guy above is mat..

was wrkin the whole sat! haiz.. josh made me the IC of the day.. and we wrked pretty well. collection was crazy... served closed to 300 ppl! well done team! haha.. so i guess i didnt screw up as an IC as everything went on smoothly.. haha. happy to be in control! its a chance for me to prove myself. i duno why but i guess sometimes ppl have the perception tt being a girl makes u weaker den a guy in many ways! being physically small does not mean tt i am nt as good as the guys.. haha. in fact i think in terms of finding sets, i am way better den the guys. haha. winks! proud of myself! haha. nt juz any decoration according to my chinese teacher.. and of cuz nt a BIMBO! which bimbo cares abt how fast she can find a set rite? all they think abt is how fast they can get tt eye candy hook rite? ahah.. and bimbo dun slog their life away wrkin like me! haha.. tada!!! reasons..

after tt went to meet the girls.. yuling and sharon at cine. they were at the floor skill something.. hm.. i duno why at first when i see em.. i duno wad to say.. i dun seem to have any idea wad to talk abt.. so i seem bored. mayb i hang out wid my bros too much.. i find myself out of place somehow.. their conversation is tooooooo bimbotic for me to join in.. hm.. to think gary say tt i am bimbotic ALL THE TIME!! wait till he hears wad they r talking abt.. but well.. we split after tt.. sharry went butter factory and ling and me went cathay! haha. saw wei cong dere.. poor thing still gotta wrk til 1am.. had nachos tog and nigel called!!!

went to winston's hse for the first time. and my jaw dropped. haha. he stayed at bukit timah.. and the whole of the level 3 is his room.. omg.. he gt this attic and its filled with nine west heels.. its his mum's... and he have like more den 20 adidas jacket.. dis balcony where u can lie dere all day and suntan as and when u like! and best of all. he gt dis adorable lil rascal name junior! haha. its a silky terrier.. sooo cute.. haha. i spent my time playin wid it. ahah. basically, his hse look more like a resort to me. haha..den nigel, eric, winston, jane and edison is playin some mario game.. serene, anavil and melvin was playin card games.. while i fall aslp beside nigel.. was soooo tired after wrk but didnt wan to go home. haha. so i ended up sleeping my time away... suddenly i hear serene's voice.. wake up.. haha. i was so shocked when serene told me it was 4 plus already! i am like WHAT?! okies.. so we took a cab home..

was extremely tired. and i request tt i start wrk at 2 instead.. but i was still late.. haiz. wrk was fine today.. haha. one of the new part timer actually forgot abt payment for two cust.. so i keep reminding em.. haha. and i think i gt the two of the guys freakin pissed tt they tell me tt its REALLY not em.. oops. haha. rachel is the best.. haha. she said nothing:P haha. btw aunty jesse won 4D and she treat us pizza hut! omg.. talkin abt pizza hut.. i am freakin hungry nw.. haiz.. i need food.. haha.. tt one reason why i am nt a bimbo.. which bimbo thinks abt food ALL day? haha.. get my point?

juz finish downloaded 3 episode of desperate housewives season 3.. hahaha. its freakin awesome.. haha. i love it.. and i finished all 3!!! haha.. gabrielle is soooo hot. haha.. i would to be half as hot as her.. haha. i love her tann!!! hm.. today didnt start off really good. cuz i had a bad dream.. abt something tt wouldnt let us off and wants to harm my family.. and was quite shaken by it. haiz. hope its juz a dream and tts it.. went to wrk earlier today as there is a meeting. and i think its a pretty waste of time! haha..

during lunch break i went to paragon to get my cap but sadly.. its out of stock.. actually dere is a last piece.. but someone reserved it.. haiz. so i went to the nike shop opp the shop.. the nice lady helped me call up the wheelock place outlet. haha. they got stocks!!! so i need to travel from paragon to wheelock and back to wisma in 20 mins.. on my way.. i saw dennis and alan phua frm bukit panjang!!! i am SOOOO happy to see em! in fact i miss em.. haha. they treat me like their lil sis or daughter.. haha. married ppl tend to be more fatherly and motherly! haha. shit.. so i walked soooooooo fast.. and when i got up the escalator.. i hurt myself again.. haiz.. its the same spot as the abrasion i get frm diving to save tt ball.. double ouch!

