yest was sooo freakin tiring! haha. didnt expect things to happen the way it is. haha. i am happy though.. its like a dream.. haha. nv did i expect it.. haha. so was so freakin tired.

school was boring. and i am super tired! was like snoozing where ever and when ever i can! haha. haunted by the "z monster"! haha. school was like a fridge and i am like freezing cold! thank god chris lend me his brazil jacket! haha. sweet sweet of him! haha.

after school! yay! its fri! so mad, hazel ,dan, suxin alex and melly went out! haha. on the way i was sleeping in the train.. den we were suppose to go settler's cafe or something but its fully booked til 10.30.. wth!!! so i suggested to go fisherman's wharf.. haha. and i snooze dere.. den after tt we went to coffeeclub and played some game. haha. melly and me was lucky that we nv get tt joker card.. haha. mango tango is nice! yums. haha. after tt i went home. haha. on my way home, i am lucky to get a seat. haha. so i sleep again! lol.. so i am a good good girl! haha. i am asleep by 12.. haha.

and i woke up at 12 today! damn i missed canoe water training again! haiz. pls wake up!!! read an entry on cornelia's blog. it really made me feel like crying.. many thoughts came to my mind when i realise that daddy's age is catching up with him. though he dun really look old. but i always feel that daddy worked hard for the family. sometimes its really getting on my nerves that daddy keep scolding and make a moutain out of a molehill. but i noe he is stress due to wrk. he may not shower me with gifts and rewards.. but i noe he try his best to give me what he can and i appreciate that.

i remember how he always cover my blanket for me but i always kick it away the min he turn around. how he always take pic for me. how i always bug him to buy all sorts of pets which die after a short period of time .. haha. all thanks to my "wonderful treatment".. how i stay up waiting for dad when he not back after so late. haha. i sprint to the door when i hear keys.. haha. i trip and fall rite in front of the door and i got myself a big big wound on my chin. haha. tts when i noe vik.. LOL..

i always wanted to tell daddy how much i love him. give him a hug and a kiss on his cheeks like wad lil kids do. and i seriously respect him alot. but i cant bring myself to do it. haha. its like sometimes i see him i juz wanna run and hide in my room. but no matter what i still love u daddy.. i will always be daddy's lil girl.. and i noe u always dote on me the most.. :)

so i am in sch today. but late though i get to hear someone's voice the first thing in the morning. appreciate tt! and gary is in the hey gorgeous thingy by channel U! so i muz vote for my BOYFRIEND! haha.

canoe training was okies. 6km.. haiz. kinda tired though. went home for dinner and acc him to eat at st 22. haha. hit him on the injured arm.. haha. he almost killed me. den vik came over to bishan park for a jog. after the jog we went J8 for ice cream! thanks for feeding me dumplings even after i had my meal and that sundae is v.sinful! argh!!! control!!! at dis rate i am going, i am going to grow bigger! :( i wanna be lean and mean! haha. mayb i gt the mean factor already. haha. hm.. nv go sch again! i seriously think i am SOOOO DEAD! haiz. mum told granny abt it. and i gt drilled by her a few times!
aunt + granny + mum + dad = ULTIMATE NAGGING SESSION!
haiz. i didnt wan granny to noe cuz she is old and she tend to worries toooooo much! haiz.. if anything happen to her , it will be my fault and of cuz mum's fault! BITCH! arghs!

couldnt take the fact tt i havent been excercising for the past 1 week. so i went bishan park to jog by myself. came back within 30 mins. haha. jogged only 4/5 of the park. haiz... nvm.. pls perservere next time! tried deep frying some fries.. haiz.. and some turned chao tah.. haha. den i started thinking.. i think i really need someone who can take care of me. its so easy and i can make until liddat. i dun dare to think abt my future family members. haha. all will cancer prone if my chao tah cooking goes on.. haiz. and i dun like to do house wrk.. haiz. mum was like " ask u hang up the clothes also dun wan.. cook also duno hw to cook.. wad kind of girl are u?! dun wanna go study also. " haiz..