saw the line over dere? i scratched it against those sign board towards the lido direction.. omg.. den i juz keep going! haha. i must and i want tt cap!!! haha. so i finally reach dere in awhile.. and TADA!!!

after tt i finally got back to wisma sweating big time! haha. so i have to chiong all the way! haha. the new staff is sooooo slow and the cust is coming in like tsunami! haha. omg.. so i have to shuttle here and dere to make sure tt the queue dun get jammed up! being busy makes the day goes by faster..

darling nigel came and pick me up frm wrk.. really sweet of him.. haha. after tt we went to heeren to meet winston, anavil, serene, jane and EDISON! haha. i can tell u tt he is quite hot!!! haha. but too bad he is taken.. haha. since we r at heeren.. so we went to visit gary.. he got a new haircut.. and nothing new.. he is always inside the fitting room checking out his hair.. wad a HIMBO... nothing new...

after tt nigel and i went to join the peeps at party world! omg.. i feel sooooo intimidated by em.. 5 outta 10 peeps were frm some idol competition.. and they sings well.. but nigel and i left without singing any songs.. haha. but its nice meeting em though..:P

den we caught the last train and gabbie picked me up frm J8.. haha. we went prata hse to meet Raj and i think lydia.. haha. chatted abit.. meet alot of new ppl today huh.. haha. interesting.. gabbie and i went peirce resevior again to chill. its such a nice place.. i want to meet lil brandon(gab's 6 yr old lil bro).. haha.. so i suggest we shall bring brandon out one day for a movie at J8 someday. haha. juz in case if we really cant handle tt lil rascal, we shall bring him home soon. asap.. haha. but its always nice to chill dere and talk all the rubbish.. here's some pic i had taken..

its a really beautiful place.. if i can.. i would love to buy a high storey mansionate overlooking the reservior or sea with all the greeneries.. i once went up to 25th storey.. and its abt 5pm.. the sun was soooo orangy and the water was orange too i could see ppl rowing a lil boat frm where i am standing.. its like the nicest scenery ever.. imagine counting stars in the nite and looking at rainbows after a storm and admiring sunset and sunrise.. omg.. perfect..
hm.. today went to visit granny at her hse. after tt went vivo wid my aunt. haha. bought a new belt frm zara kids! haha. i always seem to find belt frm zara kids.. haha. its actually a steal! its v.nice. i saw a similar design at GAP cost abt $70!!! and mine is like $25 lah!!! see the diff? LOL..

haha.. i went to nike shop.. and the NIKE cap is sold out!!! haiz. damn sad.. i tml sure will rush to paragon to buy it!!! haha. since i saw it dere.. argh!!! i scared sold out.. =( nvm nvm.. i will buy it!!! haha.

went to the pet safari without fail to look at the doggy! omg.. they are sooooo adorable and the corgi pembroke tt look like a lil roast pig is still dere! haha.. so cute. i hope and wish i can bring them all home wid me!!!

den there is this MAC event at vivo.. saw loads of sg artiste too. like david gan, paul twohill, justin ang and a few i duno their name... hahaha.. hm.. went to food republic to eat and guess wad.. i ate a bowl of laksa tt cost $6.. only the fishcake is nice.. the prawns and tau pok taste abit soggy and weird.. haiz. felt kinda cheated. haha i miss doing all these things.. haiz... =(

"i love him to bits.
i miss tickling his armpits, tummy, ear and blah blah.
licking his nose.
planting kisses all over his face.
distrupting his beauty slp.
make him blow up and go over the line
squeezing his fat fat tummy!
but i am nt a lousy gf k!!!
haha.i am crazy!
nvm me." went training today. b4 tt meet gary eat lunch. hm.. i feel he change abit.. he is finally building his brains a lil by reading book. haha. den we went popular to look at magazine.. haha. den i am off to training wid xuan ting.

when i reach dere.. i tried to set the net. and the pole dropped on the floor.. and when i tried to thighten the net, the thing juz went up.. i am like the main culprit.. oops... btw.. mel finally bring a jug of cookies.. which she owe me since valentine's day.. lol.. i finished up the whole jug..

after tt went to eat kfc.. lol.. sinful.. haha. juz realise the surf babe contest i took part mths back.. my partner is in cleo's 50 most eligible bachelors.. haha. no wonder so familiar.. haha. and he happen to be nigel's team mate in frisbee.. wad a small world.. or sg is tooo small.. haha. off to training! i wanna go zoo too. and underwater world! haa. saw national geographic channel at mac.. i saw polar bears.. i wanna take pics wid polar bears.. seeing the polar bear.. made me rushed home to hug my baby! haha. i love u.. muackss... i wanna eat Hong Kong's wanton mee.. ahaha. haha. slept at 7am today and woke up at 12 plus.. was playin need for speed the whole nite.. haha. nothing much though went for training xuan ting joined us for training too. and had friendly with team temasek st hilda's alumni! haha. they r basically made up frm temasek peeps.. except without xiang ting and grace. haha. didnt really get to play much though. haha. the only reason why i went down is to screw up the team abit. cuz its friendly.. so the score cant be too far away.. haha.. but i didnt really screw up so badly lah. haha i think.. :P btw we saw dis super BIG lizard at the lift door juz rite above my head! ewwks. i screamed like hell. haha. was so tramatised by it.. cuz lizard drop on my head b4.. yucks!

went mac to eat dinner. and i feel so sinful! hm.. NO MORE Mac Donalds FOR ME! on our way home.. dere is this weird guy.. he started doing all the weird things in train.. he knock on the train's door.. pull the handle to make sure like everything is in tip top condition. suddenly he jus smiled at me when our eyes meet. sooo scary.. haha. he waved to madd too. LOL.. lucky he stopped at amk and nt bishan.. haha. he is juz so scary.. in a way..

yeah! tml gg beach wid tt stupid gary.. HOT HOT SUN please.. haha. and i did realise tt gary is still alive frm his message.. he seem unreachable for days.. haha. seems like he vanished from the earth! haha.. and i tot he died or wad..

jere msged me.. telling me my cookies is nice.. it came abit too late.. i have no idea why he always like to do such things when he is attached.. he is the one hu said tt he dun love me anymore. surprisingly i dun feel anything. mayb i am so numb to it.. cuz it happens everytime.. or i really really get over him already.. or i simply expected it.. its juz like a waiting game. see hu cant take it and msg each other first.. 4 yrs.. i noe him well enough to predict and noe wad is up his sleeves.. but i noe we r wrking hard to forget each other.. haiyo.. today was a slight bit late. haha. nothing new.. btw today gt sooooo many cust. haha. i spend most of my time finding the sets. lifting so may trays of hps.. haha. biceps are forming. so i shud able to lift the bars during trainings faster soon?

haiz.. die die die.. the true yoga membership cant be terminated. so i shall make the most outta it and kick some ass and be totally tone and lean.. abs abs abs! haha. think too much.. prob is i dun have time! haha. nvm.. i shall make time for it and utilise wad ever i can. hm.. if anyone is interested, u can drop me a message in my tag board.. haha. i will fill u in wid the details.. LOL..

argh! i miss sentosa and the blazing HOT sun.. haha.. i am craving for a golden tann! haha. but i dun have time! argh.. haha. nvm.. i will make time for it! haha. soon i will. haha. ladies.. we shall go and chill some day at KM8.. haha.. be hyperactive or spend all day sight seeing.. LOL.. i miss u girls.. hmm.. today nv go wrk again.. haiz. the cough was so bad tt i couldnt slp till 7am even though i had a v.bad mirgaine.. argh.. poor wei cong is sick too. haha.. uncle is also sick.. seems like the whole world is sick.. haiz.

so stayed at home today and rest.. haha. at nite.. rushed to joy doggy to get dog food for lucky.. argh.. tt bag of dog food is so heavy and i had to lug it here and dere.. haha. daddy and stupid bro didnt want to help. esp stupid guang hao.. only noe hw to eat and no output at all.. wth! after tt went to granny's hse and have dinner together..

its funny tt ppl around me had weird dreams abt me.. haha. soooo sweet of em.. haa
#1 granny dreamt tt i brought a snake to her hse and scared her wid it.. haha..