so went town wid vik to repair my hp.. haiz. wth!! stock take!!! so its a wasted trip! haiz. den we went window shop again. haha. haiz. the shopping list juz keep adding on. sad.. saw dis dress frm NUM which i really really like alot! haha. tried on and it looks kinda nice.. and when i ask the price.. haha. i almost drop dead.. $350.. haiz. sadded. its like the cutting suits me lors. haiz. difficult to find the cutting tt suits me. haiz. went paragon to see him. haha. he didnt see me though. haha. he look so cute when he blow kisses.. haha. but nt to me.. >.< haha. had subway.. finally one proper meal of the day. but i am like still freakin hungry after the meal.. drink milk! haha. healthier choice! haha. take dis test ppl...
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So yest went back to sch for Ut. haiz. i am juz a crap! pls go to sch.. STOP having post holis mood... haiz. its been 3 days.. haiz. and i am sooooo crazy over sudoku!

So yest went to lynn's hse to bake cookies. haha. mine looks nt too bad though.. haha. overall we had fun.. den joe came over and pick me up in his new car. haha. all i can say is aircon is powerful. haha. but i forget to let him try some.. haiz.. such a goldfish.. RAHSS.. i went to sch today.. but didnt go for lesson. juz nt in the mood to do anything. haiz. super complacent.. hate being a gir. haiz. he was mad like hell. scolded me like free flow.. haha. but i noe he meant well. so i juz kept quiet and let him scold me.. BOYFRIEND is sweet today. and he finally made it to sch.. haha. on his own motivation somemore. haha. after sch he came to library to pick me up.. and i was baggage free all the way til bishan! thanks!!! Darling nigel is sweet too.. haha. sayanged me.. haha. i am a fortunate girl who is loved by all. chocolates made me a wee bit happier. haha. den BOYFRIEND and me went CWP to get kueh kueh and lunch.. haha. its been a long time since we last met each other.

haha. something/someone made me super happy! i was like smiling all the way frm 9 to 11. well all i can say is.. when ur supper happy time past ubberly fast. thanks dear.. we poured out all out thoughts abt each other and i am glad tt we did. ur rite. dere r many "IF only.." and "wad if.." but its okies. because i believe wadever is meant to be will be. we shall let it happen. even if it dun happen i am still glad tt u were once in my life. hope to see dear soon! I CANT WAIT! haha. i am really super super happy. really v.happy. at least i noe i stand a place in ur heart. awwwwwwww...

haha. nice weather.. and we went supper. haha. yups. he force me eat zhu gan again. haha. but since its his fav and my most ewwks, i shove it into his bowl.. haha. he can have all. bleahz. hm.. on fri i finally went to sch.. LOL.. went to took bike wid lynn without helmets! LOL.. damn windy.. lol.. after sch went baleistier to eat my Bah ku teh!!! damn happy! lol.. den its like super peppery.. but its freakin nice.. love it!LOL.. after tt we went novena to meet joe after tt..

sat was a boring boring day! haiz. stayed hm like the whole day doing nothing.. was so bored till i ask my bro to acc me to pick ticks outta ritchie. haha. haiz.. sentosa cove.. cant believe i was invited to house warming in sentosa cove.. god.. my dream hse.. haha.

hm.. bah ku teh after bah ku teh.. was forced to eat the most zhu gan (pig liver) in my life ever. LOL.. manage to force em dwn my throat.. duno he force me eat cuz he know i gt menses (meant to be nutritious) .. or he juz enjoy seeing my suffering face.. but thanks anyway..

today went out wid vik instead of sentosa. haiz. woke up feeling cramped and tired. haiz. ya.. aunty visit. i hate being a girl. damn! haiz. poor us. both of us were sick.. for me is a monthly affair lah. but poor vik get well soon. haiz.. went over to far east, so went over to find sharry. haiz. hope ur ah ma will get well soon. dun worry cuz everything will be fine.. :) cheer up okies? and lucky i nv whack u v.hard.. haha.