#2 nigel dreamt tt we got married.. LOL! haha. and we married for status and we can go out and enjoy wif hu ever we want. and be wid hu we want.. haha.

tsk i think he watch too much FULL HOUSE lers.. haha. i miss those days.. calling each other darling and make him piggy back me.. haha. we were so close and practically everyone said we look good tog! haha. even faci did. haha.. in fact we bicker day in and day out. haha. we like to make ppl guess if we r tog anot.. LOL!

as for ppl who claim tt they have put in effort.. i am sorry i dun feel anything. wei cong was telling me tt ppl have diff ways of doing things.. and he is juz doing the other way.. but to me.. ur way of doing things is to do NOTHING! ur pathetic. i gave u alot of chance and u screwed em up.. u claim tt i am nt ready.. but how can i be ready when i dun see tt ur ready?! do u expect me to take initiative? or do u expect me to tell u wad to do to win my heart?! u stupid no brainer! ppl like ekkawat, vik , madd and etc suggest i turn bisexual or lesbian. haha. good idea.. haha. seems like the eligible bachelors are dead! haha..

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reminiscence the good old days..

"darling and me"

today was late.. haha. v.late. :P start wrk at 11 n i woke up at 1.30.. hha. boss called me. haha. and the funny thing is vik came over n slp awhile.. haa.. and i can open door for her and let her out..

today was v.pissed by the same person again. haiz. duno wad is wrong wid him.. tsk. when i reach wrk.. within 10mins he stepped on my tail making me BLOW! haha. cant stand him. hope i can tear his mouth into many pieces. he has a foul mouth. gt IQ no EQ..

argh! muscles are wrkin out.. when i cough, i feel my abdominal area aching. haha. tts a good sign! i wana wrk tt muscle and get 4 pacs! haha... way to go! went to training today. haiyo. today was gym lors.. soooo tiring. haha. cannot make it.. :P den the guys had friendly match against the ang mo kio sec alumni. haha. it turn out the substitute is better den the main team.. lol..

went mac wid alex and mad mad. lol.. alex wanted to kiss mad to prove tt gay do nt get turn on by girls.. so he tried to kiss mad.. LOL! i feel like watching a horror movie.. LOL.. was so scared.. i rather keep my eyes close. haha.

haha. today saw this v.cute lil boy! haha. argh! so cute. but i didnt dare to touch him. haha. sooooooo cute.. he keep looking at me. i hope i will have another lil bro.. haha. mummy and daddy did u hear me? haha. :P oops.. mayb they're too old.. hm.. yest nite cough for like the whole nite.. slp only at 5? tried listening to my bosa nova.. i manage to pic myself lying and chilling by the beach in the nite. under the moonlight in the arms of "someone".. (i also duno hu is he.. haha.. i didnt inmagine his face..) lying to his chest.. haha. so close tt i can hear his heart beat and i can smell his favourite perfume.. haha. soooo nicee.. haha. enjoying the sea breeze.. with a beach hut nearby with orangie lightings.. in the end i cannt slp!!! lol.. went to play need for speed instead.. haha..

argh! today is sooo pissed wid one of my colleague.. bloody ego lah! wtf! he loves to think tt he is the smartest and tt i am SOOOOOOOOOO stupid! come on lah!!! get a life!!! i am NOT a bimbo k!!! he bloody love to boss me around! even gg to the toilet u also gimme tt fucked up face for wad?! act as if ur so competent and efficient!!! and i am soooooooo slow and lazy rite? bloody hell! den today gt ALOT of complain cust! soooooo sian lors.. everyone bombarding us.. if nokia really so good, why do u think they have SOOOOOOOOOO many service centre? and do u use a wet hands to handle electronics? no rite? use ur brain when u come and scold us.. no phone and most electronic will have prob once its been in contact wid water! even washing machine!*quoted frm gisen* lol...

after wrk went out wid wei cong to eat at kopitiam.. asked gary along but he cant he bothered to reply so i cant be bothered to ask again. wth! when we were eating at the kopitiam dere. this lady sat beside me.. suddenly i left something on my shoulders and arms.. it feels like hair.. den i was so shocked tt i cant move at all.. haha.. den when i turn over, i got a shock.. i saw a "the ring" thing rite beside me. haha. actually she was bending dwn to get something. but i was really freaked out lah. haha. cuz when i go for lunch wid gisen he told some creepy incident.. haha. btw weicong is like damn gullible.. haha. so nice to disturb him.. haha. i almost killed him today by asking him to run across the street wid me. and his hp dropped by the road and he went back to pic up it was green light already.. haha... thank god we r still alive.. :P http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=puuRkoFryak

haha. dis song is damn sweet. juz wad i need. haha. ur pay is to have all the love i can give. haha. fill up the application forms.. lol.. hmm. regarding to sharry's post.. lol.. a million guy waiting for me. haha.
- minus off the olds and the youngs.. i am left wid 500,000
- minus off the married ppl.. i am left wid another 250,000
- minus off the gays.. left 62,500
- minus off those wid gf..left another 31,250
- minus off the hot and handsome playboys.. left 15,625 (cuz they will nv fall for me)
- minus off the bisexuals.. left 3,906.25
- minus off those who migrated.. left 976.5625
- minus off the geeks and the nerds... left 488.28125
- minus off those i have rejected.. left 122.070312
- minus off those who is younger den me.. 61.035156
- minus off my ex.. left wid 46.035156
- minus off those tt almost wrk out but didnt.. left 11.508789

haha. so i am left wid less den 20 dudes in the whole sg tt i am left wid. haha. and sg is so big! ermm mayb nt so big but we definately have more den 10 new towns in sg rite? haha.. so chances are so slim and small. wahahaha omg.. i spend the whole day doing nothing. watched prison break and finally finish season 1. haha. den played need for speed all the way to 9 plus? haha. bloody no life and gt nothing better to do. hm.. lucky baby was dere the whole day to acc me. haha. was so bored tt i started disturbing lucky. haha. when ever i kiss him, he will try to lick my face. haha. so i will try nt to let him lick me. haha. but eventually he gt sick of it and went to slp under my bed. haha. so bored.. lil hammy is like missing for days!!! i think dis time round he wun be back already. hm.. R.I.P again. tak care.. back frm wanton session. haha. gabbie was kinda afraid tt i wud be pissed wid him. but amazingly i was nt angry and i pretty much expected it. haha. chatted alot of craps. haha. its nice hanging out and catch up! haha. he said i am toned up! haa. good. haha.

after tt we went peirce reservior and sit by the water and chat. haha. loads of things to talk abt. haha. talk abt bf gf. talk abt marriage talk abt making kids to having kids. we also talked abt gays while indulging chocolates and sweets. haha. den suddenly we hear whistling outta nowhere. it came frm the water and trees side. haha. mayb its juz a bird. haha.

i miss those secondary school days. haha.
hiding frm Mr Juraimi. going to the toilet as often as we can. sms under the table. spot checks! nv do homewrk. exams. cheating in POA lessons. haha. all those stupid things we do. haha. rushing to the canteen to buy food and chop place! last but nt least eating in class!!! wahaha.

memories to be erased..

the first pic we ever took.

off to eat wanton! haiz. hope dese will cheer me up.

argh! i have been coughing like my lungs are going to be coughed out soon. haha. its just so bad lah. haiz. i feel like i am scaring all the cust. i served while i coughed. argh.. its killing me!!! daddy send me to wrk this morning and treated me to breakfast! haha. but the breakfast made me nauseous the whole morning. hm.. and thanks for giving me morning call. i noe ur making effort to see ur name here on my blog.. rite? gary.. lol. yups. appreciate tt:) haha.

something happened during wrk. yu chun was telling me tt i shud beware of one of the technicians and wad happened before. and it happened. he "ACCIDENTLY" tripped and HUG me!!! i didnt dare to say anything and juz lean away frm him and get out of the room. its didnt happen once and at first i tot i was over reacting and keep quiet abt it. but after today i will keep a distant frm him. haiz. wth... ewwks..