haiz.. shuhui can be a baby whenever she is sick. haiz. suddenly feel so sad. cuz when i needed someone to sayang me, watch me to sleep, cook for me, take care of me and cover my blanket, and coax me to slp when ever i am sick.. but tts me.. and i juz cant think of any.. haiz. i need ppl to pamper.. haha. nvm.. i shall look out for the right one! haha. *cough cough* for application forms pls nudge me in msn. haha. ppl shorter or younger den me need not apply. haha. god.. dere is like 1001 things running through my mine nw.. i cant sleep... but i have to!!! haiz.. even though i have switched to listening to bossa nova to set me in the mood to sleep. but i juz cant sleep!!! haiz.. wth! sleep sleep sleep. else i will look like panda or i wun make it to sch! damn!!! i muz go to sch! GO TO BED AND GO TO SCHOOL! somebody help me!!! set me to the sleepy mode and get me out of the post holis mood.. and pull up my socks and study hard.. go to sch! RAWRS!!! wad can i say.. i think i am in a mess nw.. havin been goin to sch for the past 3 days.. and tts v.bad.. didnt i stop tt bad habit of mine? haiz. i guess its post holis issit? i better buck up! so i am v.determine to make it to sch! I MUST DO IT!

canoe training was alrite.. paddles 5km.. think my T1 cant move.. mayb i did something wrong.. will try to figure out the next water session.. haiz..

few days ago chatted wid cindy. and i realise tt i need to face my fears and conquer em.. i shud nt let wad he said affect me all my life.. its juz some crude coments tt i shud nt pay attention to. so wad if they sucks? i can do better next time..for someone hu will appreciate.. and i am happy tt someone told me " try doin it for me.. if really nt nice den try to improve the next time u do it.." haiz.. u duno hw much it means to me to hear tt.. it gives me courage again..

its like after several incidents.. i started to turn to u when ever i can.. be it when i am drunk, when i am bored, when i wan to whine even when i am havin a nitemare, i call u in my dreams to ask u for help.. haha. silly me. haiz.. mayb to u its juz platonic or i am simply juz one of them.. since u said tt ur a v.busy wid ur datessss.. haha. shrugs.. but it seems like i am a forbidden fruit to u..i duno why but i juz wan to be dere whenever u need me to.. b ur listening ears. it feels gd to be bullied by u.. haha. =X

as for u.. its been so long.. nw tt ur happily attached.. i mean i can see tt she means alot to u.. haiz. i noe i had longed be replaced.. i have asked myself soooo many times.. do i still love u? do u still stand a place in my heart.. in fact everyone ask me tt.. but i cant seem to have an answer to it.. i do miss u sometimes.. think abt the time we used to share.. but all the bads juz made it impossible to tog again.. becos of u.. i cant love again.. my relationships after u were all short.. mayb its my fault to some what compare em to u.. i cant find tt feeling back.. i want to love and be loved again.. but first i need to learn to love again..

u came out frm no where after 3 yrs.. its too sudden.. but i appreciate tt u appeared.. i noe its nt goin anywhere.. but dis is weird.. haha. i am comfortable when i am wid u.. its like whenever i think of u, u will pop out frm no where giving my surprise.. i guess we r each others companions. someone to be dere when things went wrong.. someone to be dere when we r lonely.. shrugs.. juz let things carry on till someone put it to an end. haha. its self declare holis today.. was so tired! when i wake up i was freakin hungry! so i have to go back to sch for UT. haiz. was so freakin hungry tt i went straight to J8 basement and bought 3 big fried prawns dumpling and a puff frm polar.. haha. went i reach woodlands, i tot i am still quite early.. haha. so i went to cold storage to find my MOCHI! haha.. but i bought mogu mogu instead! haha. cuz cold storage dun hav.. haha. so i went over to civic plaza to find MOCHI! haha. i finally did! ubberly happy! haha. and i share it wid lynn! sweet isnt it? haha.

so UT was a flop.. absolutely appreciate Lim's offer to pillion me hm.. haha. was wearing my short shorts and i swear my ass is gg to have abrasion.. haha. hu noes aunts wans to meet me at thomson plaza after i gt hm.. hm.. so i went over.. haha. bought MOCHI and durian! haha. damn freakin happy tt i fufilled all my cravings! haha. bad thing is.. i gt a new crave.. haha. BAH KU TEH! god.. tt means wad i did yest.. yes.. they are all dwn the drain.. hm.. havent been updating for a few days.. let goldfish refresh her memories.. i cant remember the sequences. but i noe i missed sunday's and sat's water training.. haiz.. y do i love to slp soooo much.. and i finally change a new hp! haha. to z610i.. thanks daddy. and happy fathers' day! had dinner tog as a family... YUMMY! but i still didnt get to eat my mochi and durian yet!