hm.. after wrk.. daddy pick me up and i feel like i am daddy's lil girl.. haha. we had supper tog wid mummy at whoampoa.. haha. had hokkien mee and fried oyster! haha. all time favourite. haha. den they dropped me home again den went dating tog. haha. watch ugly betty til i fall aslp. haha. i am so tired and i DUN WANNA COUGH ANYMORE! haiz. but i dun wanna see doc either.. haha. i am so freakin happy! and i feel so stupid!!! why did i miss it!!! why didnt u ask again? haiz. i tot u were juz joking with me! i tot u didnt like me! i was so sad.. haiz.. argh!!! but its too late. haha. u already gt gf lers. but its okies... i am STILL VERY HAPPY TO HEAR THAT!!! it meant alot to me. argh... i can remember every single detail when we first met! omg. it was my second love at first sight and best of all its sooooo mutual!!! haiz. nvm.. at least i knew i once crossed ur mind. haha. stupid theresa.. hm.. nvm.. i am happy as a clam/flea/dog! wad ever it is I AM HAPPY.. VERY HAPPY! haha. i dun think i can sleep today! haha. freakin happy!!! haha. can someboday knock me out? haha.. :P i am sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo happy.. haha.. groomed my baby and mop the floor and vacum my room. after tt went ktv wid vik cuz she was upset abt cheryl. haiz. wad ever is it.. babe. dun worry u have me. i may nt always be dere but u noe i will be dere when u really need me. hugs k? after tt went to prata hse wid wei cong, rayson and gary. haha. talk alot of nonsense.. stupid rayson! he really can imitate NORBIT's wife. haha. LOL! den i suggest we go to the park near thomson plaza! i wanted to play the swing so badly. but its occupied! haiz.. so we went home without playin it. wth! HMPH!!! i want to play!!!!!!!!!!!!


PS: pls dun be jealous tt i have LUCKY! haiz. poor me. i am down with sorethroat and cough again! since b4 CNY til now. argh.. shud have listen to wei cong and drink MORE water after the steamboat. argh. was coughing soooo badly tt i couldnt slp until 6? so i nv go to wrk again. haiz. $80 gone? nvm.. i will wrk harder! haha.

yest nite was thinking abt something. i think tt i am very happy to have lucky in my life. haha. he is dere for me when ever i am sad. haha. though i didnt bring him up as a puppy but i noe he loves me as much as i love him. haha. he may nt have the nicest breathe on earth but he is definitely the sweetest to lick the tears off my cheeks everytime i cry. haha.( mayb he is thirsty, but i dun care) i am so lucky to find him years ago. haha. he is the sweetest thing tt ever happened in my life. haha. something i want SOOOO badly and i found it and i still love him SOOOO much even after 5 years... haha. so happy to see him everyday when i reach home and tell him "Baby, i love u!" haha..(sorry for those hu call ur bf/gf baby too) hm.. so i shall go and bath him now since i got all the time in the world... haha. den i shall upload the handsome pics of Lucky! haha. oh my god. its 5.30am and i cant slp!!! i keep thinking. thinking abt alot of things. haiz. i am tired. but i juz cant slp!

someone once told me i am a very extreme girl. and come to think of it. i think i am. i think i have high expectations. its quite true.. i duno wad i wan!!! help me!!! i want what i want. but when i get what i want i dun seem to want it anymore! what is wrong with me? didnt i screw up everything? argh!!! today i didnt go wrk becuz i am craving for TOOTSIE ROLL! haha. n wei cong say he wanted to go vivo. so i joined him! haha. he brought rayson along too. haha. so went we get into candy empire and look for my TOOTSIE ROLL.. haiz. but its out of stock! was damn disappointed.. but i get all this instead! hm... i cant believe i spent $20 juz like dat! haha. so sad.. but nvm.. haha. we went to pet safari and tt corgi pembroke is SOOOO cute! haha. she lie like a roast pig! haha. i love it!!! there is so many dogs i like! haha. i wan em all. haha. i love dogs!!!

we went NUM to look for gary and to settle something. haha. stupid gary seem so shock when he see me n wei cong tog. haha. after tt we went bugis to have steamboat! haha. gary joined us after wrk. haha. den after tt we saw this bed with cleo 50 most eligible bacherlor poster. haiz. sooo sad.. which means gordon will be on the bed lying with the girls. haha. :P haiz. when i entered bugis, i was quite afraid tt i will see jere and his new girl. haiz. i hope i dun see him again. espcially if he is with tt girl. i dun think i can take it. argh!!

desperation..

introducing the nicest lip blam.! haha. its damn nice and yummy. its damn sweet n i cant help licking my lips when ever i apply it. haha.

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