first day of sch! well done! i made it to sch though i am late. haha. but its better den i nv go to sch at all rite? haha. so first day of sch is plain tiring.. i can nv fall aslp until 3am! haiz.. can u believe it? its like 13 hrs of sch for me and my teammates today!

canoe training
god! its 5km.. gym and abs.. god i am dying.. nv sweat tt much b4! whole towel is wet.. haiz.. i am soooo tired.. and for my gym.. i guess i increase almost all my weights.. die!!! i am glad tt i gt shimin to motivate me when i wanna give up.. GO! GO! GO!
lets burn water! XA! XA! XA!

vb training..
super freakin late for it. and i cant seem to bring myself to tell coach tt i am late and the reason why.. so shy.. haha. didnt get to play anyway.. as they were training for POLITE.. its quite obvious tt i will nt be in main 12.. nvm.. train harder.. =)

when i got hm.. i realise my arms are freakin wobbly... i have prob washing hair.. ya.. its tt bad!
nvm.. i am one step closer to HOT bod provided if i dun eat mac wid upsize ice milo and fries.. shud have juz drink soya milk! haiz.. nvm.. next week! lets BURN BURN BURN!!!


RAWRS! hm.. i finally finally made it to canoe training.. haha. and everyone was like "huh?! wah i tot u quit liao leh! haha. so long nv come for training.." haha. so paddled 6km.. did 30 pull ups and 6 sets of 20 pushups.. and wanna noe the best part? for every 1 sec ur late.. ur suppose to do 1 push up.. haha. and i owe 1200.. haha. well done.. do until i wanna die. haha. den after i had finished.. si hong told me tt i only need to do 600.. RAHS!!!

after tt went billy's hse.. wasnt intending to stay over at first. in fact i din wan to go.. but i went instead.. haha. peer pressure!!! lilin and shi min.. talk and talk play and play.. we ended up stayin over. haha. went to IMM wid billy and benedict. haha. damn funny.. i was like super lazy.. haha. so i sat inside the trolley.. haha. den they often dessert me and say out loudly "WAH LAO!!! so big already still sit inside trolley.. republic poly one.." haha.. i totally understand hw toddlers felt in their pram..

haha. we ordered loads of pizza and eat up everything. haha. shared bed wid shimin and lilin.. haha. woke up seeing neo poking my face.. haha. and i would v.much see neo's mum! wahaha. freakin cute and interesting.. haha. no regrets going.. haha. and thanks billy!

haiz. migraine migraine!!! good thing is i gt benedict wid me all the way to yishun and rite after benedict walk out rayson came along and i happen to have company all the way to bishan.. haha. appreciate tt.. cuz i didnt bring mp3!!! haha.

went grandma's hse for dinner and stuff. haha. well, absolutely happy to see her!!! :) haiz.. boring boring day.. actually wanted to go RP for bbq to celeb gary.. hu noes when i call him i realise he noe nuts abt it. and wanna go nite safari instead! so wads the point of going when bday boy is not going. was struggling.. the girls going zouk but i didnt wan to go.. so i duno where to go. actually wanna go to granny's hse.. haiz. bloody cant decide! =(

so lynn came to my hse.. haha. ma lu to the max.. when i cleared everything on my bed except that bright pink la senza bra lying on the table.. den when the lynn and her guys fren came.. the guys were like "wth!!! y u throw ur bra everywhere?" rahs.. so paiseh!!! den we went upp thomson for dinner. wanted to go granny's hse.. in the end i juz went hm.. haiz. cuz by the time its already too late already.. haiz.

i want to eat mochi!!! but it seems like its not selling anywhere and gary gt tons of them in his freezer! BOYFRIEND!!! u noe wad to do rite? haha. den i wan to eat durian.. called daddy but he didnt pick up.. by the time he call back he is already at our doorsteps.. haiz. pathetic..

boring like hell! its like its a wednesday nite and there is no interesting shows.. haiz. wth! watching tt stupid altered species.. so stupid and fake.. haiz. if not its either documentry on countries or news.. god.. save me from all these!

rahs.. pls wake up tml for canoe training! cant slack anymore!!! WAKE UP!!! hm.. wad can i say.. well.. it ended.. guess age does matter.. differences in many many ways.. we r definitely not looking at the same direction. but we noe that it is not going anywhere.. so we end it.. kiss goodbye and bid goodbye.. no idea when we would ever meet again though..

so.. finally i manage to do some abs excercise! pls keep up the good wrk. and i have to stop slacking and start training! when was the last time i actually went for canoe training?! Haiz. pls buck up! BURN! BURN! BURN! pain is good.. but my wrist is killing me! i need tape or watch to support it! hm.. pls take care! okok.. shall start blogging again. i guess its been quite awhile since i last blog. haha. been behaving like a goldfish lately. and i am scared! haha. i dun wanna be so forgetful.. hm.. so many things have happened within these few days.. well started dating wid joeseph when we decided to catch up after 3 yrs? well we have all changed. i am older nw.. haha. and he had somewad turn into an excutive.. haha.. a workaholic!

hm.. few days back caught blades of glory.. nice show.. yest went to wrk for mum.. haiz. was actually quite alrite lah. haha.. damn sian... but good thing is cousin is dere.. haha. den rushed hm. to change and meet aunt.. den we went chinatown intending to makes specs frm dere. but we went to toa payoh.. hehe. got myself a red pair of glasses! i look like teacher according to the rest.. haha. den went zouking!

the queue was freakin crazy.. we reach b4 10 but we couldnt get in! hm.. was kinda fun and i didnt really drink cuz the drinks sucks.. den we hit the dance floor. wah!!! guys r soooooo aggressive! gt this guy keep hugging jiesi and moving his hands up..omg.. we all feel so violated.. haha. den jiesi was like"HELP!!!!" and keep squeezing my hand.. haha. so we swapped place.. and he did the same.. haha. so we keep swapping place. haha. den ivan jacky they all were dere too. cuz its jacky's bday. haha. sharry was dancing wid ivan.. and they kissed! madness.. haha. den jacky was like vieing to dance wid lynn! haha.. so we had dis mini "battle" haha. i dance my way dwn and lick her all the way frm her wrist to her shoulder! wahaha. jacky gave a v.sian look.. haha. so he held another guy's hand and did wad i did to lynn! wahaha.. den it was jacky's cousin! omg.. at first loretta was holding his hands and leading the way.. so happen tt i am in between.. so he was like so close to me smelling my hair and stuff.. i was kinda ewww.. but cant blame him also cuz loretta was like pulling him to me.. but went he dance!!! OMG!!! he is another madness. he look so innocent!!! as in he dun look like he dance until so wild.. haha sharon was like "HELP HELP HELP!!!"

hmm.. get to noe bboys frm overseas.. haha. unico is sooo hot.. haha. i think he is cute. haha. cant believe he is 19.. haha. bboy choco is cute too. frm taiwan! haha. his bod is hot hot! but he is too fair.. but still hot. haha. den i saw ray! haha. another ray.. haha. jere's ray.. haha. i think he is cute though the rest dun agree.. haha. saw gabbie like finally!!! so gave him a tight hug! haha.. den we talk and talk.. haha. den we left for home sweet home.. haha... hm.. wad did i do yest.. let me think.. i feel like i am like a goldfish.. a goldfish of 3 sec memory span.. tts pretty good i guess.. oh.. i remember! i went training.. nothing much though.. haha. was supposed to go for canoe training but haiz. i cant wake up! i hate myself for sleeping so much. but its the first time i fully occupy my queen size bed! haha. damn shiok.. usually i will cramp to the side where is usually sleep.. haha. went PHS to watch the finals! hm.. all i can say is tough match!!! sembawang no.6 is hot hot! haha. anyway PHS won anyway! after tt went tpy to eat. hm.. talk cock sing song awhile den go home. haiz. so sian! i have to go wrk tml! all thanks to mum! haiz. i loathe her! haha.. hm.. training was horrible.. my wrist is breaking! omg.. my ass n my thighs.. tsk.. muz roll n roll n roll.. tsk..omg.. PAIN..

went ikea n mustafa wid jj.. lol.. nothing much.. bought a lamp frm ikea n a hse phone! lol.. damn happy.. lol.. finally gt my lamp! thanks jj! hm.. simply had not much recollection. went to give it a try but i guess nervousness don get u anywhere.. haha. den went town wid auston and gary to meet nigel! haha. nice to meet all of them since i haven seen them for quite some time. but nigel left shortly and anavil joined. haha. so we went to ktv together. i get to sing out loud. and i realise i sucks at chinese.. haha. its tt bad! tsk.. btw nice meeting auston! haha.

after tt i meet my other frens to go SUNDAY PARTY!!! wahaha.. at st james. first time dere. nv really get to explore was in the VIP place. the first time i got treated for drinks. haha. ironic thing is; its a gay tt treated me! haha. but he is nice! haha. its a JUG of vodka ribena! omg.. dere r 5 of us... we get 1 Jug each!!! can u believe hw rich these gays are? haiz.. i need a sugar daddy.. haha. JK! yest was v.wasted! =( i nv let my self out of control like dis b4.. crazy lil things u do when ur drunk.. god.. nvm.. den they had to call my other fren to pick me up..

haiz.. u noe hu u are if ur reading dis. sorry!!! and i think i dun wanna drink again lers!!! rahs.. had a hard time bathing! cant even stand still! haiz.. den i realise ritchie had crushed my specs.. so i need to get new one!!! rahs!!! hm.. random random things.. while i was bathing i tot of many things to blog abt.. but i juz cant seem to remember anything nw.. hm.. weird..

went to IT show.. god.. its sooo crowded.. haha. saw my eye candy and some of the ppl frm my sch. haha. wanted to buy HD.. haiz. btw happen to saw keith and his frens so join em since i was alone. kinda akward cuz they r jj's frens. haha. den b4 tt went to service my lappy! cant take it man! rahs!!!

finally met wid oldie! omg.. i miss her so much! haha. cant even remember when was the last time we met.. but well.. good catch.. cyndi seems nice.. most importantly she is patient and she accepts u for hu u r and tolerates ur nonsense! haha. so hold on tite!!! nice meeting her too. haha. friendly.. but her car is kinda shortie-unfriendly.. haha. i had to climb in and i almost fall out of the car.. haha. too high already.. but thanks for the ride!!!

we were talkin abt human. haha. so i asked this if u have found $10 and $50 on the floor.. which would u pick? haha. i so happen to be the $10! haha. and vik is the $2! wahaha.. but cyndi came up wid a better one. haha. so she was like saying $10 and $50 is at two far end.. when u walk to pick up the $50 when u turn back the $10 is already gone. haha.

saw ray today! haha. and i finally noe hu is jonas.. haha. btw he sayanged my head.. haha. i juz have a soft spot for ppl sayanging me! wahaha. haiz. saw ivan and gang and gary too. hm.. grass is definitely better on the other side! if dis dun suit den choose others lah! y so si ban! haha. haiz.. saw so many hot gays.. haiz. i think i go be lesbian better.. haha.

saw dis girl pillion this guy! omg.. i am absolutely proud of her!!! haha. i wanna be tt kind of girl. spend her own money drive her own ride. independent alpha femme!

went to sony erricsson juz nw! haha. i miss all of u! haha. i miss siew hoon auntie also.. haha. where is ming ming?!!! haha. jia yous jia yous jia yous! i can do it! =) oh its vesek day.. am quite bored though! haiz. wanted to go canoe training wan.. haiz. bloody hell woke up at 2pm! haiz.. didnt even go sentosa.. so stay at home and slack and clean my room up abit! haiz.. den went to granny's hse for dinner. hm.. pretty bored nothing much.. damn i think i am bloody lifeless nw. haiz.. sian!